No Julia, it's not me who's trying to restrict you: it is life that restricts you. Even if you had many lovers and swam in diamonds and wealth, wouldn't you feel suffocated, without a purpose? It's not merely the urge to spawn: some people can hump away in public without shame like donkeys, and when Judgement Day arrives, they wouldn't even get arrested for it. No, we seek a purpose in this life because we are not free, so in love we seek a spiritual love, a soulmate. Experimenting with love and lust is corruption imprisoning itself in corruption. You are MY girl, I am the one who loves you, and wants to marry you. The only thing that holds me back is that I don't want to give you my poverty. That is so, because I'm the only human who has faith enough in the music Allah gave me, to invest everything I had in it. Some people say, "It's your music, so you pay for it." I say the inspiration is from Allah, and I am responsible for it.
**sniffle** It's not mango season yet, but the mango tree is blooming and fruiting. Alhamdulillah. The fruit is the high quality type, called the Harumanis. I look forward to eating it. I'm having to fight hard just to sing lately. This sinus allergy is death to my voice. It's like my voice lives on the border of the enemy, in a dynamic equilibrium. **sniffle**
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Qur'an 20111216
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
105. They are those who deny the Signs of their Lord, and the fact of their having to meet God: vain will be their works, nor shall We, on the Day of Judgement, give them any weight.
106. That is their reward: Hell, because they rejected faith, and took My Signs and My messengers as jokes.
107. As to those who believe and work righteous deeds, they have, for their entertainment, the gardens of Paradise.
108. Wherein they shall dwell: no change will they wish for themselves.
109. Say, "If the ocean were ink to the words of my Lord, sooner would the ocean be exhausted than would the words of my Lord, even if we added another ocean like it for its aid."
110. Say, "I am but a man like yourselves, the inspiration has come to me, that your God is One God. Whoever expects to meet his Lord, let him work righteousness, and in the worship of his Lord, admit no one as partner."
The Cave 18:105-110
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If the ocean were ink to the words of my Lord, sooner would the ocean be exhausted than would the words of my Lord, even if we added another ocean like it for its aid.
I am but a man like yourselves, the inspiration has come to me, that your God is One God. Whoever expects to meet his Lord, let him work righteousness, and in the worship of his Lord, admit no one as partner
105. They are those who deny the Signs of their Lord, and the fact of their having to meet God: vain will be their works, nor shall We, on the Day of Judgement, give them any weight.
106. That is their reward: Hell, because they rejected faith, and took My Signs and My messengers as jokes.
107. As to those who believe and work righteous deeds, they have, for their entertainment, the gardens of Paradise.
108. Wherein they shall dwell: no change will they wish for themselves.
109. Say, "If the ocean were ink to the words of my Lord, sooner would the ocean be exhausted than would the words of my Lord, even if we added another ocean like it for its aid."
110. Say, "I am but a man like yourselves, the inspiration has come to me, that your God is One God. Whoever expects to meet his Lord, let him work righteousness, and in the worship of his Lord, admit no one as partner."
The Cave 18:105-110
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If the ocean were ink to the words of my Lord, sooner would the ocean be exhausted than would the words of my Lord, even if we added another ocean like it for its aid.
I am but a man like yourselves, the inspiration has come to me, that your God is One God. Whoever expects to meet his Lord, let him work righteousness, and in the worship of his Lord, admit no one as partner
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111215
**sniffle** Oh dear, I got the sniffles again. I seem to get the sniffles every other week, huh? Maybe even more than that. I've never been this vulnerable to sinus allergies in my life. It's the environment: I hated living in the desert, but the plus side is I hardly ever got allergy attacks. Perhaps this time it's all those amra and mango blossoms in my yard. No, it's not mango season yet. To who it may concern, I can't sing when my nose is stuffed up. Sinus fluids destroy my voice, and accelerate exhaustion. I've been able to sing every day for the past few months, alhamdulillah, due to a regiment of sinus cavity draining. Let's pray that I don't have to empty my sinus cavity in the middle of a concert.
Ah, how I longed for you this morning when I woke up. I want to marry you, Julia. Are you maintaining your prayers, and taking good care of yourself? I want your chastity, Julia. Do know that I am faithful, insyaAllah. I talk to very few people, most of the time only to my parents and my kitty. I had pepper steak and rice for dinner. It was awesome, thank you ya Allah, for the knowledge and the bounty that You have provided for me. I've been using sugar in my savory dishes quite often lately. Not enough to overwhelm, but it's handy to cut acidic bases like chilli or tomato paste. My parents don't like sweet savory dishes, but I don't mind the sugar as long as it doesn't overwhelm the savory.
Until the time when we can buy our groceries and cook our dinner together, please be patient and faithful, and guard yourself from the corruption of others. Make no mistake, the end of the world is coming up soon. But before the armies come pouring down from the high ground to commandeer all the natural resources, perhaps Allah will grant us happiness together, in this life as well as the hereafter. You are my girl, Julia. I love you.
