Letter to Julia 20141025

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Thank you for your love.  However, I didn't and couldn't have made you love me.  Why would someone as beautiful and ravishing as you have taken a second glance at an old, destitute musician like me?  God is the One Who put love in your heart.  If my promise of marriage to you brought you financial and business gain, then God was the One Who did that.  If our love brought strange and wonderful occurences into your life, then God was the One Who did that.  If our love gave you more political clout, then God was the One Who did that.  I am only a servant of God.

Thank you for your love.  I love you sincerely my beautiful beloved Julia, and I need you.  If you choose to marry me now and make the sacrifice to journey and stay here with me in my little house, you would be having faith that God will make our lives better and happier.  So our love is only part of the reason.  You are doing this for the sake of Allah.  So when you embark, please take all necessary precautions as per your position as Mrs. Global: use a German carrier.  Make sure you voice your in your heart, "I hereby make this journey of marriage for the sake of Allah."  Again, please make sure you have the intention in your heart to make the journey to marry me for the sake of Allah.  Look towards the Afterlife, for that is how much time I pray to be with you, and how sacred our marriage is.

Hey Erin, you beautiful and wonderful girl.  Are you having a great time?  It's almost time for the VS fashion show, so you must be busy.  I can't wait to see how gorgeous you are.  Please take good loving care of yourself.  I love you, and I need you.  Thank you for your love.

Letter to Julia 20141023

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello again, my most beautiful Julia and Erin.  How are my beloved wives today?  How are you feeling, my dearest hearts?  Doesn't it feel like something is about to explode?  Can you feel the electricity in the air?  Are you excited?  Are you?  Are you?  Well, please be patent try to stay calm.  Just do the same old same old, and put your trust in Allah.  You are MY girls.  MINE, MINE.  I love you, I love you.  And I need you, I need you.

This morning I went to the main market downtown to pick up some tofu and won ton skins.  I love stuffed won tons.  Today the stuffing is fish balls, tofu, chives, garlic, and black pepper.  I found a way to maximize the stuffing for my won  tons, is to go heavy on the tofu.  I don't like the flavor of fried tofu, but if it's inside a won ton then the tofu isn't affected by the oil.  Too much tofu makes the skin chewy though, so you have to strike a balance somewhere.  Stuffed won tons are girly food and I need a man-sized portion, so I had to eat 29 won tons to be satisfied.  Want some?  Oh sorry, I ate them all.

Letter to Julia 20141021

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Yeah, it's almost November.  I remember when I was about 20 something, I said to myself and a crony or two that I would quit music if I hadn't made it big by the age of 30.  Well obviously I didn't quit, but I was firmly convinced back then, and even a little bit now, that Rock and Roll is a young man's game.  But you know, I did make it big by 30, I just wasn't aware of the magnitude of it all, how big so to say.  The problem was, and is, I wasn't wealthy.  But materialism isn't a musical game.  It's a different arena altogether, with different realities.  It may even be global thermonuclear war.  After all, the humans still haven't given up their consumption of interest.

Love wasn't disappointing either.  I had lots of love, I just didn't know what to do with it.  Even when I turned 40, the disappointments were always replaced with something better.  You were watching back then, right?  Then God said to me (when I read the Qur'an), "Marry her!"  Ah!  That's what I'm supposed to do!  It's never easy, especially when you try to be a good person.  In Islam it's supposed to be the man's job to provide for the wife.  Of course there are exceptions to the rule: the Prophet (peace be upon him) was an exception, but he's the Prophet (peace be upon him).  I'm just a normal person.  I'm so average.  I want you to have the best of this life and the afterlife, because I love you, I love you.  If you had the nerve to marry me now beautiful Julia, we would live off what I'm living off now, with the faith that Allah would better our position.  It's still a position in the Public Eye, so the crowd would be laughing their asses off watching our struggle.  Sometimes I really despise the human race.  But I'm human too.  I want you now, but I want you to be happy with me.  So whatever you do is an act of faith, and is a direct communication between you and God.  Do you have faith?  And if God loves you, when you make a mistake then God will punish you quickly instead of slowly.

Erin!  Cutie Pie!  You must be blessed not to have to deal with this situation.  Then again, it may not be a blessing.  You need to ask God that yourself.  I want you both as my wives.  I love you, I love you.  And I need you, I need you.

