In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Oh Dearest, is it the end of March already? My, how time flies. Soon, it will be the fasting month again, then your birthday, then the next Victoria's Secret fashion show... all that hoopla over a few seconds on the runway! Time certainly goes by quickly nowadays, it's a sense of time distortion really.
You must have realized already that there is a sort of "selectionism" existing in mass media. Most likely because there is a sort of modern day Pharoah elated in his power and wealth and control as to who becomes stars, and who doesn't. Back in the early days of mass media, there were chances for those in front of the camera to possibly hold a position of power, especially over their own lives, but that doesn't seem to be the case now. Today, everyone in front of the camera seems to be squeezed dry as quickly as possible. Nobody becomes a "star" like the old days. It has become much easier to dig up or distort truth or fact because of new technology. Also to determine who is to live or die. But the tyrant has no power over the power of Allah.
I don't think I was all that talented 30 years ago. I had to practice long hours daily, and perform live regularly for whatever skill I have today, now that I'm old. But it was so dangerous, it's a miracle of Allah that I'm still alive. I would have never achieved success by what was happening to me back then, no matter how hard I worked, or who I tried to befriend. I'm still surprised that I managed to leave the States alive, but Allah decreed that I must reunite with my mother, so I did.
Friday, March 30, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Letter to Julia 20120328
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
My love, how I long for you and for our finally being with each other. Right now, I am striving towards our marriage with prayer and all that I can do, but we are so close to Judgement Day. The forces we deal with are so huge, so out of the range of our limited strength. We have no option but to survive on the Mercy of God. I have no more emotion or pity for any unbeliever, I am concerned only for our own faith, Julia. Please don't be too obsessed or fooled by all the materialism you encounter in your daily business: everything that is material will be crushed to dust eventually, including the things that we build. Our home, our love nest, our music and fashion empire, all goes back to Allah.
The Internet itself could be the Beast. Are the humans absolutely sure, in their arrogant daily machinations, that they are the ones in control of the machine? Is fiction like Skynet actually a building block of reality? Could awareness be "burned in" like a motherboard? No, the arrogant humans didn't create the Beast, though they may think they did. Allah makes the Beast out of the earth, and it will speak to them, as a Sign of Judgement Day. All this weather distortion and monsters is going to turn something working within mass media into a monster, among other things.
Ha... I don't want to talk of monsters here in this odd little love letter. I pray for a happy and normal marriage with my Julia amidst this imperfect world, amidst this monster of a situation we have to deal with, with each other. Oh, it's so entertaining! But we must slow it down, we must try to slow things down, Julia. Which is one reason why I love this little house: it's easier to maintain. Plus, I'm lazy.
My love, how I long for you and for our finally being with each other. Right now, I am striving towards our marriage with prayer and all that I can do, but we are so close to Judgement Day. The forces we deal with are so huge, so out of the range of our limited strength. We have no option but to survive on the Mercy of God. I have no more emotion or pity for any unbeliever, I am concerned only for our own faith, Julia. Please don't be too obsessed or fooled by all the materialism you encounter in your daily business: everything that is material will be crushed to dust eventually, including the things that we build. Our home, our love nest, our music and fashion empire, all goes back to Allah.
The Internet itself could be the Beast. Are the humans absolutely sure, in their arrogant daily machinations, that they are the ones in control of the machine? Is fiction like Skynet actually a building block of reality? Could awareness be "burned in" like a motherboard? No, the arrogant humans didn't create the Beast, though they may think they did. Allah makes the Beast out of the earth, and it will speak to them, as a Sign of Judgement Day. All this weather distortion and monsters is going to turn something working within mass media into a monster, among other things.
Ha... I don't want to talk of monsters here in this odd little love letter. I pray for a happy and normal marriage with my Julia amidst this imperfect world, amidst this monster of a situation we have to deal with, with each other. Oh, it's so entertaining! But we must slow it down, we must try to slow things down, Julia. Which is one reason why I love this little house: it's easier to maintain. Plus, I'm lazy.
Qur'an 20120328
In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
91. For me, I have been commanded to serve the Lord of this city, God Who has sanctified it, and Whose is all things. And I am commanded to be of those who bow in Islam.
92. And to rehearse the Qur'an. And if any accept guidance, they do it for the good of their own souls. And if any stray say, "I am only a warner."
93. And say, "Praise be to Allah Who will soon show you God's Signs, so that you shall know them." And your Lord is not unmindful of all that you do.
The Ants 27:91-93
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I am only a warner.
Praise be to Allah Who will soon show you God's Signs, so that you shall know them.
