WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! HOORAY!!!!!!
Is it your birthday yet? It's almost time for your birthday! When is your birthday? I'm sure your birthday is coming up soon! Oh, I'm so excited! It's nearly time for my sweetie's birthday! Oh, it is my girly-girl's birthday! Happy birthday, my love!
Ah, love letters in this computer age can be so convenient- I can just cut and paste, and then half the letter is written! But we all know that it's not that easy. Having to stay above a general lack of creativity (especially in the mass media), trying to stay true to the heart, having to teach the Qur'an to my wife... no, it's not easy. Ya Allah, please grant me Julia as my perfect spouse, please grant us love, beauty, good health and happiness in this life as well as the hereafter, please don't divorce us. Please grant us a long, happy life together with beautiful, happy, healthy and pious children, please protect us. Please forgive our sins, please make us great Muslims, please grant us heaven together, and please make our path easy.
Now, you've been in the modeling biz for quite a while already, haven't you? Nearly 8 years, right? Eventually, you got used to all that jetting around, the early morning fittings, and the chaos of the runway, right? I've been in the music business as a musician for about 26 years now. Certainly, I'm not at the point of canceling concerts at 50,000+ venues at the last minute. I chose to abandon all the corruption to follow the path of Allah. All the lack of privacy, the acts of spite and jealousy, the Satanism, paganism and atheism, the loss of beloved few friends, the perpetual plots of others to enslave me, the callousness of the listener, etc etc etc, I got used to all that, and it doesn't matter if skeptics believe it or not because they're not even a sub-plot of the story! However, I didn't want to bring all that shit back here to Malaysia with me. I knew it would happen, but I couldn't explain that to anybody back then: they wouldn't listen. If people are listening today, then the credit goes to Allah: Allah made them listen. I could have chosen to become a martyr for Allah in the USA as a street musician, but instead I ran back home to my Mommy. Now don't get me wrong, I love my Mommy with all my heart, and I'm grateful that Allah brought me and my parents together again. But in retrospect, it doesn't really matter where I am. People can never run away from their destiny, no matter how unimportant their problems are to others. Certainly, the entertainment business is the most difficult business in the world, and the audience has a lust for pain and suffering. Wouldn't it be entertaining to achieve happiness together while they seek our destruction? InsyaAllah! I am a servant of Allah, and if I am able to spread the message of Islam with this music that Allah gave me, then perhaps Allah will grant me my reward in this life as well as the hereafter, and trounce those who plot to harm us.
Happy birthday, Julia. I love you, and I want to marry you.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111031
WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! HOORAY!!!!!!
Is it your birthday yet? It's almost time for your birthday! When is your birthday? I'm sure your birthday is coming up soon! Oh, I'm so excited! It's nearly time for my sweetie's birthday!
Well, I don't really celebrate birthdays, so I wouldn't really care if my birthday weren't celebrated. As Lilith Sternin-Crane so glibly put it: "I fail to see how the reminder of one's passing years can be a cause for celebration." I just want you to know that I (somewhat) remember your birthday, and to me everyday with you is a cause for celebration.
Now, remember that the goal of our marriage is to slow everything down, and truly love and cherish each other and our life together. Is that OK with you? Yeah, we have no privacy anyway, and I'm sure everyone else out there would love to run us both into the ground as quickly as possible just for the sake of entertainment, but that doesn't mean that we should allow them to do that. So let's slow everything down. SLOW SLOW SLOW. I'm a slow worker anyhow, lazy too, and if anyone would tell me how to create music, then they can just do so themselves without my involvement. I try to have the "Act of God" kind of approach, where things build up oh so slowly, then suddenly it comes out of nowhere, from a direction that is not perceived. SLOW SLOW SLOW. Meanwhile, I get to make the love to my sweetie, tend to my garden, experiment with cooking, watch TV, read comics, and play video games. What's the rush? By the Will of Allah, to good people come good things in good time, and the evil ones will get their just dues rammed into them when they least expect it, from directions they did not perceive.
Hey, I'll write back Wednesday or Thursday to wish you happy birthday. It is your birthday, isn't it? I'm such a scatterbrain sometimes! Musicians, huh?
Is it your birthday yet? It's almost time for your birthday! When is your birthday? I'm sure your birthday is coming up soon! Oh, I'm so excited! It's nearly time for my sweetie's birthday!
Well, I don't really celebrate birthdays, so I wouldn't really care if my birthday weren't celebrated. As Lilith Sternin-Crane so glibly put it: "I fail to see how the reminder of one's passing years can be a cause for celebration." I just want you to know that I (somewhat) remember your birthday, and to me everyday with you is a cause for celebration.
