Y'know Julia, this inability to fulfill our passion is a difficulty for me, too. Obviously, the problem is the distance between us. We need to be properly married to each other, and be with each other all the time. Then I will do whatever it takes to be fucking you all the time, even if I would have to carry a backpack filled with viagra pumped into me intraveinously. Of course, it would be cumbersome when you're lying on your stomach reading a global economics textbook but hey, life is not perfect. You seem to be waiting for me, so if that is true then you must have faith, and pray that our love will be fulfilled quickly and efficiently. Please forgive me for being so far away from you.
Do you have faith in our love, and in God? Then be patient and wait, and pray that God will settle our matter of love in a happy way. This our global love affair is a sign of the Grace and Power of God, to defy those who will to enslave us, and force you into prostitution. This our love is an investment into the next life, so please be patient now, and pray.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Monday, July 4, 2011
Letter to Julia 20110705
And what HAVE you been doing, Julia? Hmmm. You're not feeling guilty, are you? Well, whatever it is, I forgive you. We're only human, and we have to do the best with what Allah gives us. Does that make me a go-with-the-flow kind of person? Partly. But you're my girl, Julia. Besides, there aren't that many beautiful blonde German girls here in Perlis, so I have nothing better to do than to love you, be faithful to you, because I want to marry you.
Waiting around can be such a drag, especially when you're young, and surrounded by temptation. You've spent most of your life showing off your beauty, and your job demands that you do so. Hiding that beauty is not easy, I realize. Beauty can be such a burden. People become either fanatical, or jealous. But beautiful women can't hide their beauty, even if they tried. I don't have the same kind of beauty as you, but whatever beauty I have, I use it to serve Allah. Sure, it's because I'm older, and I'm not too influenced by temptation. Temptation to me now is a good fish. Sure I'm older, and more faithful. You wouldn't prefer someone who messes around on you, would you?
Yes, temptation to me now is a good fish. Wow, that red snapper I saw just now sure looked good. Do you know how tasty red snapper meat is? It doesn't need salt, but soy sauce and fresh wasabi amplify the heaven. Hmmm. Scaling and gutting it is such a pain in the ass, especially if the fish is small. I still haven't gotten around to making sweet and sour grouper, or experimenting with short fin tuna. Anyway, I only have 4 (Malaysian) dollars in my wallet right now. I would've had more money, but I got conned into buying expensive cooking oil. Looks like it's going to be mackerel, as usual. But I have shrimp in my cooler, so maybe I'll just settle for shrimp. It's been raining continuosly lately, and the rain stopped just yesterday. I don't want to face another massive flood, ya Allah please. What happened to all my free time? The baby cashews need to be transplanted. The lawn needs weeding. I need to peel and pick fruit! Poor little Chee Cheah needs to have her dinner made fresh! There's too much going on right now to enjoy a good fish. Are you so sure I'm far away from you? Sometimes it feels like I'm looking right over your shoulder.
Waiting around can be such a drag, especially when you're young, and surrounded by temptation. You've spent most of your life showing off your beauty, and your job demands that you do so. Hiding that beauty is not easy, I realize. Beauty can be such a burden. People become either fanatical, or jealous. But beautiful women can't hide their beauty, even if they tried. I don't have the same kind of beauty as you, but whatever beauty I have, I use it to serve Allah. Sure, it's because I'm older, and I'm not too influenced by temptation. Temptation to me now is a good fish. Sure I'm older, and more faithful. You wouldn't prefer someone who messes around on you, would you?
