Hi Julia, you intense thing you. Your intensity may scare others, but I LOOOVE how intense you are. Woooo! I pray you are taking good care of yourself and your lovely body. Please make sure you are eating peoperly, and getting enough beauty rest. The fasting month was a time of plenty for this poor musician: there was always some free food somewhere everyday, so I was spoiled. Now, reality has sunk back in, and I am back to cooking rice twice a day, and processing leftovers, and unwanted plant and animal parts, into some sort of creative cuisine. My Mom gave me all sorts of traditional cookies for the Eid, but I can't stomach all of them, so I have to try to find some sort of use for them. For instance, I can't eat those crumbly cookie types, so I used them as a breadcrumb substitute for fried chicken. Hm.
Anyway, I have to remind you again to please be patient. Use your intensity to start to slow down: slow everything down, take forever to do things. When we get together insyaAllah, the goal is to slow things down even more. The purpose is to appreciate the time we have together, to seek the best solutions to our trials, to savor whatever little happiness that comes our way, to give our hearts the pleasure of beating. Why would you seek security in a relationship, namely marriage? Because we are not getting younger, so slow things down.
The intensity level in general is very high, not just in my case, but because Judgement Day gets closer and closer. So we must slow down. I am building an ark, would you join me? To set sail to you, little by little, piece by piece. Oh, so slowly.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Qur'an 20110904
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
32. They said, "O Noah! You have disputed with us, and you have prolonged the dispute with us. Now bring upon us what you threaten us with, if you speak the truth!"
33. He said, "Truly Allah will bring it on you, if God wills, and then you will not be able to frustrate it!"
34. Of no profit will be my counsel to you, much as I desire to give you counsel. If it be that Allah wills to leave you astray, God is your Lord! And to God will you return.
35. Or do they say, "He has forged it?" Say, "If I had forged it, on me were my sin! And I am free of the sins of which you are guilty!"
36. It was revealed to Noah, "None of your people will believe except those who have believed already! So grieve no longer over their deeds."
37. But construct an Ark under Our eyes and Our inspiration, and address Us not on behalf of those who are in sin, for they are about to be overwhelmed.
Hud 11:32-37
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If I had forged it, on me were my sin! And I am free of the sins of which you are guilty!
32. They said, "O Noah! You have disputed with us, and you have prolonged the dispute with us. Now bring upon us what you threaten us with, if you speak the truth!"
33. He said, "Truly Allah will bring it on you, if God wills, and then you will not be able to frustrate it!"
34. Of no profit will be my counsel to you, much as I desire to give you counsel. If it be that Allah wills to leave you astray, God is your Lord! And to God will you return.
35. Or do they say, "He has forged it?" Say, "If I had forged it, on me were my sin! And I am free of the sins of which you are guilty!"
36. It was revealed to Noah, "None of your people will believe except those who have believed already! So grieve no longer over their deeds."
37. But construct an Ark under Our eyes and Our inspiration, and address Us not on behalf of those who are in sin, for they are about to be overwhelmed.
Hud 11:32-37
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If I had forged it, on me were my sin! And I am free of the sins of which you are guilty!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Letter to Julia 20110901
Hi Julia! Did you miss me? I certainly miss you. You and your gorgeous body. Did you enjoy the holidays? Oh, you had to work? Poor Julia! I've just been lazing around watching TV, playing Krush, Kill & Destroy, and working on the yard. You know, living in a bubble, an adolescent fantasy world. It's been raining so much. The rain finally stopped when the fasting month ended, but the pile of leaves to burn is now as tall as me, and it's still wet.
As you know, I didn't really do much to celebrate the Eid, because I much prefer Ramadan. I went for the prayer at 8:30 in the morning... too early! I usually sleep in until 10:00am. The next morning (Independence Day), I took my Dad to visit the grave of his parents, or my grandparents. Chee Cheah wouldn't let me forget the appointment. At 3:00am, she started howling and banging on my bedroom door. She went, "Yowl! Yowl!" BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM "Yowl! Yowl!" BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM. I didn't know a cat could hammer on a door like that.