91. For me, I have been commanded to serve the Lord of this city, God Who has sanctified it, and Whose is all things. And I am commanded to be of those who bow in Islam.
92. And to rehearse the Qur'an. And if any accept guidance, they do it for the good of their own souls. And if any stray say, "I am only a warner."
93. And say, "Praise be to Allah Who will soon show you God's Signs, so that you shall know them." And your Lord is not unmindful of all that you do.
The Ants 27:91-93
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I am only a warner.
Praise be to Allah Who will soon show you God's Signs, so that you shall know them.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Letter to Julia 20120326
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
For dinner last night I had fried noodles. Fried noodles, or mee goreng as it is called here in Malaysia, is a common dish. Everyone knows what it is and eats it, and has some version of it when cooking it for themselves. I find that the common dishes are the hardest to perfect. I know very few of the traditional Malaysian dishes, because I'm too lazy to learn probably, and I'm such a chaotic cook. I like to go with the flow, you know, and cook up whatever I feel like eating at the particular moment. And when I have no money, I cook up whatever I have at the moment. I have 100 or so different versions of mee goreng, for the simple reason that I'm such a chaotic cook. It's not that I can't stick to a recipe, after all, I used to make the same pizza over and over again from scratch for the masses back during the pizza days. Did you know that the most difficult pizza to cook perfectly is a plain cheese pizza?
Anyway, fried noodles, or chow mein, or lo mein, or mee goreng. The essential element is the noodles, of course. For mee goreng, it would the the course noodles made usually of flour, eggs, grease, salt and water. The dough is extruded into yellowish noodles and mixed with more grease to maintain separation, portioned then packaged while still moist. Over in the USA, you wouldn't find moist egg noodles too easily. They would be dried, and you would have to moisten it yourself usually, but if you can, try to obtain the moist kind. First, you must prepare the fond in a wok. Fond is what you would call a sauce you would cook up to coat the noodles. A typical fond would be to fry up chopped garlic, onions, celery, soy sauce, etc until you get a dark, greasy, salty paste. Last night, I used onion, chicken liver, chilli paste, and salted soybeans. I like to perceive fried noodles like making a salad: toss the noodles into the fond as you would toss the salad until they are well mixed, then turn down the heat and add your pre-cooked meats and vegetables at the very end, so the veggies don't lose their snap, then toss it all together and turn off the fire.
I really don't consider myself the best mee goreng cook. There are certainly better mee goreng cooks out there. When you get here, I'll take you out to one of my favorite places for fried noodles. InsyaAllah. I hope you like it.
For dinner last night I had fried noodles. Fried noodles, or mee goreng as it is called here in Malaysia, is a common dish. Everyone knows what it is and eats it, and has some version of it when cooking it for themselves. I find that the common dishes are the hardest to perfect. I know very few of the traditional Malaysian dishes, because I'm too lazy to learn probably, and I'm such a chaotic cook. I like to go with the flow, you know, and cook up whatever I feel like eating at the particular moment. And when I have no money, I cook up whatever I have at the moment. I have 100 or so different versions of mee goreng, for the simple reason that I'm such a chaotic cook. It's not that I can't stick to a recipe, after all, I used to make the same pizza over and over again from scratch for the masses back during the pizza days. Did you know that the most difficult pizza to cook perfectly is a plain cheese pizza?
Anyway, fried noodles, or chow mein, or lo mein, or mee goreng. The essential element is the noodles, of course. For mee goreng, it would the the course noodles made usually of flour, eggs, grease, salt and water. The dough is extruded into yellowish noodles and mixed with more grease to maintain separation, portioned then packaged while still moist. Over in the USA, you wouldn't find moist egg noodles too easily. They would be dried, and you would have to moisten it yourself usually, but if you can, try to obtain the moist kind. First, you must prepare the fond in a wok. Fond is what you would call a sauce you would cook up to coat the noodles. A typical fond would be to fry up chopped garlic, onions, celery, soy sauce, etc until you get a dark, greasy, salty paste. Last night, I used onion, chicken liver, chilli paste, and salted soybeans. I like to perceive fried noodles like making a salad: toss the noodles into the fond as you would toss the salad until they are well mixed, then turn down the heat and add your pre-cooked meats and vegetables at the very end, so the veggies don't lose their snap, then toss it all together and turn off the fire.
I really don't consider myself the best mee goreng cook. There are certainly better mee goreng cooks out there. When you get here, I'll take you out to one of my favorite places for fried noodles. InsyaAllah. I hope you like it.
Qur'an 20120326
In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
59. Say: "Praise be to Allah, and Peace on God's servants whom God has chosen. Who's better? Allah or the false gods they associate?"
