Letter to Julia 20110711

Hi there, my Julia. How's business? I pray that you are taking good care of yourself, for I'm sure you are working very hard. And yes, you are my girl, and I want to marry you, so don't let them push you around. You are my beautiful love, and I could not find a more beautiful girl than you, you are all I could ever want in a girl, so I don't bother looking for another. I remain here waiting for the time when Allah will allow me to take the trip to go get you, and we can begin our life together.

I certainly am getting used to my daily routine, impoverished as it may be right now, but I don't feel much suffering, alhamdulillah. That's because I've been through much worse in the past. Not to say that I love adversity, or that I want to get used to it: I'd rather not. It would be nice to be wealthy for a change, and not have to watch out for bad guys all the time. But we can't be complaisant in this life, for only the next life is perfect. Besides, I can only marry you if I am wealthy, because I don't want you to ever go through the crap I've been through. I want us to adjust our work schedules to be synchronous with each other, and be safe, and happy together. I am really tired of traveling, but I haven't even done my Hajj yet, so I guess that means I have many thousand miles ahead of me left. Ya Allah, please let it be first class.

And poor little Chee Cheah, she's not a young kitten: my Mom tells me that she's already 8 years old. She doesn't like strangers, and I'm the only human who's ever spoiled her. And she's such an adorable kitty, she deserves to be spoiled. Anyway, this means that she absolutely cannot travel, for the stress will kill her. I couldn't bring Phantom back to Malaysia for the same reason. Our life in the USA wasn't easy, but I did the best I could to pamper her. She gave me 11 years of her life, and I miss her dearly. We parted under adverse conditions. Having to leave Phantom, and the death of Andre, are the biggest resentments about the USA that I will never be rid of.

Yeah, I love cats. This little house is perfect for me and my kitty. And even if I do become wealthy, I wouldn't want to get a bigger house. I would just perfect this house and yard, and build extensions if I'm forced to. Keeping this house and yard tidy is a lot of work as it is, and I'm still far from perfect in that regard. If Julia ever comes to live here, then I would definitely need a maid and a gardener, then we would need to keep an eye on them. But we would have to travel together, huh? Are you weary of travel yet, Julia? I would guess not. Would you like a little house in the Ardennes, or the Swiss alps? I hate the city, Julia. I don't feel like moving from here at all, especially if I can afford 24/7 air-conditioning. But all good things must come to an end, especially if I want something better.