Letter to Julia 20120112

**caution** Clam broth becomes poisonous quickly, even when it's frozen, so please make sure you use up your clam broth immediately, ja? I've never been at the point where I always have the right ingredients, because I've always been kind of poor. Even when I was working regularly, I spent a lot of money on music and music related expenses. Hey, entertainment business is expensive, y'know! You didn't think this is my hobby, did you? I wasn't just vegetating on a couch watching cable TV and eating bon bons, I was doing research and development! Anyway, since I didn't have that much money to spare for doing R&D on food business, I had to go with the flow and make do with what was on sale and whatever leftovers I had. Which caused a few stomachaches, because you can never absolutely trust what other people put in their cooking. Which is why I like my own cooking, because I don't give myself food poisoning even though I try not to waste anything, and I have to use leftovers on many occasions. InsyaAllah, by cooking my own food I can avoid food poisoning. But I would really prefer fresh ingredients all the time.

Perfection is for the next life. For today's dinner however, I made myself beef hash on rice. The fried onions were easy enough, but I didn't have veal stock or tomato paste. So I used leftover mutton soup and chilli sauce (which is basically tomato ketchup with chilli flavoring) which I had bought a half-gallon bottle. It tasted OK. The beef was cheap, and therefore chewy. I could have taken more pains to tenderize it, by marinading it properly and using butter, but I didn't have much butter left, plus there isn't much time between the Magrib and Isya' prayers to cook and eat. I suppose I could have taken my time, but I wanted to do other important things, like eat junk food, watch Shadowplay TV, and write to my sweetie. Hi Sweetie! You're so gorgeous, my lovely Julia.

Well, I never got around to eating much junk food. I wound up vacuuming my bedroom, then preparing my computer for more music work. I'm getting swamped with chores. So, when the money starts rolling in, insyaAllah, I'll have to avoid buying more stuff until I have completed preparing this house for our marriage. I do so dislike big houses, Julia. But I'll take what Allah gives me. If Allah did not wish to save you, then Allah would not have involved you in all this Islam. God would have left you to stray and closed up your heart, left you suffocating and always trying to climb up to the heights.

Qur'an 20120112

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

23. God cannot be questioned for God's acts, but they will be questioned.

24. Or have they taken for worship gods besides God? Say, "Bring your convincing proof. This is a Message of those with me and the Message of those before me." But most of them know not the truth, and so turn away.

The Prophets 21:23-24
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Bring your convincing proof. This is a Message of those with me and the Message of those before me.