Now, remember that the goal of our marriage is to slow everything down, and truly love and cherish each other and our life together. Is that OK with you? Yeah, we have no privacy anyway, and I'm sure everyone else out there would love to run us both into the ground as quickly as possible just for the sake of entertainment, but that doesn't mean that we should allow them to do that. So let's slow everything down. SLOW SLOW SLOW. I'm a slow worker anyhow, lazy too, and if anyone would tell me how to create music, then they can just do so themselves without my involvement. I try to have the "Act of God" kind of approach, where things build up oh so slowly, then suddenly it comes out of nowhere, from a direction that is not perceived. SLOW SLOW SLOW. Meanwhile, I get to make the love to my sweetie, tend to my garden, experiment with cooking, watch TV, read comics, and play video games. What's the rush? By the Will of Allah, to good people come good things in good time, and the evil ones will get their just dues rammed into them when they least expect it, from directions they did not perceive.
Hey, I'll write back Wednesday or Thursday to wish you happy birthday. It is your birthday, isn't it? I'm such a scatterbrain sometimes! Musicians, huh?
Friday, October 28, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111029
Hi Julia my sweetie, how are you? Working as usual, I see. Things are rather.... strange here, as strange a little village can get. Then again, the world has become a small town. I've been spending much time in the garden, cutting and burning. THe music school is renovating, so I haven't had to go there recently. Thus, I do gardening, and enjoy my laptop as Allah allowed me to have it back recently. Alhamdulillah. It's nice to play GTA again, and all the other video games I've collected over the years (besides Krush, Kill and Destroy). Plus my comic collection, which I read while watching Shadowplay TV, which is much smoother on my old laptop, as opposed to the decrepit old computer that I had been using which I dug up from the trash. Your photos are much sharper, too. Is that your left eye gleaming while walking the Victoria's Secret runway? You be a good girl now. Remember that almost everyone is corrupt nowadays, which is out of fashion. Passe. Blah.
You and I, we waste too much of our energy on people who consider themselves self-sufficient, who try to break our hearts with their words, who refuse to show God any respect because they want to have their asses kicked. But it is not our place to kick their asses, all we can do is to turn away and leave God to deal with them eventually. Let them bark and whine, you just maintain your prayers, and don't don't pass over the sincere searchers. We pass them over because of their humility, in preference to people who have wealth and power. Don't pass them by. Please find a way to help them.
You and I, we waste too much of our energy on people who consider themselves self-sufficient, who try to break our hearts with their words, who refuse to show God any respect because they want to have their asses kicked. But it is not our place to kick their asses, all we can do is to turn away and leave God to deal with them eventually. Let them bark and whine, you just maintain your prayers, and don't don't pass over the sincere searchers. We pass them over because of their humility, in preference to people who have wealth and power. Don't pass them by. Please find a way to help them.
Qur'an 20111029
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
88. Strain not your eyes at what We have bestowed on certain classes of them, nor grieve over them, but lower your wings to the believers.
89. And say, "I am indeed he that warns openly and without ambiguity."
90. As We sent down on those who divided,
91. As have made the Qur'an into shreds.
92. Therefore, by your Lord, We will, of a surety, call them to account,
93. For all their deeds.
94. Therefore expound openly what you are commanded, and turn away from those who join false gods with Allah.
The Rocky Tract 15:88-94
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I am indeed he that warns openly and without ambiguity.
88. Strain not your eyes at what We have bestowed on certain classes of them, nor grieve over them, but lower your wings to the believers.
89. And say, "I am indeed he that warns openly and without ambiguity."
90. As We sent down on those who divided,
91. As have made the Qur'an into shreds.
92. Therefore, by your Lord, We will, of a surety, call them to account,
93. For all their deeds.
94. Therefore expound openly what you are commanded, and turn away from those who join false gods with Allah.
The Rocky Tract 15:88-94
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I am indeed he that warns openly and without ambiguity.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111026
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
So as we wait, as we wait for Allah to bring us together, it is easy to succumb to emotions of futility, and actions of despair. But I have not given up hope of our love materializing: it even seems like I'm ready to take our love to the grave, and the next life. Patience is truly a gift from Allah. Meanwhile, it is my duty to teach you what I know about the Qur'an, and others who happen to read this my love letter to you. I pray that Allah will grant you patience and resolve, and do know that Allah is Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful. And that God's penalty will indeed be the most grievous penalty.
Materialize? That is what most people expect out of faith, in the name of "pragmatism". They won't even open their hearts to listen to anything else! If I earn heaven, then Allah will wipe out this resentment that I feel in my heart, and the fatigue as well. Resentment in general my beloved, not for you. When the angels visited Abraham, he didn't recognize them, in fact he felt fearful of them (Al-Hijr 15:52). This is where I believe that Abraham never received any visitation from angels until he was old, therefore his awareness of God was achieved by his own intelligence, at a young age too, growing up in a family of pagans at that. Which is possibly why he is the most beloved of humans to Allah. Anyway, the angels told Abraham good news that he was about to have a son. He retorted that they brought him good news that he was old, then asked them what the good news was. They replied that they had brought the truth, and told him not to despair. He said, "And who despairs of the mercy of his Lord, but such as go astray?" (Al-Hijr 15:56). Then, Abraham asked the angels what their business was. They said they have been to a people in sin (Sodom and Gomorrah), excepting the followers of Lot, for they were to be saved.
