Letter to Julia 20111123

Since I am alone and unmarried right now, it is rather easy to stick to a budget, even though my income is far beyond pathetic. Knowing how to cook for myself really helps, and Chee Cheah is my only dependent, and she doesn't have professional, entertainment, apparel, transportation and education expenses. In fact, she eats like a King Cat since I can't afford to buy her packaged cat food. Today she ate nothing but fried fish heads. Fish heads galore! She's also quite healthy for a kitty: I've only had to take her in for antifungal shots, and the last one was 3 months ago, Besides the sinus congestions I sometimes get, Allah has blessed us both with good health, alhamdulillah.

Even if I had money, I believe I have learned not to spend just for the sake of spending, insyaAllah. I know I'm not pretty, so I wouldn't spend much of anything on vanity. Perhaps some new clothes and boots, when my cargo pants and jungle boots get too worn out from gardening. I really like those cop boots, you know the type those motorcycle cops wear. I wonder how they'll work for gardening? I also prefer a small house. Right now I sleep on the floor, and I don't receive guests because I have no friends, so I don't have any furniture other than kitchen cabinets, closets and the occasional chair and table. My profession is entertainment, so those 2 expenses are one, but it would be substantially larger than an average person's expense because of the need for research. My having no vanity means that I won't need flashy cars. I would use the motorcycle most of the time anyway, and if I feel the urge to drive fast then I just play GTA. I'm sick of traveling, so I would have limited travel expenses. I would certainly spend more on ingredients, because I enjoy cooking at leisure, and I like my own cooking. I might even order live cattle from USA or Japan to be slaughtered here, plus build a walk-in cooler for my cheese collection and the occasional salmon. Is that extravagant? I don't know. I would definitely donate some of that meat to the poor, I would prefer to eat the cheese than to show it off, and the local seafood is superior in quality to the rest of the world as it is, as long as the environment remains clean. Between all that, I have to give in charity and worship to Allah. Every other expense is all about you, so I pray you have a disciplined budget. We Muslims must not be spendthrifts and wasteful, so I would appreciate you to be respectful in that as well.

Anyway, when you speak, please speak for the best. You are a role model, for people you may not see or hear, and some of them are very small. And you are my girl, and I love you. Please be patient, maintain your prayers.