In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello Beautiful! Hi Gorgeous! How's business today? Are you enjoying all those new contracts? Just be patient, and you will be able to pick and choose whatever work you want inshaAllah, if not already. Just try not to overwork, and give thanks to Allah. I love you and I need you.
There's not much going on here today. I took my motorcycle to the repair shop today because I've been having trouble starting it. The repairman said that I've been driving too slowly, and I need to drive faster. Say what? I do drive slowly, though. My logic is that if I see someone about to ram me, I have time to stop, dodge, or jump off. I guess another logic is that accidents happen regardless, and such is life. From Allah is our origin, and to Allah is our return.
It finally rained after a long dry spell, so I got a chance to burn that trash I had been accumulating. The hot is still very hot and humid, though. I hope it rains some more. I want lots of mango flowers. I don't want a flood though.
Monday, March 14, 2016
Sunday, March 13, 2016
Letter to Erin 20160314
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Well, I don't have the right beef for stew. All I have is tenderloin, which is a waste in stew. I'm going to have to visit the butcher and get a fatty cut for stew. Potatoes are so cheap right now. I had a hash brown pancake for lunch today, a thick one. I used that ceramic saute pan I recently bought, and it's perfect for flips! I flipped that hash brown pancake perfectly, I was so happy! Ah, a taste of happiness. Alhamdulillah. Simple pleasures, huh?
I want my girl. I want you to know that I love you with all my heart, and I need you. You are my girl, so you are the most beautiful girl in the world to me. As for your body image, you are a pro, so you know what makes you feel good, and thus look good. Don't lose your self-esteem, I say. And stay healthy.
It's been an active day for me. I always spend Sunday mornings cleaning my parents bedroom. I managed a short nap before voice training, but I'll have to admit that a physically active morning wears out my voice, especially when I didn't get much sleep last night. I spent the evening with my chainsaw over at your house inshaAllah. There was this one tree on the west border which leans into the neighbor's yard that I took down. I asked him if it were OK for me to cut that tree down, since it would definitely fall into his yard. He said OK. I didn't want the tree to bother his ducks- he's a duck farmer. I swear I saw an American Mallard among his ducks. Anyway, the tree got stuck in another tree which was on his yard, so I had to throw a rope around the top and pull it down. A tree is a very heavy object, and that was a serious workout. Plus, the activity angered a massive amount of red army ants, and they attacked my balls. Why do they always target my balls? The ducks were laughing at me... HA HA HA HA HA HA HA... I saw my shadow, and it was muscular. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA... Bat Cat was my companion and observer during this endeavor. It was entertaining to see him daintily hop over the swarm of army ants like a ballerina.
Dinner was pizza again. I had run out of marinara sauce, so I had to make some more. I was missing an ingredient (red hot pepper puree) so I substituted that with fresh hot peppers instead. It wasn't the same, but spicier. When you get better at cooking, and thus get a better understanding of the food you eat, you will notice a definite connection between the mind and the stomach. For instance, last night I cooked up some potatoes but instead of making brown gravy, I sprinkled brown gravy powder directly on the potatoes. Flavor and texture wise it was good, but the strange combination gave me heartburn. There were no other ingredients other than oil, onion and black pepper.
Well, I don't have the right beef for stew. All I have is tenderloin, which is a waste in stew. I'm going to have to visit the butcher and get a fatty cut for stew. Potatoes are so cheap right now. I had a hash brown pancake for lunch today, a thick one. I used that ceramic saute pan I recently bought, and it's perfect for flips! I flipped that hash brown pancake perfectly, I was so happy! Ah, a taste of happiness. Alhamdulillah. Simple pleasures, huh?
I want my girl. I want you to know that I love you with all my heart, and I need you. You are my girl, so you are the most beautiful girl in the world to me. As for your body image, you are a pro, so you know what makes you feel good, and thus look good. Don't lose your self-esteem, I say. And stay healthy.
