Let's face it- public speaking can be a tremendous strain on the heart. Whether your heart be young or old, you get your emotions boiling in the heat of battle, and you go home still seething and thinking about the fight as you toss and turn in bed. It's impossible to say the right thing all the time. It's easier to look back and think to yourself, "Oh I should have said this, and I should have answered that, etc etc". Well you have to calm your heart down somehow, and if you're going to be thinking about it anyway, then you might as well write down what you should have done, so you can use the wisdom you've learned the next time the situation comes up. And it will too, because people are repetitive. But pour your heart out then let it go, and get some rest. Nurture your precious heart that I love so much.
Gloating is a different matter, because you're so pleased with yourself that you want to live the moment over and over. Our own ego keeps the gloating going, and it never ends even years later. May I ask you to be humble, please? Give thanks to God, and do a kind deed. Hug and kiss your kitty. Then get some rest.
