Honey if you're worried about the London and Paris gigs, I don't blame you. Just go do the shows, whether they be full or not, just go and do your best.
You've been drinking when you're shy and afraid. Lately there has been no hesitation, there you go again. You may think it's harmless and temporary, but it isn't. Alcohol is the most dangerous of recreational drugs because it's legal yet lethal. It doesn't numb your emotions but amplifies them. I won't be married to an alcoholic or junkie. Please stay clean!
Instead of drinking at a party, bring a book along. Go to a quiet corner and start reading.
