In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Ah, you are my beautiful and precious love, my Julia. Yes, it saddens me that I wasn't able to make your breakfast in bed, or buy you sweet things for your birthday. It's been raining everyday again. My right eyeball hurts, and I feel feverish. I don't want to get ill, because I've had so much to do everyday. I pray you are pacing yourself, and taking good care of yourself. Did you have a good birthday? I hope you gave yourself a nice halal treat for your birthday. You are my love, and I cherish you.
Now, now my dearest. Please try to stay calm. It is OK to be afraid, but you must put your fear in the right place! Put your fear in Allah, and Allah will be the One to keep you cool as the old cucumber. InsyaAllah. I am just a servant of Allah, a tool, a vessel to carry a few ghosts perhaps. From your perspective, I am here to love you, help protect you and give you security, and give you a family that's all your own. Certainly the massive scale of the situation has put you in awe, but this is not really my affair. This situation belongs to Allah. Which is also why I have to tolerate my frustrating poverty with patience until Allah deems it appropriate for me to have wealth. You have patience too, and take a leap of faith, and know that there is no running away from Allah. There is only running to Allah.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Letter to Julia 20121103
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Happy birthday, Julia! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!!
I thought I'd say it all again, because I adore you so much! Besides, I'm one day ahead of your time zone, right? So how are you, my beloved? I pray you are well. Please take good care of yourself, and make sure you eat properly. It has been raining everyday here since the full moon, but right before the full moon it was 2 days of blistering heat. What wacky weather. Oh, I was crying last letter because I couldn't serve you breakfast in bed, or afford to buy you even a Flake bar. No, I wouldn't have ordered pizza delivery for breakfast. I do know how to make pizza from scratch you know, as long as the cheese is good.
Happy birthday, Julia! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!!
I thought I'd say it all again, because I adore you so much! Besides, I'm one day ahead of your time zone, right? So how are you, my beloved? I pray you are well. Please take good care of yourself, and make sure you eat properly. It has been raining everyday here since the full moon, but right before the full moon it was 2 days of blistering heat. What wacky weather. Oh, I was crying last letter because I couldn't serve you breakfast in bed, or afford to buy you even a Flake bar. No, I wouldn't have ordered pizza delivery for breakfast. I do know how to make pizza from scratch you know, as long as the cheese is good.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Letter to Julia 20121102
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Happy birthday, Julia! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Yeah, I know I'm early, but tomorrow is Friday, and I won't be coming to the Internet cafe because of Friday prayer. If we happened to be married and lived together, I would make you breakfast in bed. Ice cream and pizza for breakfast! And if I were loaded, I would buy you some birthday presents. I think the rings are kind of gawdy, perhaps something a little more demure? I don't know the names of flowers yet, so a rose bouquet will have to do. I'm going to have to visit the fancy flower shop to get something better. The chocolate is great, though. You must have some. And yes Julia, I love you. Oodles and oodles!
**sob**
Happy birthday, Julia! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Woo hoo!! Yeah, I know I'm early, but tomorrow is Friday, and I won't be coming to the Internet cafe because of Friday prayer. If we happened to be married and lived together, I would make you breakfast in bed. Ice cream and pizza for breakfast! And if I were loaded, I would buy you some birthday presents. I think the rings are kind of gawdy, perhaps something a little more demure? I don't know the names of flowers yet, so a rose bouquet will have to do. I'm going to have to visit the fancy flower shop to get something better. The chocolate is great, though. You must have some. And yes Julia, I love you. Oodles and oodles!
**sob**
Monday, October 29, 2012
Letter to Julia 20121030
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi Julia. my beautiful young bride! I pray you are feeling well, and taking good care of yourself. There are 2 distinct rings around the full moon this morning. I already guzzled all that sauerkraut I made, I'm sorry I didn't leave any for you. That stuff sure goes fast, especially if you cook things in it.
As I told you before, I'm trying to put "wiser" vocals to "Shadowplay's Greatest Hits part 3: the Struggle to be Normal", because I discovered instrumental tracks on my hard drive, as I had lost all the masters when I lost my home studio in America. There are 2 tracks without instrumentals, "Dragonfly" is one of them. So right now I'm trying to double the old track, which isn't loud enough. This is very difficult, not only because the song is difficult to sing to begin with, but I have to match the timing of the old vocal track which can't be heard properly, with new vocals that don't suck. So I'm having a tough time with that right now, because everything I do sucks. I can't justify myself. I'm just trying to compensate for my imperfections. None of us have the right to justify ourselves. Allah is the One who purifies.
Now as I think more about it, you will have to bear this little house to some extent, no matter how much money pours in. This is because of land issues. There will be land issues no matter what country you live in. Plus, it would take time to build the proper "Casa de Julia", and we will need to house you while we supervise the construction. No, I don't have architecture yet. I'm sorry, but I can't draw. So, I pray you have a solid image for your house. No, I'm not trying to justify myself. I'm just trying to compensate for my imperfections.
Hi Julia. my beautiful young bride! I pray you are feeling well, and taking good care of yourself. There are 2 distinct rings around the full moon this morning. I already guzzled all that sauerkraut I made, I'm sorry I didn't leave any for you. That stuff sure goes fast, especially if you cook things in it.
