Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Letter to Julia 20110627

Oh dear Julia, I'm getting my dates mixed up lately... to tell you the truth, sometimes I don't even know what day it is. It's all this free time (which I love, alhamdulillah), I seem to be caught in a time warp.

I'm sure you are working hard. I am a natural worker, I stopped school to go to work, I even relax by working. As the result, all my knowledge was derived from the need to adapt to my work, as opposed to being tutored. I suppose Allah tutored me, and the knowledge given by Allah is the best. Why do we work so hard? When I was younger, I was like most others you would find in my field: a reckless clown, but a hard worker. But all that hard work only took me up to a certain point, which I could not pass. There was something I was not aware of, which was not a formal education, because I saw many others with degrees stuck at the same place as I. Sure, show business is tough. Some say that only a few people hold the best positions, and they don't give it away, except maybe to kinfolk. As a result, I was isolated. So I took my relationship with God more and more seriously, until it became my agenda, to please Allah with music. Allah has been my only friend through many hardships. I wish I had attained awareness when I was young, then I wouldn't have made so many errors. But I have to do the best with what Allah gives me.

We cannot take our religion to be mere amusement and play, and put our work for material gains above all else. Forget all those other people Julia, as God forgets them, as they forget God. Please take your religion seriously. It's not just that I cannot marry you unless you become a Muslim, but you must be sincere in your relationship with God, or you will harm us both. Please maintain your prayers, and don't pray where people can see you unless it's a group prayer. Hide.

Letter to Julia 20110627

Oh dear Julia, I'm getting my dates mixed up lately... to tell you the truth, sometimes I don't even know what day it is. It's all this free time (which I love, alhamdulillah), I seem to be caught in a time warp.

I'm sure you are working hard. I am a natural worker, I stopped school to go to work, I even relax by working. As the result, all my knowledge was derived from the need to adapt to my work, as opposed to being tutored. I suppose Allah tutored me, and the knowledge given by Allah is the best. Why do we work so hard? When I was younger, I was like most others you would find in my field: a reckless clown, but a hard worker. But all that hard work only took me up to a certain point, which I could not pass. There was something I was not aware of, which was not a formal education, because I saw many others with degrees stuck at the same place as I. Sure, show business is tough. Some say that only a few people hold the best positions, and they don't give it away, except maybe to kinfolk. As a result, I was isolated. So I took my relationship with God more and more seriously, until it became my agenda, to please Allah with music. Allah has been my only friend through many hardships. I wish I had attained awareness when I was young, then I wouldn't have made so many errors. But I have to do the best with what Allah gives me.

We cannot take our religion to be mere amusement and play, and put our work for material gains above all else. Forget all those other people Julia, as God forgets them, as they forget God. Please take your religion seriously. It's not just that I cannot marry you unless you become a Muslim, but you must be sincere in your relationship with God, or you will harm us both. Please maintain your prayers, and don't pray where people can see you unless it's a group prayer. Hide.