It's been an active day for me. I always spend Sunday mornings cleaning my parents bedroom. I managed a short nap before voice training, but I'll have to admit that a physically active morning wears out my voice, especially when I didn't get much sleep last night. I spent the evening with my chainsaw over at your house inshaAllah. There was this one tree on the west border which leans into the neighbor's yard that I took down. I asked him if it were OK for me to cut that tree down, since it would definitely fall into his yard. He said OK. I didn't want the tree to bother his ducks- he's a duck farmer. I swear I saw an American Mallard among his ducks. Anyway, the tree got stuck in another tree which was on his yard, so I had to throw a rope around the top and pull it down. A tree is a very heavy object, and that was a serious workout. Plus, the activity angered a massive amount of red army ants, and they attacked my balls. Why do they always target my balls? The ducks were laughing at me... HA HA HA HA HA HA HA... I saw my shadow, and it was muscular. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA... Bat Cat was my companion and observer during this endeavor. It was entertaining to see him daintily hop over the swarm of army ants like a ballerina.
Dinner was pizza again. I had run out of marinara sauce, so I had to make some more. I was missing an ingredient (red hot pepper puree) so I substituted that with fresh hot peppers instead. It wasn't the same, but spicier. When you get better at cooking, and thus get a better understanding of the food you eat, you will notice a definite connection between the mind and the stomach. For instance, last night I cooked up some potatoes but instead of making brown gravy, I sprinkled brown gravy powder directly on the potatoes. Flavor and texture wise it was good, but the strange combination gave me heartburn. There were no other ingredients other than oil, onion and black pepper.
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Letter to Erin 20160313
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
I told you people don't like Zam the puppy dog. They prefer Zam the wolf. I would rather be a puppy dog, but what puppy dog can handle everybody hating it?
While I am a recluse, you are magnanimous. You have plenty of friends. Certainly you can't help your past, and you are such a sweetheart. Such a beautiful sweetheart. You are so easy to love. I want you to realize that we are on a spiritual arena, so I ask you not to prefer the friendship of unbelievers over believers. Please choose the side of God. Avoid the friendship of atheists and pagans. If you choose the friendship of atheists and pagans, you will not receive the help of Allah except in matters of treachery. You have plenty of good friends. Now I ask you to try to make one Muslim friend. Besides me, that is.
Potatoes are cheap right now, so dinner is steak and potatoes. How about some potatoes, Irish? My kittens always go berserk when I cook up a steak, but I distract them by allowing them to lick the pan. I haven't made stew in years. Would you like some stew, made with love and need for you? I'm the one who loves you and needs you.
I told you people don't like Zam the puppy dog. They prefer Zam the wolf. I would rather be a puppy dog, but what puppy dog can handle everybody hating it?
While I am a recluse, you are magnanimous. You have plenty of friends. Certainly you can't help your past, and you are such a sweetheart. Such a beautiful sweetheart. You are so easy to love. I want you to realize that we are on a spiritual arena, so I ask you not to prefer the friendship of unbelievers over believers. Please choose the side of God. Avoid the friendship of atheists and pagans. If you choose the friendship of atheists and pagans, you will not receive the help of Allah except in matters of treachery. You have plenty of good friends. Now I ask you to try to make one Muslim friend. Besides me, that is.
Potatoes are cheap right now, so dinner is steak and potatoes. How about some potatoes, Irish? My kittens always go berserk when I cook up a steak, but I distract them by allowing them to lick the pan. I haven't made stew in years. Would you like some stew, made with love and need for you? I'm the one who loves you and needs you.
Qur'an 20160313
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
29. Say, "Whether you hide what is in your hearts or reveal it, Allah knows it all. God knows what is in the heavens, and what is on earth, and Allah has power over all things."
30. On the day when every soul will be confronted with all the good it has done, and all the evil it has done, it will wish there were a great distance between it and its evil. But Allah cautions you Godself, and Allah is full of kindness to those that serve God.
31. Say, "If you do love Allah, follow me. Allah will love you and forgive you your sins, for Allah is Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful."
32. Say, "Obey Allah and God's messenger." But if they turn back, Allah loves not those who reject faith.
(The Family of Imran 3:29-32)
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29. Say, "Whether you hide what is in your hearts or reveal it, Allah knows it all. God knows what is in the heavens, and what is on earth, and Allah has power over all things."
30. On the day when every soul will be confronted with all the good it has done, and all the evil it has done, it will wish there were a great distance between it and its evil. But Allah cautions you Godself, and Allah is full of kindness to those that serve God.