Yes, temptation to me now is a good fish. Wow, that red snapper I saw just now sure looked good. Do you know how tasty red snapper meat is? It doesn't need salt, but soy sauce and fresh wasabi amplify the heaven. Hmmm. Scaling and gutting it is such a pain in the ass, especially if the fish is small. I still haven't gotten around to making sweet and sour grouper, or experimenting with short fin tuna. Anyway, I only have 4 (Malaysian) dollars in my wallet right now. I would've had more money, but I got conned into buying expensive cooking oil. Looks like it's going to be mackerel, as usual. But I have shrimp in my cooler, so maybe I'll just settle for shrimp. It's been raining continuosly lately, and the rain stopped just yesterday. I don't want to face another massive flood, ya Allah please. What happened to all my free time? The baby cashews need to be transplanted. The lawn needs weeding. I need to peel and pick fruit! Poor little Chee Cheah needs to have her dinner made fresh! There's too much going on right now to enjoy a good fish. Are you so sure I'm far away from you? Sometimes it feels like I'm looking right over your shoulder.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Letter to Julia 20110702
"What is she doing in there?" "Why won't she let us watch?" "Maybe she's doing drugs in there?" etc etc... I suppose those are some supposed presuppositions of people when you hide yourself away to pray. You do have a direct line to God, you know? No human can know what you plead for from God, when you make contact with your heart. Not even me, though I long for that you long for me. The 5 daily prayers are the trademark of a Muslim: it can be done quick n' easy if you're on the run, but they must be done. Don't let anyone con you into treating prayers as optional. They'll take your soul if you let them, but don't you let them.
This is certainly a level over those materialists, who believe that all others perceive is their wealth. And they use their wealth to squash the faithful, they would spend great amounts of their wealth just to oppress one person. I suppose it's for material gain, but how can honor be considered material? All honor is with Allah, anyway. And it's so hard to jump on the bandwagon when one has scoffed at it before. The prophet (peace be on him) forgave the people who opposed him, and those who tried many times to assassinate him and his followers. I'm not the prophet (peace be on him). I'm just a musician.
And you are my mate, my Julia. My reflection, my significant other. Please treat me kindly, nd my work too. Oh, the controversy, the babble! What could you be up to next, Julia? What are you thinking?
This is certainly a level over those materialists, who believe that all others perceive is their wealth. And they use their wealth to squash the faithful, they would spend great amounts of their wealth just to oppress one person. I suppose it's for material gain, but how can honor be considered material? All honor is with Allah, anyway. And it's so hard to jump on the bandwagon when one has scoffed at it before. The prophet (peace be on him) forgave the people who opposed him, and those who tried many times to assassinate him and his followers. I'm not the prophet (peace be on him). I'm just a musician.
And you are my mate, my Julia. My reflection, my significant other. Please treat me kindly, nd my work too. Oh, the controversy, the babble! What could you be up to next, Julia? What are you thinking?
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Letter to Julia 20110627
Oh dear Julia, I'm getting my dates mixed up lately... to tell you the truth, sometimes I don't even know what day it is. It's all this free time (which I love, alhamdulillah), I seem to be caught in a time warp.
I'm sure you are working hard. I am a natural worker, I stopped school to go to work, I even relax by working. As the result, all my knowledge was derived from the need to adapt to my work, as opposed to being tutored. I suppose Allah tutored me, and the knowledge given by Allah is the best. Why do we work so hard? When I was younger, I was like most others you would find in my field: a reckless clown, but a hard worker. But all that hard work only took me up to a certain point, which I could not pass. There was something I was not aware of, which was not a formal education, because I saw many others with degrees stuck at the same place as I. Sure, show business is tough. Some say that only a few people hold the best positions, and they don't give it away, except maybe to kinfolk. As a result, I was isolated. So I took my relationship with God more and more seriously, until it became my agenda, to please Allah with music. Allah has been my only friend through many hardships. I wish I had attained awareness when I was young, then I wouldn't have made so many errors. But I have to do the best with what Allah gives me.
We cannot take our religion to be mere amusement and play, and put our work for material gains above all else. Forget all those other people Julia, as God forgets them, as they forget God. Please take your religion seriously. It's not just that I cannot marry you unless you become a Muslim, but you must be sincere in your relationship with God, or you will harm us both. Please maintain your prayers, and don't pray where people can see you unless it's a group prayer. Hide.
