Letter to Julia 20120324

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

I have been in the music business as a musician for 32 years already, counting the time I was a teenager tooting away on a recorder. Granted, I was clueless and overly concerned about making friends for too many years of that time. I am quite used to the lack of privacy and the dangers of fame by now, not that I like it or approve of it. I have discovered that I'm naturally the loner, I am hardly ever interested in seeking attention, and very stubborn once I've made a decision as to what I want. And I want to marry you, because I love you, and you are all I could ever dream of in a girl. My point is that you are probably more susceptible to the bickerings and whinings of others, as you are still young and have only been modeling for 9 years, and you probably do give somewhat of a shit about what other people say about you. This includes the marriage to me, so it is easy for others to try to threaten and sway you instead of me, considering I'm not there by your side to distract them, and that I'm such a blockhead. This is your time, my love. The spotlight is on you, so please be strong, strengthen your heart, and please know that I do care about you very much, and am waiting patiently for the time when Allah allows us to be happily married together. InsyaAllah.

So obviously I'm waiting for some sort of windfall to be able to marry you, after all, I refuse to give you my poverty. When Allah grants me thus, insyaAllah, first I must remodel this house for marriage. I would like to complete the remodeling before I go and get you, but my parents are old, and I would like for them to attend our wedding before they pass away. So I will at least complete the master bedroom and your office/closet with bathroom, then we can finish the house together. Please don't be too fussy, because I prefer small houses! Look, if you really, really want a big house, we can work it out insyaAllah, but let's start with this small house, and expand SLOWLY. You would be in a better position to exert "control" once you're here and we're legally married. Heh heh. I'm pretty easy-going, and I love my wife. What matters to me is that my parents get to witness our wedding, and that we stay married and loving each other for 2 lifetimes together. But let's do start with this small house that I'm already in, and by the time you're here, I would obviously no longer be financially paralyzed, otherwise I wouldn't make the trip to Germany at all. I hope we can carry on life as usual as they put in a new roof, and I also hope you like cats and chickens. Anyway, when I'm ready, I will go to Germany to get you, insyaAllah, and you must be there to meet me and be easy to find, for your absence will be a confirmation that you are not interested in this marriage. I will seek you out at the the offices of the Louisa Modeling Agency, I will give notice of my intended arrival, and please pray that I will have a safe and easy journey. Please remember to prepare a female chaperon for your journey to Malaysia, and wedded bliss. InsyaAllah.

The problem with control is that humans are out of control. They rebel against God for the purpose of ARROGANCE, and this is true up to the highest ranking and wealthiest humans. God warns in the Qur'an that the Signs of God are sent to put fear in people, but this fear only increases their inordinate transgression. That is why patience is the weapon of choice for the righteous, to wait until God deals directly with the stubborn transgressors from directions they do not perceive.