60. Or, who has created the heavens and the earth, and who sends you down rain from the sky? Yes, with it We cause to grow well-planted orchards full of beauty and delight. It is not in your power to cause the growth of the trees in them. God besides Allah? No, they are a people who swerve from justice.
61. Or, who has made the earth firm to live in, made rivers in its midst, set thereon mountains immovable, and made a separating bar between the two bodies of flowing water? God besides Allah? No, most of them know not.
62. Or, who listens to the distressed when it calls on God, who relieves its suffering, and makes you inheritors of the earth? God besides Allah? Little it is that you heed!
63. Or, who guides you through the depths of darkness on land and sea, and who sends the winds as heralds of glad tidings, going before God's mercy? God besides Allah? High is Allah above what they associate with God!
64. Or, who originates Creation, then repeats it, and who gives you sustenance from heaven and earth? God besides Allah? Say, "Bring forth your argument, if you are telling the truth!"
65. Say, "None in the heavens or on earth, except Allah, knows what is hidden. Nor can they perceive when they shall be raised up."
66. Still less can their knowledge comprehend the Hereafter. No, they are in doubt and uncertainty thereat. No, they are blind thereunto!
67. The unbelievers say, "What! When we become dust, we and our fathers, shall we really be raised?"
68. "It is true we were promised this, we and our fathers before. These are nothing but tales of the ancients."
69. Say, "Go you through the earth, and see what has been the end of those guilty."
70. But grieve not over them, nor distress yourself because of their plots.
71. They also say, "When is this promise, if you are truthful?"
72. Say, "It may be that some of the events which you wish to hasten may be in your pursuit!"
73. But verily your Lord is full of grace to humans, yet most of them are ungrateful.
The Ants 27:59-73
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Praise be to Allah, and Peace on God's servants whom God has chosen. Who's better? Allah or the false gods they associate?
Bring forth your argument, if you are telling the truth!
None in the heavens or on earth, except Allah, knows what is hidden. Nor can they perceive when they shall be raised up.
Go you through the earth, and see what has been the end of those guilty.
It may be that some of the events which you wish to hasten may be in your pursuit!
59. Say: "Praise be to Allah, and Peace on God's servants whom God has chosen. Who's better? Allah or the false gods they associate?"
60. Or, who has created the heavens and the earth, and who sends you down rain from the sky? Yes, with it We cause to grow well-planted orchards full of beauty and delight. It is not in your power to cause the growth of the trees in them. God besides Allah? No, they are a people who swerve from justice.
61. Or, who has made the earth firm to live in, made rivers in its midst, set thereon mountains immovable, and made a separating bar between the two bodies of flowing water? God besides Allah? No, most of them know not.
62. Or, who listens to the distressed when it calls on God, who relieves its suffering, and makes you inheritors of the earth? God besides Allah? Little it is that you heed!
63. Or, who guides you through the depths of darkness on land and sea, and who sends the winds as heralds of glad tidings, going before God's mercy? God besides Allah? High is Allah above what they associate with God!
64. Or, who originates Creation, then repeats it, and who gives you sustenance from heaven and earth? God besides Allah? Say, "Bring forth your argument, if you are telling the truth!"
65. Say, "None in the heavens or on earth, except Allah, knows what is hidden. Nor can they perceive when they shall be raised up."
66. Still less can their knowledge comprehend the Hereafter. No, they are in doubt and uncertainty thereat. No, they are blind thereunto!
67. The unbelievers say, "What! When we become dust, we and our fathers, shall we really be raised?"
68. "It is true we were promised this, we and our fathers before. These are nothing but tales of the ancients."
69. Say, "Go you through the earth, and see what has been the end of those guilty."
70. But grieve not over them, nor distress yourself because of their plots.
71. They also say, "When is this promise, if you are truthful?"
72. Say, "It may be that some of the events which you wish to hasten may be in your pursuit!"
73. But verily your Lord is full of grace to humans, yet most of them are ungrateful.
The Ants 27:59-73
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Praise be to Allah, and Peace on God's servants whom God has chosen. Who's better? Allah or the false gods they associate?
Bring forth your argument, if you are telling the truth!
None in the heavens or on earth, except Allah, knows what is hidden. Nor can they perceive when they shall be raised up.
Go you through the earth, and see what has been the end of those guilty.
It may be that some of the events which you wish to hasten may be in your pursuit!