Except his wife, who they have ascertained would lag behind. Do you lag behind? You are not my wife, so now I am as yet unmarried. And it is not your fault, for when on the global stage, one can only take what God gives, as the situation is out of your reach. Right? The sickness of Sodom and Gomorrah has become widespread all over the world, so much that one in my position, this "chick singer", is out of place to have a wife.
So as we wait, as we wait for Allah to bring us together, it is easy to succumb to emotions of futility, and actions of despair. But I have not given up hope of our love materializing: it even seems like I'm ready to take our love to the grave, and the next life. Patience is truly a gift from Allah. Meanwhile, it is my duty to teach you what I know about the Qur'an, and others who happen to read this my love letter to you. I pray that Allah will grant you patience and resolve, and do know that Allah is Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful. And that God's penalty will indeed be the most grievous penalty.
Materialize? That is what most people expect out of faith, in the name of "pragmatism". They won't even open their hearts to listen to anything else! If I earn heaven, then Allah will wipe out this resentment that I feel in my heart, and the fatigue as well. Resentment in general my beloved, not for you. When the angels visited Abraham, he didn't recognize them, in fact he felt fearful of them (Al-Hijr 15:52). This is where I believe that Abraham never received any visitation from angels until he was old, therefore his awareness of God was achieved by his own intelligence, at a young age too, growing up in a family of pagans at that. Which is possibly why he is the most beloved of humans to Allah. Anyway, the angels told Abraham good news that he was about to have a son. He retorted that they brought him good news that he was old, then asked them what the good news was. They replied that they had brought the truth, and told him not to despair. He said, "And who despairs of the mercy of his Lord, but such as go astray?" (Al-Hijr 15:56). Then, Abraham asked the angels what their business was. They said they have been to a people in sin (Sodom and Gomorrah), excepting the followers of Lot, for they were to be saved.
Except his wife, who they have ascertained would lag behind. Do you lag behind? You are not my wife, so now I am as yet unmarried. And it is not your fault, for when on the global stage, one can only take what God gives, as the situation is out of your reach. Right? The sickness of Sodom and Gomorrah has become widespread all over the world, so much that one in my position, this "chick singer", is out of place to have a wife.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111024
YOOOOOOLIIIIIIEEEEEEE!!!
Hi Julia! No, I'm not upset with you: you are my girl, my love, my beautiful Julia. If anything, what I am is proud of you, and protective of you. I don't want you to get hurt, or come into any harm. I want you to be happy, I want us to be happy together. But we must remember my dearest, that this world is not perfect, but we can have strong resolve, so that we can earn perfection in the next life. Sure, we make mistakes, but we must try with all our might to be good and faithful and righteous, in the sight of Allah. Then Allah will make the world recognize us as righteous people.
Hi Julia! No, I'm not upset with you: you are my girl, my love, my beautiful Julia. If anything, what I am is proud of you, and protective of you. I don't want you to get hurt, or come into any harm. I want you to be happy, I want us to be happy together. But we must remember my dearest, that this world is not perfect, but we can have strong resolve, so that we can earn perfection in the next life. Sure, we make mistakes, but we must try with all our might to be good and faithful and righteous, in the sight of Allah. Then Allah will make the world recognize us as righteous people.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111022
"She's got a ticket to ride, and she don't care!" It's nice to be the woman, huh? Men have to become soldiers, and stuff like that. Can you live without me?
Well, I do want you, and you to be my bride. What matters most is that you be sincere with God, and maintain your prayers. Try to make your business revolve around your prayers. Think you can do that? In times of chaos, the most important thing to do is maintain your prayers. It is the order and consistency sanctified by Allah, it is the soothing security amidst the loss of control. I believe that making business revolve around your prayers is the greatest form of control a human can have, insyaAllah.
Have you ever met an angel? I have. Perhaps someday, I will describe the encounter. Allah only sends angels to decide a matter and they generally appear in human form, so a visit from an angel would not benefit a skeptic. Skeptics believe in what their ancestors practised, and that illumination and intoxication are one and the same.
Well, I do want you, and you to be my bride. What matters most is that you be sincere with God, and maintain your prayers. Try to make your business revolve around your prayers. Think you can do that? In times of chaos, the most important thing to do is maintain your prayers. It is the order and consistency sanctified by Allah, it is the soothing security amidst the loss of control. I believe that making business revolve around your prayers is the greatest form of control a human can have, insyaAllah.
Have you ever met an angel? I have. Perhaps someday, I will describe the encounter. Allah only sends angels to decide a matter and they generally appear in human form, so a visit from an angel would not benefit a skeptic. Skeptics believe in what their ancestors practised, and that illumination and intoxication are one and the same.
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