31. Say, "If you do love Allah, follow me. Allah will love you and forgive you your sins, for Allah is Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful."
32. Say, "Obey Allah and God's messenger." But if they turn back, Allah loves not those who reject faith.
(The Family of Imran 3:29-32)
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Friday, March 11, 2016
Letter to Erin 20160312
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi Erin. Hi Princess! Please try to keep your nose clean, OK? Erin, I saw your pretty little NYC home. It's so pretty! It's the perfect reflection of you and who you are. It's so clean. I look around me, and I see the contrast between our homes. You're so civilized, and I'm such a Neanderthal. It's must have been uncomfortable for you to display your home to the Public Eye, so I will say "Thank You" on behalf of everybody. You have a beautiful home, and a talent for interior design.
It occurs to me that you need to supervise the building of your house inshaAllah. It is your house after all and by the Qur'an, I'm the guy that has to finance it. I don't mind, because I love you and need you. I've taken for granted that you have your house plan, just make sure you try to fit it in the dimensions I gave you. I have no problem with your being here to oversee the construction of your house, if I could restrain myself from grabbing you and making out with you. We have to be married first! The old house which stands on the site of your house inshaAllah, has plenty of old wood which may be reclaimed if you see fit. I will try to save them for you as neatly as I can. I have a picture in my head of how beautiful you are in your beautiful new house, and you would find me sleeping on the floor somewhere, in front of a computer.
Those astrologers told me many years ago that a union of 2 dreamers is no good, because we wouldn't be able to keep the wolf away from the door. What a bunch of shit. So let's be practical. The land for your house would cost about RM100000. The property I live on right now (which belongs to my aunt) would cost about half of that for me to own. A 2 karat diamond ring at Tiffany's is at least USD12600 (and you would have to be the one to buy it, since they won't sell it to me). The construction of your house would be about RM500000, even with reclaimed wood. Plus legal and living expenses, which would be ongoing. And what do I do? My mission is to please Allah with music. At this time, I am in danger of eviction at any time. So if I fail to pay for your house, get evicted from my house and fail to pay for our marriage, then my mission here has failed, and I would have to go somewhere else, assuming I survive. Nobody can save me from the wolf, because I am the wolf.
What do I mean by that? I know, with Allah as my witness, of the power of this music by the Will of Allah which I have to bear. But no one here has spoken to me of the music, except my parents. I'm not a prophet, so I cannot say that Allah would avenge me. The closest analogy in the Qur'an which I can compare myself to is the she-camel of Allah, which was hamstrung. I can only keep creating and communicating this music until I am silenced. And I know for certain that the world is watching and listening.
What's practical here is the leap of faith. I belong to Allah, and if I don't make it with you here in this life then I will catch you in the next, but I have faith that Allah will bring us together and resolve our affair for us. But we have to work. That is what I do. I work. Did you think this music is easy? A hobby?
Hi Erin. Hi Princess! Please try to keep your nose clean, OK? Erin, I saw your pretty little NYC home. It's so pretty! It's the perfect reflection of you and who you are. It's so clean. I look around me, and I see the contrast between our homes. You're so civilized, and I'm such a Neanderthal. It's must have been uncomfortable for you to display your home to the Public Eye, so I will say "Thank You" on behalf of everybody. You have a beautiful home, and a talent for interior design.
It occurs to me that you need to supervise the building of your house inshaAllah. It is your house after all and by the Qur'an, I'm the guy that has to finance it. I don't mind, because I love you and need you. I've taken for granted that you have your house plan, just make sure you try to fit it in the dimensions I gave you. I have no problem with your being here to oversee the construction of your house, if I could restrain myself from grabbing you and making out with you. We have to be married first! The old house which stands on the site of your house inshaAllah, has plenty of old wood which may be reclaimed if you see fit. I will try to save them for you as neatly as I can. I have a picture in my head of how beautiful you are in your beautiful new house, and you would find me sleeping on the floor somewhere, in front of a computer.