But it is not sorcery. It is odd that people would believe in sorcery over God. Sorcery is forbidden in Islam. Allah is the One who arranges all affairs. Certainly, I feel unhappy that I can't afford my Julia, but I must be patient and constant. Besides, if I'm supposed to wear high fashion name brand clothes onstage, then that shouldn't be my expense! I would be happy enough to wear a tattered old sarong with no shirt or shoes, and in theory everyone else would start dressing that way (actually they already do around these here parts). It's OK for a man to be butt-ugly, isn't it? So, don't be holding out your shoe for me to wear, because I don't pass anymore! How annoying. Yes, I feel unhappy that I can't afford my Julia right now. I work for Allah, and my life conveys a message, again that Allah is the One who arranges all affairs.
As you know, I didn't really do much to celebrate the Eid, because I much prefer Ramadan. I went for the prayer at 8:30 in the morning... too early! I usually sleep in until 10:00am. The next morning (Independence Day), I took my Dad to visit the grave of his parents, or my grandparents. Chee Cheah wouldn't let me forget the appointment. At 3:00am, she started howling and banging on my bedroom door. She went, "Yowl! Yowl!" BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM "Yowl! Yowl!" BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM. I didn't know a cat could hammer on a door like that.
But it is not sorcery. It is odd that people would believe in sorcery over God. Sorcery is forbidden in Islam. Allah is the One who arranges all affairs. Certainly, I feel unhappy that I can't afford my Julia, but I must be patient and constant. Besides, if I'm supposed to wear high fashion name brand clothes onstage, then that shouldn't be my expense! I would be happy enough to wear a tattered old sarong with no shirt or shoes, and in theory everyone else would start dressing that way (actually they already do around these here parts). It's OK for a man to be butt-ugly, isn't it? So, don't be holding out your shoe for me to wear, because I don't pass anymore! How annoying. Yes, I feel unhappy that I can't afford my Julia right now. I work for Allah, and my life conveys a message, again that Allah is the One who arranges all affairs.
Qur'an 20110901
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
9. If we give man a taste of mercy from Ourselves, and then withdraw it from him, behold! He is in despair and blasphemy!
10. But if We give him a taste os favors after adversity has touched him, he is sure to say, "All evil has departed from me." Behold! He falls into exultation and pride!
11. Not so do those who show patience and constancy, and work righteousness: for them is forgiveness, and a great reward.
12. Perchance you may give up a part of what is revealed to you, and your heart feels straightened lest they say, "Why is not a treasure sent down to him, or why does not an angel come down with him?" But you are there only to warn! It is Allah that arranges all affairs!
13. Or they may say, "He forged it." Say, "Bring you then 10 Surahs forged like it, and call whomsoever you can, other than Allah, if you speak the truth."
14. If then they answer you not, know you that this Revelation is sent down with the Knowledge of Allah, and that there is no god but God! Will you even then submit?
15. Those who desire the life of the present and its glitter, to them We shall pay their deeds therein, without diminution.
16. They are those for whom there is nothing in the hereafter but the fire. Vain are the designs they frame therein, and of no effect are the deeds that they do!
Hud 11:9-16
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Bring you then 10 Surahs forged like it, and call whomsoever you can, other than Allah, if you speak the truth.
9. If we give man a taste of mercy from Ourselves, and then withdraw it from him, behold! He is in despair and blasphemy!
10. But if We give him a taste os favors after adversity has touched him, he is sure to say, "All evil has departed from me." Behold! He falls into exultation and pride!
11. Not so do those who show patience and constancy, and work righteousness: for them is forgiveness, and a great reward.
12. Perchance you may give up a part of what is revealed to you, and your heart feels straightened lest they say, "Why is not a treasure sent down to him, or why does not an angel come down with him?" But you are there only to warn! It is Allah that arranges all affairs!
