In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Oh, my dearest, beautiful, precious, beloved Julia! I'm so sorry I stayed away for so long, did you miss me? I certainly missed you, because I love you with all my heart, and I want to marry you. It's just that the Internet needed me too much, so much that it wanted to control my actions and decisions without pay or contract, so I had to stay away for a few days. But I've said this many times before: they don't need me. God is Who they need. Besides, I remember back in 2008 some parties saying, "Bring it on!" Another issue about need, is how can I help supply the needs of others when I'm being kept as poor as I am now? Am I expected to not eat properly and compromise my utilities just to stay on the Internet for the simple sake of being on the Internet constantly, at the Internet cafe paying 2RM/hour, and the journey to and fro thereof? Don't think I've forgotten the many times people tried to run me over with their cars, and set their dogs on me as I rode my bicycle to the pizza joint. Oh, they're saying that never happened? Well, in this case, it doesn't matter what I can prove, it only matters how I feel. **snort** Nobody seems to take action to supply me with the means to sustain the needs of others, in this particular case a home Internet connection, and a new computer with an online budget. So I have to live without it, and they have to live without me. Que Sera Sera.
Anyway, Shadowplay TV was getting too dark, and I was getting tired of it, so I decided to adjust the color correction on my old laptop. Funny thing is, I've had this computer for about 7 years now, and I never could find the color correction module for this Intel 945GM chipset. I thought since it didn't have a separate graphics accelerator, then it didn't have a color correction option. But I did find it yesterday. Amazing! And after 7 years of tolerating all that darkness. So after adjusting the gamma, the whole screen became slightly washed out except for the purest blacks. What is particularly attractive to me is how your photographs become more attractive to me, because your skin and hair become much lighter. It occurs to me how I love my woman to have pale skin and bright light blond hair. SO please, don't ever darken your hair or get a tan.
Don't forget, my dearest Julia, that the goal of our marriage is to slow down, so that you can have a mate who loves you dearly, so that we can shop and eat and go places together, so that you can be a mother, and settle down. It's not the end of your work: far from it, actually. With our combined strength, we can make the demands of your work conform to your heart and well-being. InsyaAllah.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Letter to Julia 20120308
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Moth? No, not the Mothman! Hey, my sources tell me that Mothman sightings have become more frequent in the USA. Maybe it's an omen that the whole country will get flushed into the Pacific ocean cum the next president. Nah, there are no such things as omens. Only Signs of God. Now, prophet Muhammad (peace be on him) said that one of the 10 Signs of Judgement Day is that monsters will appear at late morning. SubhanAllah (Glory to Allah)! That would be much more fun to watch than TV!
In many stories, the moth or butterfly represents death and rebirth. For example, at the end of "All quiet on the Western Front", the soldier was killed by a sniper when he reached for the blue butterfly. InsyaAllah, I will still be allowed to live, but perhaps it would be more than mere survival. Perhaps soon, Allah will allow me to be happily married to my Julia, and we'll be making the love all the time, day and night. InsyaAllah! If so, I'm going to need some drugs. Sigh! Why must only old men acquire wisdom? I guess if I had gained enlightenment 20 years ago, you would only be 6 years old.
Moth? No, not the Mothman! Hey, my sources tell me that Mothman sightings have become more frequent in the USA. Maybe it's an omen that the whole country will get flushed into the Pacific ocean cum the next president. Nah, there are no such things as omens. Only Signs of God. Now, prophet Muhammad (peace be on him) said that one of the 10 Signs of Judgement Day is that monsters will appear at late morning. SubhanAllah (Glory to Allah)! That would be much more fun to watch than TV!
In many stories, the moth or butterfly represents death and rebirth. For example, at the end of "All quiet on the Western Front", the soldier was killed by a sniper when he reached for the blue butterfly. InsyaAllah, I will still be allowed to live, but perhaps it would be more than mere survival. Perhaps soon, Allah will allow me to be happily married to my Julia, and we'll be making the love all the time, day and night. InsyaAllah! If so, I'm going to need some drugs. Sigh! Why must only old men acquire wisdom? I guess if I had gained enlightenment 20 years ago, you would only be 6 years old.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Letter to Julia 20120307
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Y'know Julia, I really miss hummingbirds. When I was living in my humble apartment in Tempe, Arizona, I would have a little hummingbird feeder hanging over my porch. Whenever I went out and saw a little bird partaking of the red sugar water outside my house, I would think to myself, "This is going to be a nice day". There's no logic to such thought of course, because Allah was the one who made the birds come and go. My heart felt some happiness when I saw them, and you might guess that that little happiness can make a whole day. Hey, any bit of joy is better than none at all. The hummingbirds usually appear from fall to spring, but there are a few birds that stick around all year, probably because of all the hummingbird feeders. One spring, a bird built its nest in the tree overlooking my apartment. Oh, joy! I had some photos of the pretty little bird in its pretty little nest, but I lost them when I moved out. However, the little nest drove some girl downstairs insane, and one strange day, she destroyed the nest and the branch it was on.
