Letter to Julia 20131021

Hi there again, my beloved beautiful ones!  How are you handling those emotions today?  Would you like to make some babies with me?  Oh no, don't get me wrong: I'm not asking strictly out of lust.  You see, I'm old, and I have no children.  (Consciously or unconsciously) I never had any children, and I focused on nurturing the music that Allah gave me.  It's been a wild life and I'm still alive alhamdulillah, and now I want to make some babies with you.  Sound good?  I have no heirs or partners, and the music will dissipate when I die.  So for more reasons than this, my business now revolves around my home and family.  You.

It's a global party, and Islam takes the relationship between husband and wife very seriously, so much so that a marriage is legally not valid if it is not consummated.  Sure your position as mothers to my children is heavy, but inshaAllah you are ready, and may Allah subdue those who give you grief about it.  But I am old, and I have probably a third of the libido I had 20 years ago.  But there's no point in wishing I had met you then, because you would have been 9 and 5 years old.  I suppose it's physical, but not physical strength, because I still seem to have a little bit of that.  We all know some dirty old men who grow old and do nothing but follow their lusts.  I can't do that.  I'm in it strictly to love you and to take care of you and our children.  My pleasure is in the love, inshaAllah.  But I am old, and I will need to be on drugs just to keep up with one of you, let alone both of you.  Sex, Viagra, and Rock and Roll!!

I'm not worried about Julia.  She's so brave and sure of herself.  I love that about her.  Erin, you seem a little shy.  Perhaps you are sometimes indecisive.  I'm like that too sometimes.  Yesterday, my Mom asked me, "Do you want some rice?", and I replied, "I don't know what I want," and I got screamed at.  I love you, Mom!  But this isn't about dinner.  Please be ready to be a mother.  I assure you and Julia, with Allah as my witness, that my intentions are purely honorable.  I will love you, and raise a family with you.  InshaAllah.