13. Or they may say, "He forged it." Say, "Bring you then 10 Surahs forged like it, and call whomsoever you can, other than Allah, if you speak the truth."
14. If then they answer you not, know you that this Revelation is sent down with the Knowledge of Allah, and that there is no god but God! Will you even then submit?
15. Those who desire the life of the present and its glitter, to them We shall pay their deeds therein, without diminution.
16. They are those for whom there is nothing in the hereafter but the fire. Vain are the designs they frame therein, and of no effect are the deeds that they do!
Hud 11:9-16
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Bring you then 10 Surahs forged like it, and call whomsoever you can, other than Allah, if you speak the truth.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Letter to Julia 20110827
Tsk tsk tsk, you naughty girl. Don't you go and say stuff like that about God. Now please bend over, I'm going to have to spank you with a blade of grass. Always remember that I love God no matter what anyone says, and God has been my only friend, in many different situations over and over and over again. I appreciate that you may be impatient with the lack of miracles that would materialize our love and marriage (namely my being rich enough to afford Julia), but it could be that your scope has failed to notice certain nuances that are beyond human control. Only God has the Power and the Subtlety to give reckoning to those who harm children. Those in power use their power to stay in power, even if it means eradicating the influence of children. What does this have to do with us? We are a marriage between music and fashion. And children love music, and are too innocent to profiteer, whereas the adults generally fear the pharoah. But I'm sure these modern day pharoahs are actually really nice guys, who have absolutely no selfish intent of maintaining personal glory, and what better way of serving the community than to exert control on the children? Besides, they could always claim that whatever I'm writing here is strictly conjecture, and that God is merely a thing.
So please don't be in such a hurry. Please have faith in God, please be patient, and maintain your prayers in sincerity. We don't want to rush. Take it slow Julia, relax, sleep on it, work towards it slowly, slow things down. When we get there together, our goal is to slow things down even more, so we can enjoy our love and life together. How can you expect a marriage to last in the fast lane? You've seen that mountain of gold, haven't you? The mountain of gold that rises from the dried-up river of emotions? Where people kill each other to partake of it? It will be literal, my love. So, we don't want to rush the Great War (no, not World War I), where the 2 giant armies will have the same grievance: most likely poverty. We don't want to rush Judgement Day. We want to slow things down, and try to taste some happiness with each other while we are stuck in this imperfect world. If we are destined for each other, then God will bring us together. Just relax, be patient, and work as comfortably as possible with what God has given you.
As I told you before, I won't get another chance to blog my love to you again until after the Eid/Independence Day holidays, which will be about Thursday, insyaAllah. Did you try fasting? Most people make such a big deal about the Eid. I love the fasting month much, much more than the Eid. Sure I can fast almost any other time, but it's not the same as Ramadan, and it's not just about the fasting either. Anyway, please forgive me for not writing again until at least next Thursday.
Meanwhile, how about you watch this episode of "The Littlest Hobo?" Muslims aren't supposed to own dogs. I think the moisture from dogs and pigs interfere with worship to Allah. Don't ask why, just wear disposable gloves! But this dog just makes me want to sob. Notice how the humans left the dog to die after it had saved their daughter. They didn't even try! I love this dog so much, ya Allah! If I were allowed to have a dog, it would be just like London.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eqkTCyWzcSk
So please don't be in such a hurry. Please have faith in God, please be patient, and maintain your prayers in sincerity. We don't want to rush. Take it slow Julia, relax, sleep on it, work towards it slowly, slow things down. When we get there together, our goal is to slow things down even more, so we can enjoy our love and life together. How can you expect a marriage to last in the fast lane? You've seen that mountain of gold, haven't you? The mountain of gold that rises from the dried-up river of emotions? Where people kill each other to partake of it? It will be literal, my love. So, we don't want to rush the Great War (no, not World War I), where the 2 giant armies will have the same grievance: most likely poverty. We don't want to rush Judgement Day. We want to slow things down, and try to taste some happiness with each other while we are stuck in this imperfect world. If we are destined for each other, then God will bring us together. Just relax, be patient, and work as comfortably as possible with what God has given you.