Those astrologers told me many years ago that a union of 2 dreamers is no good, because we wouldn't be able to keep the wolf away from the door. What a bunch of shit. So let's be practical. The land for your house would cost about RM100000. The property I live on right now (which belongs to my aunt) would cost about half of that for me to own. A 2 karat diamond ring at Tiffany's is at least USD12600 (and you would have to be the one to buy it, since they won't sell it to me). The construction of your house would be about RM500000, even with reclaimed wood. Plus legal and living expenses, which would be ongoing. And what do I do? My mission is to please Allah with music. At this time, I am in danger of eviction at any time. So if I fail to pay for your house, get evicted from my house and fail to pay for our marriage, then my mission here has failed, and I would have to go somewhere else, assuming I survive. Nobody can save me from the wolf, because I am the wolf.
What do I mean by that? I know, with Allah as my witness, of the power of this music by the Will of Allah which I have to bear. But no one here has spoken to me of the music, except my parents. I'm not a prophet, so I cannot say that Allah would avenge me. The closest analogy in the Qur'an which I can compare myself to is the she-camel of Allah, which was hamstrung. I can only keep creating and communicating this music until I am silenced. And I know for certain that the world is watching and listening.
What's practical here is the leap of faith. I belong to Allah, and if I don't make it with you here in this life then I will catch you in the next, but I have faith that Allah will bring us together and resolve our affair for us. But we have to work. That is what I do. I work. Did you think this music is easy? A hobby?
Qur'an 20160312
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
26. Say, "O Allah! Lord of Power, You give power to whom You please, and You strip off power from whom You please. You endue with honor whom You please, and You bring low whom You please. In Your hand is all Good. Verily, over all things You have Power."
(The Family of Imran 3:26)
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26. Say, "O Allah! Lord of Power, You give power to whom You please, and You strip off power from whom You please. You endue with honor whom You please, and You bring low whom You please. In Your hand is all Good. Verily, over all things You have Power."
(The Family of Imran 3:26)
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Thursday, March 10, 2016
Letter to Erin 20160311
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello, my Queen. Hi Princess! I believe I have a sense of how you are feeling right now, because I can feel it too. I want you to know that you are so beautiful to me, you are the most beautiful girl in the world, and I love you with all my heart. I miss you very much, and I wish I were there with you. To talk with you, to go out and eat together, to sit on a bench together and watch the clouds and the birds, to hold you and kiss you, to make love to you, because I love you very much, and you mean the world to me. My most beautiful Queen, you are my heart. Everyday I think of you all day, I pray for you, I pray that you are doing well and are happy with your life and with me, because I need you. I want the best for you my darling. Please do not feel lonely, because I am with you all the time, and we will be together, inshaAllah. You are my love.
Then we can have pizza later. It's pizza night again! Sausage and basil! Oh no, why am I eating pizza all the time lately? I have a routine for making pizza at home with cheap cheese taste better than the delivered stuff. One talent that Allah gave me is the ability to elevate the mediocre, alhamdulillah. And those are the ingredients that are available to me, so I mix them up into something tasty. But why am I eating pizza every day? Am I turning into a politician? Oh no! Please, no! I'm a musician, not a politician.
Hello, my Queen. Hi Princess! I believe I have a sense of how you are feeling right now, because I can feel it too. I want you to know that you are so beautiful to me, you are the most beautiful girl in the world, and I love you with all my heart. I miss you very much, and I wish I were there with you. To talk with you, to go out and eat together, to sit on a bench together and watch the clouds and the birds, to hold you and kiss you, to make love to you, because I love you very much, and you mean the world to me. My most beautiful Queen, you are my heart. Everyday I think of you all day, I pray for you, I pray that you are doing well and are happy with your life and with me, because I need you. I want the best for you my darling. Please do not feel lonely, because I am with you all the time, and we will be together, inshaAllah. You are my love.
Then we can have pizza later. It's pizza night again! Sausage and basil! Oh no, why am I eating pizza all the time lately? I have a routine for making pizza at home with cheap cheese taste better than the delivered stuff. One talent that Allah gave me is the ability to elevate the mediocre, alhamdulillah. And those are the ingredients that are available to me, so I mix them up into something tasty. But why am I eating pizza every day? Am I turning into a politician? Oh no! Please, no! I'm a musician, not a politician.
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