Letter to Julia 20120421

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful. Hi there my beautiful, gorgeous girl. How are you feeling, Julia? I am wishing you are with me, of course. I've been thinking "little house, big house" a lot. Oh, I know what you are thinking, so there is no need for you to bluff me. I love you! I really, really like this little house. **smiles**

The problem with the drug culture is money, money, MONEY: it is a business. It is a product with massive demand, and it is a business that permeates all business, though you may never see it on the boards at a stock exchange. Therefore the mask of the drug dealer has many layers: public relations, bankers, lawyers, accountants, politicians, etc etc. And it is global: just because your favorite junkie smokes his dope on a stump in a thicket by a rice field, doesn't mean that his stash wasn't grown in South America or Afghanistan. How did it get here? How did it get so accessible? It is an organized business. This means that it can only be controlled by government agencies. And it is a culture, a way of life, and therefore there is pressure from friends. Sigh. Money, money, MONEY.

So, if one could be clever enough not to get caught by the authorities, then there always a huge amount of money to be made in selling drugs. And even if one does get "caught", there is still the judicial process to manipulate, and it is not necessary for one to be directly involved with it: one could just send a scapegoat or a small fish to the gallows in one's place. This is an organized business, and business protocol is followed in all due seriousness so the consumer always has access to the product of their choice. Then there are the lawful drugs, and new drugs. Alcohol. Some people will do whatever it takes to get high, hence the massive demand. A friend of mine once said that "getting high is being close to death". Every soul shall have a taste of death, and doing drugs is one way of getting there. The feeling of power, the increased awareness, love, happiness and peace, the enhanced sights, sounds, and sensations, is all in search of for the perfect feeling, a glimpse of heaven, therefore a taste of death. But perfection is impossible in this life, so they have to rely on drugs to get a taste of that feeling, and they take more to get closer and closer, when it is death that they are getting closer to.

Yes, perfection is impossible in this life, so the best anyone can get is a taste of the perfect feeling, and you don't need drugs for that. Patience can balance out the rest of the time when there isn't natural ecstasy.