Ah, how I longed for you this morning when I woke up. I want to marry you, Julia. Are you maintaining your prayers, and taking good care of yourself? I want your chastity, Julia. Do know that I am faithful, insyaAllah. I talk to very few people, most of the time only to my parents and my kitty. I had pepper steak and rice for dinner. It was awesome, thank you ya Allah, for the knowledge and the bounty that You have provided for me. I've been using sugar in my savory dishes quite often lately. Not enough to overwhelm, but it's handy to cut acidic bases like chilli or tomato paste. My parents don't like sweet savory dishes, but I don't mind the sugar as long as it doesn't overwhelm the savory.
Until the time when we can buy our groceries and cook our dinner together, please be patient and faithful, and guard yourself from the corruption of others. Make no mistake, the end of the world is coming up soon. But before the armies come pouring down from the high ground to commandeer all the natural resources, perhaps Allah will grant us happiness together, in this life as well as the hereafter. You are my girl, Julia. I love you.
Qur'an 20111215
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
102. Do the unbelievers think that they can take My servants as protectors besides Me? Verily We have prepared hell for the unbelievers for entertainment.
103. Say, "Shall we tell you of those who lose most in respect of their deeds?"
104. Those whose efforts have been wasted in this life, while they thought that they were acquiring good through their works.
The Cave 18:102-104
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Shall we tell you of those who lose most in respect of their deeds?
102. Do the unbelievers think that they can take My servants as protectors besides Me? Verily We have prepared hell for the unbelievers for entertainment.
103. Say, "Shall we tell you of those who lose most in respect of their deeds?"
104. Those whose efforts have been wasted in this life, while they thought that they were acquiring good through their works.
The Cave 18:102-104
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Shall we tell you of those who lose most in respect of their deeds?
Monday, December 12, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111213
But snakes eat mice, thus exerting some control over the vermin rodent population. I often hear those loud squeaks outside at night, but they don't come in my house, at least I haven't found any evidence of them (droppings, nibblings, etc). It's probably because I don't have any food. And Chee Cheah is a worthless mouser, she's so spoiled. But I don't want neither snake nor mouse in my house, so I pray they keep their power struggle outside.
All power is with Allah, and Allah grants power to whom God wills. Everybody wants to be somewhere else, "The grass is greener on the other side", you know the saying. The poor want wealth, the wealthy want more wealth, men of power want more power, etc. Sure, I could use more money, but I have absolute faith insyaAllah, that Allah will sustain me. It's not as if I don't work at it, although the fiscal rewards don't come quickly enough for some people, but who wants to please those who have no faith anyway? But I don't really want to go anywhere. I despise the city, so I love the kampung. I'm tired of travel: I've seen enough of the world to know that people are the same everywhere, and the rest is just photographs and adaptation to environment. Luxury can be imported, but there's nothing more luxurious than doing whatever I want with my time. No, I don't really want to be anywhere else than where I am now. I want you here with me of course, but that power too is in the care of Allah.
Hey, I just heard a squeak coming from inside...
All power is with Allah, and Allah grants power to whom God wills. Everybody wants to be somewhere else, "The grass is greener on the other side", you know the saying. The poor want wealth, the wealthy want more wealth, men of power want more power, etc. Sure, I could use more money, but I have absolute faith insyaAllah, that Allah will sustain me. It's not as if I don't work at it, although the fiscal rewards don't come quickly enough for some people, but who wants to please those who have no faith anyway? But I don't really want to go anywhere. I despise the city, so I love the kampung. I'm tired of travel: I've seen enough of the world to know that people are the same everywhere, and the rest is just photographs and adaptation to environment. Luxury can be imported, but there's nothing more luxurious than doing whatever I want with my time. No, I don't really want to be anywhere else than where I am now. I want you here with me of course, but that power too is in the care of Allah.
Hey, I just heard a squeak coming from inside...
Qur'an 20111213
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
83. They ask you concerning the Two Horned One. Say, "I will rehearse to you something of his story."
84. Verily We established his power on earth, and We gave him the ways and means to all ends.
The Cave 18:83-84
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I will rehearse to you something of his story.
83. They ask you concerning the Two Horned One. Say, "I will rehearse to you something of his story."
84. Verily We established his power on earth, and We gave him the ways and means to all ends.
The Cave 18:83-84
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I will rehearse to you something of his story.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111212
Hi Julia. Are you hanging in there, my love? Of course I think of you all the time, and I pray you are doing well. I have been spending much time in the yard. Remember I told you that my little house is right next door to my grandfather's house? Well, the house and the compound has been overgrown with vegetation, and looks like a miniature jungle. I've been clearing the area out. It's an obvious hazard to the kids and people going to and fro on the road to the local elementary school, and it's right next to my house, so I certainly get the creeps having to look at that eeire old house covered and surrounded with vines and gloomy trees. It's a slow process, because I'm cautious, lazy, and can only work when it's cool enough to work, namely the two hours before sunset right after the Asr prayer. Being slow is for the best though. The compound is crawling with monitor lizards and snakes. Big snakes too about 2 1/2 meters long, most likely cobras, but I'm not sure because they always run when they sense me, and therefore not in a fighting mood. InsyaAllah.
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