I'm sure you are working hard. I am a natural worker, I stopped school to go to work, I even relax by working. As the result, all my knowledge was derived from the need to adapt to my work, as opposed to being tutored. I suppose Allah tutored me, and the knowledge given by Allah is the best. Why do we work so hard? When I was younger, I was like most others you would find in my field: a reckless clown, but a hard worker. But all that hard work only took me up to a certain point, which I could not pass. There was something I was not aware of, which was not a formal education, because I saw many others with degrees stuck at the same place as I. Sure, show business is tough. Some say that only a few people hold the best positions, and they don't give it away, except maybe to kinfolk. As a result, I was isolated. So I took my relationship with God more and more seriously, until it became my agenda, to please Allah with music. Allah has been my only friend through many hardships. I wish I had attained awareness when I was young, then I wouldn't have made so many errors. But I have to do the best with what Allah gives me.
We cannot take our religion to be mere amusement and play, and put our work for material gains above all else. Forget all those other people Julia, as God forgets them, as they forget God. Please take your religion seriously. It's not just that I cannot marry you unless you become a Muslim, but you must be sincere in your relationship with God, or you will harm us both. Please maintain your prayers, and don't pray where people can see you unless it's a group prayer. Hide.
Letter to Julia 20110627
Oh dear Julia, I'm getting my dates mixed up lately... to tell you the truth, sometimes I don't even know what day it is. It's all this free time (which I love, alhamdulillah), I seem to be caught in a time warp.
I'm sure you are working hard. I am a natural worker, I stopped school to go to work, I even relax by working. As the result, all my knowledge was derived from the need to adapt to my work, as opposed to being tutored. I suppose Allah tutored me, and the knowledge given by Allah is the best. Why do we work so hard? When I was younger, I was like most others you would find in my field: a reckless clown, but a hard worker. But all that hard work only took me up to a certain point, which I could not pass. There was something I was not aware of, which was not a formal education, because I saw many others with degrees stuck at the same place as I. Sure, show business is tough. Some say that only a few people hold the best positions, and they don't give it away, except maybe to kinfolk. As a result, I was isolated. So I took my relationship with God more and more seriously, until it became my agenda, to please Allah with music. Allah has been my only friend through many hardships. I wish I had attained awareness when I was young, then I wouldn't have made so many errors. But I have to do the best with what Allah gives me.
We cannot take our religion to be mere amusement and play, and put our work for material gains above all else. Forget all those other people Julia, as God forgets them, as they forget God. Please take your religion seriously. It's not just that I cannot marry you unless you become a Muslim, but you must be sincere in your relationship with God, or you will harm us both. Please maintain your prayers, and don't pray where people can see you unless it's a group prayer. Hide.
I'm sure you are working hard. I am a natural worker, I stopped school to go to work, I even relax by working. As the result, all my knowledge was derived from the need to adapt to my work, as opposed to being tutored. I suppose Allah tutored me, and the knowledge given by Allah is the best. Why do we work so hard? When I was younger, I was like most others you would find in my field: a reckless clown, but a hard worker. But all that hard work only took me up to a certain point, which I could not pass. There was something I was not aware of, which was not a formal education, because I saw many others with degrees stuck at the same place as I. Sure, show business is tough. Some say that only a few people hold the best positions, and they don't give it away, except maybe to kinfolk. As a result, I was isolated. So I took my relationship with God more and more seriously, until it became my agenda, to please Allah with music. Allah has been my only friend through many hardships. I wish I had attained awareness when I was young, then I wouldn't have made so many errors. But I have to do the best with what Allah gives me.
We cannot take our religion to be mere amusement and play, and put our work for material gains above all else. Forget all those other people Julia, as God forgets them, as they forget God. Please take your religion seriously. It's not just that I cannot marry you unless you become a Muslim, but you must be sincere in your relationship with God, or you will harm us both. Please maintain your prayers, and don't pray where people can see you unless it's a group prayer. Hide.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Letter to Julia 20110626
Dearest Julia, how's life in high fashion today? Most certainly, beautiful clothes suit you, as you are so lovely, my dearest. I certainly need some nice new clothes, especially shoes, for everything I have has been worked to the bone. I have something new for the next Eid, which is about 2 months away. Yes, fasting month is next month or so. I wonder if you have tried fasting? Just do your best with what God has given you: as long as your worship is sincere then insyaAllah, everything will be OK.