Friday, March 23, 2012
Letter to Julia 20120324
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
I have been in the music business as a musician for 32 years already, counting the time I was a teenager tooting away on a recorder. Granted, I was clueless and overly concerned about making friends for too many years of that time. I am quite used to the lack of privacy and the dangers of fame by now, not that I like it or approve of it. I have discovered that I'm naturally the loner, I am hardly ever interested in seeking attention, and very stubborn once I've made a decision as to what I want. And I want to marry you, because I love you, and you are all I could ever dream of in a girl. My point is that you are probably more susceptible to the bickerings and whinings of others, as you are still young and have only been modeling for 9 years, and you probably do give somewhat of a shit about what other people say about you. This includes the marriage to me, so it is easy for others to try to threaten and sway you instead of me, considering I'm not there by your side to distract them, and that I'm such a blockhead. This is your time, my love. The spotlight is on you, so please be strong, strengthen your heart, and please know that I do care about you very much, and am waiting patiently for the time when Allah allows us to be happily married together. InsyaAllah.
So obviously I'm waiting for some sort of windfall to be able to marry you, after all, I refuse to give you my poverty. When Allah grants me thus, insyaAllah, first I must remodel this house for marriage. I would like to complete the remodeling before I go and get you, but my parents are old, and I would like for them to attend our wedding before they pass away. So I will at least complete the master bedroom and your office/closet with bathroom, then we can finish the house together. Please don't be too fussy, because I prefer small houses! Look, if you really, really want a big house, we can work it out insyaAllah, but let's start with this small house, and expand SLOWLY. You would be in a better position to exert "control" once you're here and we're legally married. Heh heh. I'm pretty easy-going, and I love my wife. What matters to me is that my parents get to witness our wedding, and that we stay married and loving each other for 2 lifetimes together. But let's do start with this small house that I'm already in, and by the time you're here, I would obviously no longer be financially paralyzed, otherwise I wouldn't make the trip to Germany at all. I hope we can carry on life as usual as they put in a new roof, and I also hope you like cats and chickens. Anyway, when I'm ready, I will go to Germany to get you, insyaAllah, and you must be there to meet me and be easy to find, for your absence will be a confirmation that you are not interested in this marriage. I will seek you out at the the offices of the Louisa Modeling Agency, I will give notice of my intended arrival, and please pray that I will have a safe and easy journey. Please remember to prepare a female chaperon for your journey to Malaysia, and wedded bliss. InsyaAllah.
The problem with control is that humans are out of control. They rebel against God for the purpose of ARROGANCE, and this is true up to the highest ranking and wealthiest humans. God warns in the Qur'an that the Signs of God are sent to put fear in people, but this fear only increases their inordinate transgression. That is why patience is the weapon of choice for the righteous, to wait until God deals directly with the stubborn transgressors from directions they do not perceive.
I have been in the music business as a musician for 32 years already, counting the time I was a teenager tooting away on a recorder. Granted, I was clueless and overly concerned about making friends for too many years of that time. I am quite used to the lack of privacy and the dangers of fame by now, not that I like it or approve of it. I have discovered that I'm naturally the loner, I am hardly ever interested in seeking attention, and very stubborn once I've made a decision as to what I want. And I want to marry you, because I love you, and you are all I could ever dream of in a girl. My point is that you are probably more susceptible to the bickerings and whinings of others, as you are still young and have only been modeling for 9 years, and you probably do give somewhat of a shit about what other people say about you. This includes the marriage to me, so it is easy for others to try to threaten and sway you instead of me, considering I'm not there by your side to distract them, and that I'm such a blockhead. This is your time, my love. The spotlight is on you, so please be strong, strengthen your heart, and please know that I do care about you very much, and am waiting patiently for the time when Allah allows us to be happily married together. InsyaAllah.
So obviously I'm waiting for some sort of windfall to be able to marry you, after all, I refuse to give you my poverty. When Allah grants me thus, insyaAllah, first I must remodel this house for marriage. I would like to complete the remodeling before I go and get you, but my parents are old, and I would like for them to attend our wedding before they pass away. So I will at least complete the master bedroom and your office/closet with bathroom, then we can finish the house together. Please don't be too fussy, because I prefer small houses! Look, if you really, really want a big house, we can work it out insyaAllah, but let's start with this small house, and expand SLOWLY. You would be in a better position to exert "control" once you're here and we're legally married. Heh heh. I'm pretty easy-going, and I love my wife. What matters to me is that my parents get to witness our wedding, and that we stay married and loving each other for 2 lifetimes together. But let's do start with this small house that I'm already in, and by the time you're here, I would obviously no longer be financially paralyzed, otherwise I wouldn't make the trip to Germany at all. I hope we can carry on life as usual as they put in a new roof, and I also hope you like cats and chickens. Anyway, when I'm ready, I will go to Germany to get you, insyaAllah, and you must be there to meet me and be easy to find, for your absence will be a confirmation that you are not interested in this marriage. I will seek you out at the the offices of the Louisa Modeling Agency, I will give notice of my intended arrival, and please pray that I will have a safe and easy journey. Please remember to prepare a female chaperon for your journey to Malaysia, and wedded bliss. InsyaAllah.
