In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Life is not supposed to be easy. It's not supposed to be fair, it's not supposed to be perfect. You know this. One thing is for certain, is that Allah will test your faith. It is up to you to be patient and persevering, for if you despair, it means you never had any faith to begin with. I can tell you that Allah has granted you great beauty. I can see this. You have what most other women desire, so give thanks to Allah. You also have what most men crave, so please take appropriate behavior to protect yourselves. When we are married inshaAllah, I will help to protect you, but until then please take loving care of yourselves.
I want to remind you that it is very lonely at the top. Very, very few people will understand your problems. But you are at the top. So accept your fate, and deal with it. This is a spiritual game you're playing now, so be aware of it. Don't let people sway you, and they will always try. They may claim that they will bear your faults, but they can't. You are in spiritual reality now: you are responsible for your own soul. With Allah as my Witness, I am with you, and I am faithful. So please be patient, and pray. Put your trust in Allah, be vigilant, and do the best you can. Julia and Erin, you are my wives inshaAllah. I love you, I love you. And I need you, I need you.
Urgh... I was impatient with my fried calamari, but I was hungry. I had too little oil, and too much calamari. It didn't matter that the oil was super hot. It didn't turn out perfect. A combination of eating too much and imperfection. Next time, I'll be more patient. Urgh again.