As I told you before, I'm trying to put "wiser" vocals to "Shadowplay's Greatest Hits part 3: the Struggle to be Normal", because I discovered instrumental tracks on my hard drive, as I had lost all the masters when I lost my home studio in America. There are 2 tracks without instrumentals, "Dragonfly" is one of them. So right now I'm trying to double the old track, which isn't loud enough. This is very difficult, not only because the song is difficult to sing to begin with, but I have to match the timing of the old vocal track which can't be heard properly, with new vocals that don't suck. So I'm having a tough time with that right now, because everything I do sucks. I can't justify myself. I'm just trying to compensate for my imperfections. None of us have the right to justify ourselves. Allah is the One who purifies.
Now as I think more about it, you will have to bear this little house to some extent, no matter how much money pours in. This is because of land issues. There will be land issues no matter what country you live in. Plus, it would take time to build the proper "Casa de Julia", and we will need to house you while we supervise the construction. No, I don't have architecture yet. I'm sorry, but I can't draw. So, I pray you have a solid image for your house. No, I'm not trying to justify myself. I'm just trying to compensate for my imperfections.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Letter to Julia 20121029
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi Julia! Hi Sweetie! Hi Precious! Hi Beloved! How are you feeling today, my love? My, you are beautiful, aren't you? I have some good news, my love! My home made sauerkraut turned out perfect! It's got zing, and it's got snap, and it's not even a week old yet! I think I finally figured out a routine on how to combine shredded lettuce, salt, and water in a glass jar. I made a krautburger, and it was so divine, that I had to have another one. Want one? Next step: home made German sausage!
Hi Julia! Hi Sweetie! Hi Precious! Hi Beloved! How are you feeling today, my love? My, you are beautiful, aren't you? I have some good news, my love! My home made sauerkraut turned out perfect! It's got zing, and it's got snap, and it's not even a week old yet! I think I finally figured out a routine on how to combine shredded lettuce, salt, and water in a glass jar. I made a krautburger, and it was so divine, that I had to have another one. Want one? Next step: home made German sausage!
Friday, October 26, 2012
Letter to Julia 20121027
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Dearest Julia, how are you feeling today? You are the most beautiful girl in the world to me, you are all I could ever dream of in a girl for me. I love you, and I choose you to be my wife. I'm not trying to delay our marriage, my love. You must understand that I must always think about your well-being. I cannot take any other position than this as regards to our marriage. That is why I don't want you to marry into my poverty. At the same time, I have faith that Allah will grant me the means to give you a good and happy marriage. If you simply can't wait to be married, then all I have is this little house that I live in by the grace of others. It will need at least a separate bathroom for you, the doorways need to be made taller, and we could probably convert the living room into a bedroom. Oh yes, we'll need a bed. I like sleeping on the floor, though. But whatever you choose to do, please know that I cannot leave the kampung! This is because of my mission to please Allah with music! You must accept this! If you need to go somewhere, then it must be planned way ahead, because I must go with you, because you must not travel alone once we're married. Otherwise be prepared to stay put and create a family. Better yet, please be patient, and have faith that Allah will grant us what we need.
I need to remind you not to ask too many questions that it makes your life difficult. But if you ask questions about the Qur'an as it is being revealed to you, then Allah will forgive that. It has been raining everyday lately. The odd thing is that I have a sunburn on my chest. So I treat it with the snake oil I told you about. Snake oil is great for itchy rashes and sunburns, but I'm running out. I might have to open your bottle. Don't worry, we'll go find the snake oil guy and buy more. InsyaAllah.
Dearest Julia, how are you feeling today? You are the most beautiful girl in the world to me, you are all I could ever dream of in a girl for me. I love you, and I choose you to be my wife. I'm not trying to delay our marriage, my love. You must understand that I must always think about your well-being. I cannot take any other position than this as regards to our marriage. That is why I don't want you to marry into my poverty. At the same time, I have faith that Allah will grant me the means to give you a good and happy marriage. If you simply can't wait to be married, then all I have is this little house that I live in by the grace of others. It will need at least a separate bathroom for you, the doorways need to be made taller, and we could probably convert the living room into a bedroom. Oh yes, we'll need a bed. I like sleeping on the floor, though. But whatever you choose to do, please know that I cannot leave the kampung! This is because of my mission to please Allah with music! You must accept this! If you need to go somewhere, then it must be planned way ahead, because I must go with you, because you must not travel alone once we're married. Otherwise be prepared to stay put and create a family. Better yet, please be patient, and have faith that Allah will grant us what we need.
I need to remind you not to ask too many questions that it makes your life difficult. But if you ask questions about the Qur'an as it is being revealed to you, then Allah will forgive that. It has been raining everyday lately. The odd thing is that I have a sunburn on my chest. So I treat it with the snake oil I told you about. Snake oil is great for itchy rashes and sunburns, but I'm running out. I might have to open your bottle. Don't worry, we'll go find the snake oil guy and buy more. InsyaAllah.
Qur'an 20121027
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
30. Or do they say, "A poet! We await for him some calamity by time!"
31. Say you, "Await you! I too will wait along with you!"
32. Is it that their faculties of understanding urge them to this, or are they but a people transgressing beyond bounds?
33. Or do they say, "He fabricated this?" No, they have no faith!
34. Let them produce a recital like unto it, if they speak the truth!
The Mountain 52:30-34
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Await you! I too will wait along with you!
30. Or do they say, "A poet! We await for him some calamity by time!"
31. Say you, "Await you! I too will wait along with you!"
32. Is it that their faculties of understanding urge them to this, or are they but a people transgressing beyond bounds?
33. Or do they say, "He fabricated this?" No, they have no faith!
34. Let them produce a recital like unto it, if they speak the truth!
The Mountain 52:30-34
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Await you! I too will wait along with you!
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