Letter to Julia 20120407

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Loneliness. I received the argument the other day that people seek fame because they are lonely. But everyone gets lonely. You can ask anyone that, and they know it to be true. Some heal their loneliness with temporary relationships or flings, some consider that having sex heals loneliness, others get married. Some people get lonely when they are away from their spouse, but since a perfect marriage is impossible in this life, then it is the long-lasting marriage that is truly blessed by God. Like having a long life. But we all still get lonely, regardless. Sometimes sometimes, other times all the time. No, fame doesn't cure loneliness. On the contrary, fame amplifies loneliness.

We can never guide all who we love. God is the Only One who can guide them, protect them, or save them. If that is not God's Will, then there is nothing anyone else can do. People seek fame because they seek to be like God. Just like some people who have wealth and power think they are God. The quest for power, and all that nonsense. Always have been, always will be. Until Judgement Day.

Meanwhile, I feel lonely without you, Julia. I've always wanted to be married, but it never happened. Probably because I am meant to marry you. I can't seem to get a "quick fix" like other people. So I wait, until Allah allows us to be happily married, in this life as well as the hereafter.

I love you.