Letter to Julia 20110705

And what HAVE you been doing, Julia? Hmmm. You're not feeling guilty, are you? Well, whatever it is, I forgive you. We're only human, and we have to do the best with what Allah gives us. Does that make me a go-with-the-flow kind of person? Partly. But you're my girl, Julia. Besides, there aren't that many beautiful blonde German girls here in Perlis, so I have nothing better to do than to love you, be faithful to you, because I want to marry you.

Waiting around can be such a drag, especially when you're young, and surrounded by temptation. You've spent most of your life showing off your beauty, and your job demands that you do so. Hiding that beauty is not easy, I realize. Beauty can be such a burden. People become either fanatical, or jealous. But beautiful women can't hide their beauty, even if they tried. I don't have the same kind of beauty as you, but whatever beauty I have, I use it to serve Allah. Sure, it's because I'm older, and I'm not too influenced by temptation. Temptation to me now is a good fish. Sure I'm older, and more faithful. You wouldn't prefer someone who messes around on you, would you?

Yes, temptation to me now is a good fish. Wow, that red snapper I saw just now sure looked good. Do you know how tasty red snapper meat is? It doesn't need salt, but soy sauce and fresh wasabi amplify the heaven. Hmmm. Scaling and gutting it is such a pain in the ass, especially if the fish is small. I still haven't gotten around to making sweet and sour grouper, or experimenting with short fin tuna. Anyway, I only have 4 (Malaysian) dollars in my wallet right now. I would've had more money, but I got conned into buying expensive cooking oil. Looks like it's going to be mackerel, as usual. But I have shrimp in my cooler, so maybe I'll just settle for shrimp. It's been raining continuosly lately, and the rain stopped just yesterday. I don't want to face another massive flood, ya Allah please. What happened to all my free time? The baby cashews need to be transplanted. The lawn needs weeding. I need to peel and pick fruit! Poor little Chee Cheah needs to have her dinner made fresh! There's too much going on right now to enjoy a good fish. Are you so sure I'm far away from you? Sometimes it feels like I'm looking right over your shoulder.