While I have stepped down in food and clothing, Chee Cheah has stepped up. Yeah, I adore cats, so I always spoil the ones who stay with me. But in this case, I can't afford packaged cat food, so I make fresh food for little Chee Cheah. My staple right now is rice and mackerel. Whenever I buy mackerel, I fillet the whole lot, and separate the flesh, the bones, the roe, and the heads, then keep them in the freezer. The fish heads I fry up until crispy for her, and I also give her a whole fillet which I steam up with the rice. The fish is best for her skin and fur I think. I also mix up some fish with fresh rice for her. This morning, I served her leftovers, and she gave me a "What?" look. Hold on, let me see if she finished her food... no, she didn't. What a little snob.
But it would be nice to have some new clothes and shoes. I don't pass anymore, so dresses are out of the question until the next life. Which probably makes you happy: less competition! Playing drums was my downfall: since I started playing drums, I became bulky, and God gave me a body to bust skulls with. Also, I'm certainly not young anymore. You be the pretty one for both of us Julia. Besides, I'd rather stare at you than at the mirror. Anyway, I could sure use a fresh pair of jungle boots, and some Doc Martens. Jungle boots are made in China so I might find some here, but Doc Martens are impossible to come by around these here parts.
As I watch Shadowplay TV, I see many fashion designers. I really like Vera Wang... she's so bubbly! I also think Carolina Herrera is very stylish. Oddly enough, I don't see Karl Lagerfeld on TV at all. Isaac Mizrahi comes up a lot. He seems like a nice enough guy, but he should be careful about his food, otherwise he will be busting out of his clothes, which is unflattering for the clothes. But then again, he's been hanging out with some spiritual losers. I don't hang out anymore, I just work. I guess that means that I only hang out with children, and cats. But I would like to have some new clothes anyway.
Don't these guys kind of look like thugs? Nowadays, the thug look is chic. But it also adds some flair to the topic of the song they're singing.
Dearest Julia, how's life in high fashion today? Most certainly, beautiful clothes suit you, as you are so lovely, my dearest. I certainly need some nice new clothes, especially shoes, for everything I have has been worked to the bone. I have something new for the next Eid, which is about 2 months away. Yes, fasting month is next month or so. I wonder if you have tried fasting? Just do your best with what God has given you: as long as your worship is sincere then insyaAllah, everything will be OK.
While I have stepped down in food and clothing, Chee Cheah has stepped up. Yeah, I adore cats, so I always spoil the ones who stay with me. But in this case, I can't afford packaged cat food, so I make fresh food for little Chee Cheah. My staple right now is rice and mackerel. Whenever I buy mackerel, I fillet the whole lot, and separate the flesh, the bones, the roe, and the heads, then keep them in the freezer. The fish heads I fry up until crispy for her, and I also give her a whole fillet which I steam up with the rice. The fish is best for her skin and fur I think. I also mix up some fish with fresh rice for her. This morning, I served her leftovers, and she gave me a "What?" look. Hold on, let me see if she finished her food... no, she didn't. What a little snob.
But it would be nice to have some new clothes and shoes. I don't pass anymore, so dresses are out of the question until the next life. Which probably makes you happy: less competition! Playing drums was my downfall: since I started playing drums, I became bulky, and God gave me a body to bust skulls with. Also, I'm certainly not young anymore. You be the pretty one for both of us Julia. Besides, I'd rather stare at you than at the mirror. Anyway, I could sure use a fresh pair of jungle boots, and some Doc Martens. Jungle boots are made in China so I might find some here, but Doc Martens are impossible to come by around these here parts.
As I watch Shadowplay TV, I see many fashion designers. I really like Vera Wang... she's so bubbly! I also think Carolina Herrera is very stylish. Oddly enough, I don't see Karl Lagerfeld on TV at all. Isaac Mizrahi comes up a lot. He seems like a nice enough guy, but he should be careful about his food, otherwise he will be busting out of his clothes, which is unflattering for the clothes. But then again, he's been hanging out with some spiritual losers. I don't hang out anymore, I just work. I guess that means that I only hang out with children, and cats. But I would like to have some new clothes anyway.