As I told you before, I won't get another chance to blog my love to you again until after the Eid/Independence Day holidays, which will be about Thursday, insyaAllah. Did you try fasting? Most people make such a big deal about the Eid. I love the fasting month much, much more than the Eid. Sure I can fast almost any other time, but it's not the same as Ramadan, and it's not just about the fasting either. Anyway, please forgive me for not writing again until at least next Thursday.
Meanwhile, how about you watch this episode of "The Littlest Hobo?" Muslims aren't supposed to own dogs. I think the moisture from dogs and pigs interfere with worship to Allah. Don't ask why, just wear disposable gloves! But this dog just makes me want to sob. Notice how the humans left the dog to die after it had saved their daughter. They didn't even try! I love this dog so much, ya Allah! If I were allowed to have a dog, it would be just like London.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eqkTCyWzcSk
Qur'an 20110827
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
101. Say, "Behold all that is in the heavens and on earth." But neither Signs nor Warners profit those who believe not.
102. Do they then expect but the days of the men who passed away before them? Say, "Wait you then, for I too will wait with you."
103. In the end We deliver Our messengers and those who believe. Thus it is fitting on Our part that We should deliver those who believe!
104. Say, "O humankind! If you are in doubt as to my religion, I worship not what you worship other than Allah! But I worship Allah, who will take your souls. I am commanded to be of the believers."
105. And further, set your face towards Religion with true piety, and never in anywise be of the unbelievers.
106. Nor call on any other than Allah, such will neither profit you, nor harm you, If you do, behold! You shall certainly be of those who do wrong.
107. If Allah does touch you with hurt, there is none can remove but God. If God does design some benefit for you, there is none can keep back God's favor. God causes it to reach whomsoever of God's servants God pleases. And God is the Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful.
108. Say, "O humankind! Now Truth has reached you from your Lord! Those who receive Guidance, do so for the good of their own souls. Those who stray, do so to their own loss, and I am not over you to arrange your affairs."
Jonah 10:101-108
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Behold all that is in the heavens and on earth.
Wait you then, for I too will wait with you.
O humankind! If you are in doubt as to my religion, I worship not what you worship other than Allah! But I worship Allah, who will take your souls. I am commanded to be of the believers.
O humankind! Now Truth has reached you from your Lord! Those who receive Guidance, do so for the good of their own souls. Those who stray, do so to their own loss, and I am not over you to arrange your affairs.
101. Say, "Behold all that is in the heavens and on earth." But neither Signs nor Warners profit those who believe not.
102. Do they then expect but the days of the men who passed away before them? Say, "Wait you then, for I too will wait with you."
103. In the end We deliver Our messengers and those who believe. Thus it is fitting on Our part that We should deliver those who believe!
104. Say, "O humankind! If you are in doubt as to my religion, I worship not what you worship other than Allah! But I worship Allah, who will take your souls. I am commanded to be of the believers."
105. And further, set your face towards Religion with true piety, and never in anywise be of the unbelievers.
106. Nor call on any other than Allah, such will neither profit you, nor harm you, If you do, behold! You shall certainly be of those who do wrong.
107. If Allah does touch you with hurt, there is none can remove but God. If God does design some benefit for you, there is none can keep back God's favor. God causes it to reach whomsoever of God's servants God pleases. And God is the Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful.
108. Say, "O humankind! Now Truth has reached you from your Lord! Those who receive Guidance, do so for the good of their own souls. Those who stray, do so to their own loss, and I am not over you to arrange your affairs."
Jonah 10:101-108
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Behold all that is in the heavens and on earth.
Wait you then, for I too will wait with you.
O humankind! If you are in doubt as to my religion, I worship not what you worship other than Allah! But I worship Allah, who will take your souls. I am commanded to be of the believers.
