Hi Honey! How are you feeling? Are you wanting to hide yourself again? I think I know how you are feeling. I suppose you are having trouble expressing yourself. Your fans and friends try to communicate for you with good intent, but only you know the depth of your beautiful heart. So keep on producing poetry, paintings and such. Express yourself. You don't have to show them to anyone. You are unhappy. As I told you before, there is no such thing as "the perfect feeling". Not in this life. The next life will be better, for the righteous soul. Please learn to embrace the next best feeling, which is patience. However, even unhappiness isn't absolute. If you try hard and want it hard enough, you will find some sort of blessing in yourself that ruins the gloom. Now don't you worry Honey, everything is going to turn out just great inshaAllah. I will marry you inshaAllah. We'll get there. I love you.
Hey there, Natty honey! You on the other hand, don't feel fear at all right now. You are excited as can be, all this craziness is tons of fun, and it's kicking you upstairs. Which is great, of course! It is OK to be afraid, though. Put your fear in God. God can make the pits bearable. Please pray.