There aren't any hummingbirds here in Malaysia. But that's OK, because I don't live day to day, because it's all the same old day anyway. And happiness is when Allah allows me a glimpse of the perfect feeling. And I love the countryside, I'm so glad to be out of the city. During the sunset, I thought I saw a hummingbird flitting about the cashew blossoms. But it was smaller, but it had the same bill, the wings flapped the same... could it be? No, it was a moth. Allah blot out the hummingbird and replaced it with a moth.
Y'know Julia, I really miss hummingbirds. When I was living in my humble apartment in Tempe, Arizona, I would have a little hummingbird feeder hanging over my porch. Whenever I went out and saw a little bird partaking of the red sugar water outside my house, I would think to myself, "This is going to be a nice day". There's no logic to such thought of course, because Allah was the one who made the birds come and go. My heart felt some happiness when I saw them, and you might guess that that little happiness can make a whole day. Hey, any bit of joy is better than none at all. The hummingbirds usually appear from fall to spring, but there are a few birds that stick around all year, probably because of all the hummingbird feeders. One spring, a bird built its nest in the tree overlooking my apartment. Oh, joy! I had some photos of the pretty little bird in its pretty little nest, but I lost them when I moved out. However, the little nest drove some girl downstairs insane, and one strange day, she destroyed the nest and the branch it was on.
There aren't any hummingbirds here in Malaysia. But that's OK, because I don't live day to day, because it's all the same old day anyway. And happiness is when Allah allows me a glimpse of the perfect feeling. And I love the countryside, I'm so glad to be out of the city. During the sunset, I thought I saw a hummingbird flitting about the cashew blossoms. But it was smaller, but it had the same bill, the wings flapped the same... could it be? No, it was a moth. Allah blot out the hummingbird and replaced it with a moth.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Letter to Julia 20120305
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Well, the spider fell to the ground and died, and was taken apart by the ants. God took care of the injured spider. I buried a dead rooster about a week ago, but someone dug up the carcass. When I was cutting weeds I could smell some sort of dead animal, but I couldn't find the carcass. A few hours later I chased away a couple of big monitor lizards. The stench of dead animal was gone, so I suppose the lizards removed the carcass. God took care of the dead rooster. I was unable to do anything, and I didn't have to do anything.
The unbelievers say, "Why is not a Sign sent down to him from his Lord?" Say, "Truly Allah leaves to stray, whom God will; but God guides to Godself those who turn to God in penitence." (The Thunder 13:27)
So don't concern your pretty little heart so much about those who refuse to believe, because there will always be such people no matter where you are. They are like the scum frothing in flotsam and jetsam, and God is the One who separate the sea from its corruption. Learn how to ignore them, and be consciously oblivious. Share my bubble, if you will. I love you, beautiful Julia.
Well, the spider fell to the ground and died, and was taken apart by the ants. God took care of the injured spider. I buried a dead rooster about a week ago, but someone dug up the carcass. When I was cutting weeds I could smell some sort of dead animal, but I couldn't find the carcass. A few hours later I chased away a couple of big monitor lizards. The stench of dead animal was gone, so I suppose the lizards removed the carcass. God took care of the dead rooster. I was unable to do anything, and I didn't have to do anything.
The unbelievers say, "Why is not a Sign sent down to him from his Lord?" Say, "Truly Allah leaves to stray, whom God will; but God guides to Godself those who turn to God in penitence." (The Thunder 13:27)
So don't concern your pretty little heart so much about those who refuse to believe, because there will always be such people no matter where you are. They are like the scum frothing in flotsam and jetsam, and God is the One who separate the sea from its corruption. Learn how to ignore them, and be consciously oblivious. Share my bubble, if you will. I love you, beautiful Julia.
Letter to Julia 20120304
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello again, my beloved Julia. How are you? I have been spending much time being... just being. Keeping house, running errands for my parents, tending the yard, tending the lot next to mine, etc. I need to spend more time playing SL, but I suppose I will just have to do what I can. I really need an Internet connection at home plus a new computer to handle only the Internet, mainly so that I don't have to make the journey to the Internet cafe. Actually, I need 2 new computers of my choice. Top secret. Music business. Allah knows. Ya Allah, please help! Also, I want to be wealthy enough to marry Julia and give her a good life. Ya Allah, please help! Also, I need musical instruments. Ya Allah, please help!
