Letter to Julia 20111010

YOOOOOLIIIIIEEEEEE!

Do you know what I miss the most about the city, Julia? It's all the stuff I accumulated before I got ousted from my home and possessions. Sure, it's because I was forced to quit the pizza job, and when I did 5 hours of kitchen work yesterday, the pain in my leg remended me why. I sometimes think that I should have been allowed sustenance as a musician while I was there, but that's all passe now. Anyway, the American brands are of course hard to get over here, but what are the American brands anymore? Everything is made in China, or somewhere in Asia nowadays. I guess I mean the musical instruments, and stuff like that. But it's not even that, that I miss. It's the accumulation of the little things like my collection of plugs, adaptors, and transformers, the antiques and uniques, like my Intel PC featuring a DX386 CPU with a math co-processor which I used only for recording music but it also had a 14.4 kbps modem which allowed me to surf the web way back in 1998, a 3W stereo tube amp which I found at a yard sale, which electrocuted me every time I touched it but drove a pair of 2" speakers like a screaming banshee, my itty-bitty mp3 randomizer with a battery powered fm transmitter relay system which broadcast Shadowplay Radio 24 hours everyday waaaaay below 1W, my tiny little 2.1 stereo system with just a 4" speaker for the subwoofer, but it was the loudest compact vocal amp I ever experienced such as the neighbors complained about the volume on numerous occasions. Not that I wanted to rile the neighbors, but the number of people getting upset about the music is a gauge of Rock and Roll. But as for the city itself, I don't miss it at all.

Of course there was all that music that was lost, which was crap anyway because I had no wisdom back then, but they are my memories, the witnesses to how deep into the abyss I ventured when Allah saved me every time. And I did wander aimlessly, I wasn't searching for Allah because I never really lost my faith, but I wandered for the sake of music business. Allah was and is my only friend on countless occasions, I truly appreciate that. So when I got older, I gave the music back to Allah. I guess that means that the music is for Allah. I wouldn't call the music a collection of hymns though. It's still rock music.

Qur'an 20111010

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

27. The unbelievers say, "Why is not a sign sent down to him from his Lord?" Say, "Truly Allah leaves to stray whom God will, but God guides to Godself those who turn to God in penitence."

The Thunder 13:27
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Truly Allah leaves to stray whom God will, but God guides to Godself those who turn to God in penitence.