Don't these guys kind of look like thugs? Nowadays, the thug look is chic. But it also adds some flair to the topic of the song they're singing.
Qur'an 20110626
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
28. When they do something that is shameful, they say: "We found our fathers doing so," and "Allah commanded us thus." Say, "No, Allah never commands what is shameful. Do you say of Allah what you know not?"
29. Say, "My Lord has commanded justice, and that you set your whole selves at every time and place of prayer, and call upon God, making your devotion sincere as in God's sight. Such as God created you in the beginning, so shall you return."
30. Some God has guided. Others have deserved the loss of their way, in that they took the evil ones, in preference to Allah, for their friends and protectors, and think that they receive guidance.
31. O children of Adam! Wear your beautiful apparel at every time and place of prayer. Eat and drink, but waste not by excess, for Allah loves not the wasters.
32. Say, "Who has forbidden the beauty of Allah, which God has produced for God's servants, and the things, clean and pure, for sustenance?" Say, "They are, in the life of this world, for those who believe, purely for them on the Day of Judgment." Thus do We explain the Signs in detail for those who understand.
33. Say, "The things that my Lord has indeed forbidden are: shameful deeds, whether open or secret, sins and trespasses against truth or reason, assigning of partners to Allah, for which God has given no authority, and saying things about Allah of which you have no knowledge."
34. To every people is a term appointed. When their term is reached, not an hour can they cause delay, nor can they advance.
The Heights 7:28-34
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No, Allah never commands what is shameful. Do you say of Allah what you know not?
My Lord has commanded justice, and that you set your whole selves at every time and place of prayer, and call upon God, making your devotion sincere as in God's sight. Such as God created you in the beginning, so shall you return.
Who has forbidden the beauty of Allah, which God has produced for God's servants, and the things, clean and pure, for sustenance?
They are, in the life of this world, for those who believe, purely for them on the Day of Judgment.
The things that my Lord has indeed forbidden are: shameful deeds, whether open or secret, sins and trespasses against truth or reason, assigning of partners to Allah, for which God has given no authority, and saying things about Allah of which you have no knowledge.
28. When they do something that is shameful, they say: "We found our fathers doing so," and "Allah commanded us thus." Say, "No, Allah never commands what is shameful. Do you say of Allah what you know not?"
29. Say, "My Lord has commanded justice, and that you set your whole selves at every time and place of prayer, and call upon God, making your devotion sincere as in God's sight. Such as God created you in the beginning, so shall you return."
30. Some God has guided. Others have deserved the loss of their way, in that they took the evil ones, in preference to Allah, for their friends and protectors, and think that they receive guidance.
31. O children of Adam! Wear your beautiful apparel at every time and place of prayer. Eat and drink, but waste not by excess, for Allah loves not the wasters.
32. Say, "Who has forbidden the beauty of Allah, which God has produced for God's servants, and the things, clean and pure, for sustenance?" Say, "They are, in the life of this world, for those who believe, purely for them on the Day of Judgment." Thus do We explain the Signs in detail for those who understand.
33. Say, "The things that my Lord has indeed forbidden are: shameful deeds, whether open or secret, sins and trespasses against truth or reason, assigning of partners to Allah, for which God has given no authority, and saying things about Allah of which you have no knowledge."
34. To every people is a term appointed. When their term is reached, not an hour can they cause delay, nor can they advance.
The Heights 7:28-34
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No, Allah never commands what is shameful. Do you say of Allah what you know not?
My Lord has commanded justice, and that you set your whole selves at every time and place of prayer, and call upon God, making your devotion sincere as in God's sight. Such as God created you in the beginning, so shall you return.
Who has forbidden the beauty of Allah, which God has produced for God's servants, and the things, clean and pure, for sustenance?
They are, in the life of this world, for those who believe, purely for them on the Day of Judgment.
The things that my Lord has indeed forbidden are: shameful deeds, whether open or secret, sins and trespasses against truth or reason, assigning of partners to Allah, for which God has given no authority, and saying things about Allah of which you have no knowledge.
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