InsyaAllah. Anyway, I have much to do to catch up with my yard, because it's been raining everyday lately. My poor little house! I love small houses, Julia. I suppose it's not necessarily what you want, but I love small houses. I love this small house. Today, I had to cut the weeds over at my grandfather's old lot, which is next to mine. It's a big lot, so there's always much to do. I really should clear up all the debris, and make it look neat, but I'm too lazy, and I have my own little house to look after. I found a turtle in the storm drain! It was shy, and it didn't like my looking at it and slipped away in the murky water. I also found a half a spider. Yes, only half of it was left, and it was dying. How does one save a dying spider?
Hello again, my beloved Julia. How are you? I have been spending much time being... just being. Keeping house, running errands for my parents, tending the yard, tending the lot next to mine, etc. I need to spend more time playing SL, but I suppose I will just have to do what I can. I really need an Internet connection at home plus a new computer to handle only the Internet, mainly so that I don't have to make the journey to the Internet cafe. Actually, I need 2 new computers of my choice. Top secret. Music business. Allah knows. Ya Allah, please help! Also, I want to be wealthy enough to marry Julia and give her a good life. Ya Allah, please help! Also, I need musical instruments. Ya Allah, please help!
InsyaAllah. Anyway, I have much to do to catch up with my yard, because it's been raining everyday lately. My poor little house! I love small houses, Julia. I suppose it's not necessarily what you want, but I love small houses. I love this small house. Today, I had to cut the weeds over at my grandfather's old lot, which is next to mine. It's a big lot, so there's always much to do. I really should clear up all the debris, and make it look neat, but I'm too lazy, and I have my own little house to look after. I found a turtle in the storm drain! It was shy, and it didn't like my looking at it and slipped away in the murky water. I also found a half a spider. Yes, only half of it was left, and it was dying. How does one save a dying spider?
Qur'an 20120304
In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
71. And whoever repents and does good has truly turned to Allah with a conversion-
72. Those who witness no falsehood, and if they pass by futility, they pass it with honor;
73. Those who, when they are admonished with the signs of their Lord, droop not down at them as if they were deaf or blind;
74. And those who pray, "Our Lord! Grant unto us wives and offspring who will be the comfort of our eyes, and give us to lead the righteous."
75. These are the ones who will be rewarded with the highest place in heaven, because of their patient constancy: therein they shall be met with salutations and peace,
76. Dwelling therein- how beautiful an abode and a place of rest!
77. Say: "My Lord is not uneasy because of you if you call not on God, but you have indeed rejected, and soon will come the inevitable."
The Criterion 25:71-77
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Our Lord! Grant unto us wives and offspring who will be the comfort of our eyes, and give us to lead the righteous.
My Lord is not uneasy because of you if you call not on God, but you have indeed rejected, and soon will come the inevitable.
71. And whoever repents and does good has truly turned to Allah with a conversion-
72. Those who witness no falsehood, and if they pass by futility, they pass it with honor;
73. Those who, when they are admonished with the signs of their Lord, droop not down at them as if they were deaf or blind;
74. And those who pray, "Our Lord! Grant unto us wives and offspring who will be the comfort of our eyes, and give us to lead the righteous."
75. These are the ones who will be rewarded with the highest place in heaven, because of their patient constancy: therein they shall be met with salutations and peace,
76. Dwelling therein- how beautiful an abode and a place of rest!
77. Say: "My Lord is not uneasy because of you if you call not on God, but you have indeed rejected, and soon will come the inevitable."
The Criterion 25:71-77
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Our Lord! Grant unto us wives and offspring who will be the comfort of our eyes, and give us to lead the righteous.
My Lord is not uneasy because of you if you call not on God, but you have indeed rejected, and soon will come the inevitable.
Friday, March 2, 2012
Letter to Julia 20120302
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
At the same time, please don't expect others to follow the path that which Allah has guided you. Ask any "scientist" what hard evidence is, then ask them if they would still debate it and test it after they receive it. No, don't trust them: put your trust in Allah. I remember in my heart quite clearly the dark times when only Allah was my friend, and the same holds true for me today. And they create idols so they can worship them, because it's what they want to do, even though these idols con neither help nor harm them. But we are not idols, we refuse to be idolized, right? We only want the blessings of Allah, and for Allah to keep us in security and happiness in this life as well as the hereafter.
At the same time, please don't expect others to follow the path that which Allah has guided you. Ask any "scientist" what hard evidence is, then ask them if they would still debate it and test it after they receive it. No, don't trust them: put your trust in Allah. I remember in my heart quite clearly the dark times when only Allah was my friend, and the same holds true for me today. And they create idols so they can worship them, because it's what they want to do, even though these idols con neither help nor harm them. But we are not idols, we refuse to be idolized, right? We only want the blessings of Allah, and for Allah to keep us in security and happiness in this life as well as the hereafter.
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