In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Yeah, it's almost November. I remember when I was about 20 something, I said to myself and a crony or two that I would quit music if I hadn't made it big by the age of 30. Well obviously I didn't quit, but I was firmly convinced back then, and even a little bit now, that Rock and Roll is a young man's game. But you know, I did make it big by 30, I just wasn't aware of the magnitude of it all, how big so to say. The problem was, and is, I wasn't wealthy. But materialism isn't a musical game. It's a different arena altogether, with different realities. It may even be global thermonuclear war. After all, the humans still haven't given up their consumption of interest.
Love wasn't disappointing either. I had lots of love, I just didn't know what to do with it. Even when I turned 40, the disappointments were always replaced with something better. You were watching back then, right? Then God said to me (when I read the Qur'an), "Marry her!" Ah! That's what I'm supposed to do! It's never easy, especially when you try to be a good person. In Islam it's supposed to be the man's job to provide for the wife. Of course there are exceptions to the rule: the Prophet (peace be upon him) was an exception, but he's the Prophet (peace be upon him). I'm just a normal person. I'm so average. I want you to have the best of this life and the afterlife, because I love you, I love you. If you had the nerve to marry me now beautiful Julia, we would live off what I'm living off now, with the faith that Allah would better our position. It's still a position in the Public Eye, so the crowd would be laughing their asses off watching our struggle. Sometimes I really despise the human race. But I'm human too. I want you now, but I want you to be happy with me. So whatever you do is an act of faith, and is a direct communication between you and God. Do you have faith? And if God loves you, when you make a mistake then God will punish you quickly instead of slowly.
Erin! Cutie Pie! You must be blessed not to have to deal with this situation. Then again, it may not be a blessing. You need to ask God that yourself. I want you both as my wives. I love you, I love you. And I need you, I need you.
