Letter to Julia 20120312

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Oh, my dearest, beautiful, precious, beloved Julia! I'm so sorry I stayed away for so long, did you miss me? I certainly missed you, because I love you with all my heart, and I want to marry you. It's just that the Internet needed me too much, so much that it wanted to control my actions and decisions without pay or contract, so I had to stay away for a few days. But I've said this many times before: they don't need me. God is Who they need. Besides, I remember back in 2008 some parties saying, "Bring it on!" Another issue about need, is how can I help supply the needs of others when I'm being kept as poor as I am now? Am I expected to not eat properly and compromise my utilities just to stay on the Internet for the simple sake of being on the Internet constantly, at the Internet cafe paying 2RM/hour, and the journey to and fro thereof? Don't think I've forgotten the many times people tried to run me over with their cars, and set their dogs on me as I rode my bicycle to the pizza joint. Oh, they're saying that never happened? Well, in this case, it doesn't matter what I can prove, it only matters how I feel. **snort** Nobody seems to take action to supply me with the means to sustain the needs of others, in this particular case a home Internet connection, and a new computer with an online budget. So I have to live without it, and they have to live without me. Que Sera Sera.

Anyway, Shadowplay TV was getting too dark, and I was getting tired of it, so I decided to adjust the color correction on my old laptop. Funny thing is, I've had this computer for about 7 years now, and I never could find the color correction module for this Intel 945GM chipset. I thought since it didn't have a separate graphics accelerator, then it didn't have a color correction option. But I did find it yesterday. Amazing! And after 7 years of tolerating all that darkness. So after adjusting the gamma, the whole screen became slightly washed out except for the purest blacks. What is particularly attractive to me is how your photographs become more attractive to me, because your skin and hair become much lighter. It occurs to me how I love my woman to have pale skin and bright light blond hair. SO please, don't ever darken your hair or get a tan.

Don't forget, my dearest Julia, that the goal of our marriage is to slow down, so that you can have a mate who loves you dearly, so that we can shop and eat and go places together, so that you can be a mother, and settle down. It's not the end of your work: far from it, actually. With our combined strength, we can make the demands of your work conform to your heart and well-being. InsyaAllah.