The problem with control is that humans are out of control. They rebel against God for the purpose of ARROGANCE, and this is true up to the highest ranking and wealthiest humans. God warns in the Qur'an that the Signs of God are sent to put fear in people, but this fear only increases their inordinate transgression. That is why patience is the weapon of choice for the righteous, to wait until God deals directly with the stubborn transgressors from directions they do not perceive.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Letter to Julia 20120321
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
I hope you're not going around telling people what's lawful or unlawful in Islam when you don't really know, or worse if you made it up. If people need guidance, then guide them to the Qur'an, or to a legitimate imam or teacher. You are a supermodel, not an imam. You and I are still learning the Qur'an, and how our lives pertain to it. The Qur'an is to be learned slowly, so please work on your own heart, and take your time, before you would tell others what to do in the name of Allah.
Anyway, squid. Yes, instead of buying half a kilo of mackerel, I found a pretty fair deal on half a kilo of squid at only RM2 more. They were kind of smallish, but I had half a kilo to work with. After all, squid tastes like squid, and more squid tastes squiddier, right? Well, maybe. Have you ever had squid jerky? Now, that really tastes like squid. A cowboy once told me that squid jerky tastes almost like chicken. Anyway, fresh squid SHRINKS when cooked. One wouldn't think so when eating deep-fried calamari rings, but when I stuffed my squid with fried eggplant and cream cheese, the squid squirted it all out when cooked, and turned my broth into a sickly looking white. It tasted OK, but it looked like hell. Meanwhile, the bigger squid shrunk to the size of half a pinkie, while the small ones shrunk to the size of a thumbtack. I thought I would tie the tops up with toothpicks, but I didn't have any. Lesson learned. Next time, I'll buy the big (and more expensive) squid, and stuff squid only with squid.
But it is always better to prepare your own food, and from the freshest ingredients. Given our position and who we are, certainly we are aware that we have no privacy. But it's not just cameras and microphones pointed at us. Observe again how numerous the cases are of celebrities who die in their own homes, or during their daily routines. In the name of "entertainment". But the warning is from Allah: that the war against evil is real, and we must make the effort to oppose evil, and not simply lie down and let them overwhelm us. Seek protection with Allah against evil, for strong as the others may be, the Strongest is Allah.
I hope you're not going around telling people what's lawful or unlawful in Islam when you don't really know, or worse if you made it up. If people need guidance, then guide them to the Qur'an, or to a legitimate imam or teacher. You are a supermodel, not an imam. You and I are still learning the Qur'an, and how our lives pertain to it. The Qur'an is to be learned slowly, so please work on your own heart, and take your time, before you would tell others what to do in the name of Allah.
Anyway, squid. Yes, instead of buying half a kilo of mackerel, I found a pretty fair deal on half a kilo of squid at only RM2 more. They were kind of smallish, but I had half a kilo to work with. After all, squid tastes like squid, and more squid tastes squiddier, right? Well, maybe. Have you ever had squid jerky? Now, that really tastes like squid. A cowboy once told me that squid jerky tastes almost like chicken. Anyway, fresh squid SHRINKS when cooked. One wouldn't think so when eating deep-fried calamari rings, but when I stuffed my squid with fried eggplant and cream cheese, the squid squirted it all out when cooked, and turned my broth into a sickly looking white. It tasted OK, but it looked like hell. Meanwhile, the bigger squid shrunk to the size of half a pinkie, while the small ones shrunk to the size of a thumbtack. I thought I would tie the tops up with toothpicks, but I didn't have any. Lesson learned. Next time, I'll buy the big (and more expensive) squid, and stuff squid only with squid.
But it is always better to prepare your own food, and from the freshest ingredients. Given our position and who we are, certainly we are aware that we have no privacy. But it's not just cameras and microphones pointed at us. Observe again how numerous the cases are of celebrities who die in their own homes, or during their daily routines. In the name of "entertainment". But the warning is from Allah: that the war against evil is real, and we must make the effort to oppose evil, and not simply lie down and let them overwhelm us. Seek protection with Allah against evil, for strong as the others may be, the Strongest is Allah.
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