O humankind! Now Truth has reached you from your Lord! Those who receive Guidance, do so for the good of their own souls. Those who stray, do so to their own loss, and I am not over you to arrange your affairs.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Letter to Julia 20110824
Hey Julia, do you drive a car? I was taking Chee Cheah to the vet on Monday for an antifungal shot in my parents' car, and I noticed that the traffic was particularly evil that day. Vehicles were making the wrong turn signal then swerving, cars were speeding up then stopping, people were trying to cut me off when the traffic was frozen... a lot of them too, were doing the same thing over and over again! I was thinking, "They can't all be this stupid." Maybe they were too busy shopping for the Eid, and nothing else mattered? Traffic is unpredictable in general, but there were just too many morons on the road than usual that day. And it's not the same on motorcycle: I drive reeeeally slowly, and there is more room to manuever as opposed to a car. Then it occured to me: they're doing it on purpose! Somehow these idiots must think that I have a lot of money, and they were trying to make some extra cash. I hope I'm wrong about this, but if this is true, then what is happening to me must be happening to you. I hope you're not driving yourself around in a car, especially in the city. Please use a bicycle instead.
I think it was Kurt Cobain who said, "Just because you're paranoid, doesn't mean they're not after you." Haha! Just because they have no faith, doesn't mean that God isn't going to kick their asses. Anyway, it seems that the fasting month is nearly over! The Eid (which is a public holiday here), which marks the end of Ramadan the fasting month, should fall on the 30th of August this year. Incidentally, Independence Day for Malaysia is on the 31st of August. I bring this up because I don't have an internet connection at home, and have to publish my love letter to my beloved Julia and my Qur'an blog at the internet cafe, which may or may not be open on those holidays. If I had an internet cafe, I would be open because the kids would be loaded during this Muslim holiday season. Added to the holidays issue, I am currently under a very oppressive financial situation, even 50 cents a blog is too much for me, so I have to cram the pourings of my heart to my sweetie and my Qur'an blog as compactly and conveniently as possible. If you have been reading my Qur'an blog then this is not a good thing. This time, 22 verses from the chapter titled "Jonah" is way too much, and I apologize for doing so. Julia, if you are studying the Qur'an, you must do it very slowly. But anyway, please forgive me if I fail to blog this love letter during the Eid and Independence Day holiday span. Do know that you are my girl, and I love you.
People in general find it hard to swallow my spiritual agenda, to please Allah with music. They gloat at my poverty, and plot to make me public property. But I haven't asked them for anything. My reward is due only from Allah, I submit to Allah's Will, and I am a servant of Allah.
I think it was Kurt Cobain who said, "Just because you're paranoid, doesn't mean they're not after you." Haha! Just because they have no faith, doesn't mean that God isn't going to kick their asses. Anyway, it seems that the fasting month is nearly over! The Eid (which is a public holiday here), which marks the end of Ramadan the fasting month, should fall on the 30th of August this year. Incidentally, Independence Day for Malaysia is on the 31st of August. I bring this up because I don't have an internet connection at home, and have to publish my love letter to my beloved Julia and my Qur'an blog at the internet cafe, which may or may not be open on those holidays. If I had an internet cafe, I would be open because the kids would be loaded during this Muslim holiday season. Added to the holidays issue, I am currently under a very oppressive financial situation, even 50 cents a blog is too much for me, so I have to cram the pourings of my heart to my sweetie and my Qur'an blog as compactly and conveniently as possible. If you have been reading my Qur'an blog then this is not a good thing. This time, 22 verses from the chapter titled "Jonah" is way too much, and I apologize for doing so. Julia, if you are studying the Qur'an, you must do it very slowly. But anyway, please forgive me if I fail to blog this love letter during the Eid and Independence Day holiday span. Do know that you are my girl, and I love you.
People in general find it hard to swallow my spiritual agenda, to please Allah with music. They gloat at my poverty, and plot to make me public property. But I haven't asked them for anything. My reward is due only from Allah, I submit to Allah's Will, and I am a servant of Allah.
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