Letter to Julia 20141018

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

I had to give little Bat Cat a solid jab with my big toe this morning.  I didn't kick him, I just jabbed him with my big toe.  I was trying to mop the kitchen floor, and he wanted to play the pee game with me.  Not on my kitchen floor!!  But even after I shoved him away with my big toe, he persisted on playing the pee game.  Batty, currently in his 3rd life, is always the first to get into mischief.  So I slopped the mop real close to him.  Then of course the other kittens joined the pee game.  This is the first time I used physical punishment with my kittens, and I felt bad about it.  But I didn't kick him, I just jabbed him with my big toe.  I'm glad all those fleas are gone, though.  What use is a kitten if it can't be snuggled?

You are probably much better at being nice to the youngsters, and others in general, than me, that's why you're the better half.  I hate young boys but I have to be nice to them, and of course I have to make an extra effort with my own kids.  So I'm glad you're so sweet to others, because you make up for me.  The Prophet (peace be on him) became nicer and sweeter to others as he aged, no matter what happened to him.  Even to his enemies.  God had to command him to fight.  I guess we need to be like that.  I glad you're already like that.  I love you, I love you.  And I need you, I need you.

Qur'an 20141018

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

213.  So call not on any other god with Allah, or you will be among those under the Penalty.

214.  And admonish your nearest kinsmen.

215.  And lower your wing to the believers who follow you.

216.  Then if they disobey you say, "I am free from what you do!"

217.  And put your trust on the Exalted in Might, the Merciful.

The Poets 26:213-217
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Letter to Julia 20141017

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello there, my dearest wives, Julia and Erin.  How was your week?  How are you feeling?  I pray that you are both feeling great, healthy and confident.  I couldn't be as isolated as I wanted, because there was always something to do, plus I had to go shopping.  I have a lot of beef in my cooler, but one can't just eat steak all the time.  The grass cutter was out, so I changed the spark plug.  I couldn't cut grass all that while, so I did some burning instead at Casa de Julia inshaAllah.  There were more felled trees there than I anticipated, plus I have to chop down more.  This morning I made a batch of dough, and it looks like beef and potato curry is coming up soon.  I made some Korean style pickled beef and it's marinading in the cooler.  It takes 2 weeks to be ready.  I try to stay within budget, but there's always some some of need or mundane crisis.  The flea shampoo I bought is bunk and my kittens were getting overwhelmed with fleas, so I had to buy the drop type of medication.  I'm out of eggs and onions but I can't spend again until next Tuesday, so I'm going to have to make my noodles with something else.

Death, blood and misery may be great and more entertaining for the crowd, but I find the mundane to be much more romantic.  I wish you were here with me to share my isolation.  I want the wealth to give you a good married life and buy musical instruments, but I'm trying to live a spiritual life, and that can't be done by being wholly materialistic.  I have to trust in Allah to supply me the material things I need while I work my spiritual agenda of pleasing Allah with music.  InshaAllah, I will also be given protection and happiness.  We as a family must keep our hearts free from the corruption of materialism, because it's so important to show that it can be done.  Islam doesn't forbid being wealthy, but wealth must handled with righteousness.  Like in the movie "Wall Street" was said, "Money makes you do things you don't want to do."  This may sound like an excuse to you, but it's not.  It's a different reality.

I have faith that Allah will help us and improve our condition.  Do you?  I want to give you the best and happiest married life, because I love you, I love you.  And I need you, I need you.  Please join me in Islam.

Letter to Julia 2014111

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

It's almost November.  You know Julia, the choice is yours.  I've already made my choice, my decision.  My decision is you, and now I must stick to my choice.  We are not in the same position.  I love you terribly, but I must stick to my guns, be a man so to speak, and be sure I can give you the best married life, so I cannot force you to marry into my poverty.  I would wait for you no matter how old you get, so I don't want you to be concerned about my loyalty.  But you have sight and intelligence, so you know that.

That being said, I want you to marry me NOW, Julia.  Come and knock on my door, meet me face to face, and NOW will begin.  If you agree to marry me NOW as opposed to waiting until I have sufficient wealth, then you submit to my agenda of building a tourist attraction here, suffering the same living conditions as me, and being my wife.  May Allah reward you for your sacrifice.  Sounds reckless, huh?  I'm an all-out abandon kind of guy.  But it's not so bad.  I have a roof over my head even though I sleep on the floor, the music is powerful mashaAllah so our living conditions will improve inshaAllah, and I'm confident that at least I can feed you well.  Dinner tonight is eggplant stuffed with steak and tofu, so come on over.  Julia, I love you.  And I need you.

Hi Erin.  I love you too.  And I need you.  This is my week of isolation, so you won't here from me again for another week.