Sunday, October 2, 2011

Letter to Julia 20111003

Hi Gorgeous! Have you been staying busy? I'm sure you have. Just make sure you take good care of yourself, and maintain your prayers. I was thinking about how unlike a scenester I am, or ever was. When I was a young musician, of course I would make the efforts and pains to socialize and attend parties, in the name of music business. Like any immature idiot, I thought I was somewhat special for doing so. I would try to start up a band with anybody God put in my path, just for the sake of having a band, and playing out. There was never any method per se, and I would just write any song that came to my fingers, and instantly gave it for the band to play. But at the end of the workday at 2 or 3am, I would always wind up alone in my apartment. Now, I am exhausted of trying to party and socialize and being who I'm not for the sake of music business. Becoming a drummer is most useful for writing music, because I can complete entire songs in my head just by tapping out beats, and humming the melody in secret, while weeding out my chilli patch. Well, that's not necessarily my creative protocol. Just as long as I'm left alone with the means to produce music. I'm a crummy politician, huh? I'm vague as hell, huh? I'm also much older than most active musicians, but alhamdulillah (praise Allah), I'm still alive. I'm certainly a much different scenester than I was 20 years ago. So, what is the type of scene I am in now?

Well, I'm far from done, because I have a spiritual agenda to please Allah with music, and I am not allowed to quit. So, what is the type of scene I am in now? I don't know! Let's just say that I want to be happy, with my sweetie. I can tell you what the makeup of the audience of my live shows are/should be. I have absolutely no intention or desire to tour, so for concerts here in Perlis, the audience must be divided into 3 sections. Section one is for single females 13 and over, section two is for married couples with/or children under the age of 13, and section three is for single males 13 and over.