Letter to Julia 20120801

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi precious young Julia!  How are you coping today?  You must be working hard.  I haven't much to say today except that people who claim to believe in God have no power over the Grace of God, and that Grace is bestowed by God to whomever God wills.

Letter to Julia 20120731

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

YOOOOOOOLIIIIEEEEE!

You know my love, God has been kind to us in that we were not exposed to the crowd as children.  Alhamdulillah.  But the pressure of the public eye is hard on you still, my beloved.  Oh Julia, you poor sweetheart.  I love you and I want to nurture you.  Please be with me, and I will distract them away from you.  Don't speak to them.  Don't negotiate with them.  Don't explain anything to them.  Just be silent and mysterious.  Bloodthirsty the crowd may be, in order to be humble then we must be part of the crowd as well.  Let's be part of the crowd that goes to heaven, and be strong enough to resist the selfish and violent mass.  InsyaAllah.

Letter to Julia 20120730

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hey Julia.  My dearest love.  The nights are still hot right now.  But I do so love the fasting month, more than I like the Eid.  I would like to tell you about my family.  My Dad is/was one of the first private lawyers in Perlis.  My Mom is a retired teacher.  I have 2 brothers and 1 sister.  I'm the recluse of the family.  Perlis is the home state of my mother, so she is the one with the deepest roots here.  More?

I've been analyzing these Victoria's Secret Fashion Shows, and I've figured out who your main rival for the position of Boss Model is.  I'm all for you!  My Julia!  Go Julia!  Everyone send in your vote for Julia to be Boss Model at Victoria's Secret right now!

Oh yes, I need to remind you to please keep measurements and scales to fit your comfort when designing a home.  Like doorways, table tops, kitchen counters, cabinets, drawers, toilet seats, etc should all be made to fit your height.  I'm sorry my dearest, I love you with all my heart, but I don't have a house plan yet.  I can't draw, and so many wacky, I mean strange things are happening to me right now, I have to pay attention in order to react properly.  Don't worry my love, my primary concern is for your happiness, and I actually like to sleep on the floor.  Also don't forget to add a huge dose of patience to whatever you're doing around here.  After all, you are Mrs. Global.

P.S. Thank you for your love.

Qur'an 20120730

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

61. But Allah will deliver the righteous to their place of salvation: no evil shall touch them, nor shall they grieve.

62. Allah is the Creator of all things, and God is the Guardian and Disposer of all affairs.

63. To God belong the keys of the heavens and the earth, and those who reject the Signs of Allah- it is they who will be in loss.

64. Say, "Is it someone other than Allah that you order me to worship, O you ignorant ones?"

65.  But it has already been revealed to you, as it was to those before you, if you were to falsely worship, truly fruitless will be your work, and you will surely be in the ranks of those who lose.

Crowds 39:61-65
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Is it someone other than Allah that you order me to worship, O you ignorant ones?

I would like to thank Allah for the Qur'an, the music, for all the knowledge and bounty, for being my Saviour and my only Friend during the times of darkest danger.

I would like to thank the prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) for being my leader, and distracting others from paying too much attention to me.

I would like to thank Julia for her love.

I would like to thank my parents for their love and patience.

I would like to thank my friends and family and the righteous people at the masjid.

Letter to Julia 20120728

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Whew... it's a hot night right now, my Julia.  It's nearly 11:00pm and I still have the ac on.  Half a week ago it was raining and cold.  So how are you coping, my young love?  Something tells me you are still overworking, so please try to slow down.  But who has time especially this month, huh?  I must mop the house and scrub the bathroom again, but I'm sooo lazy.  I managed to get my yard work tasks done in flash for some reason, and I had an extra half hour left.  I spent it gaping, not knowing what to do, then I went and gossiped with my mother.

I can't remember how many wacky, I mean strange things have happened to me this month so far, but I won't list it here.  We don't want any writers to get free material when they get paid for what they do, and I don't.  I have a wife to pamper!  So I'll talk about the mundane instead.  I was cooking up some noodles at about 4am this morning, when my parents shouted for me, because they had some fried noodles.  My Mom said that I shouldn't cook, but I was already in the middle of it, and I had the same mess to clean up whether I cooked or not.  Momentum, you know?  The fire on my burner is acting freaky lately.  Sometimes it's so huge I could melt metal, but this morning I couldn't get it to go past medium low.  The fond for my noodles wasn't that great.  I have to stop using leftover curry as a base and not be so lazy, and start making curry from scratch.  The chicken was OK: it was boneless and easy to deal with, and I couldn't be bothered with peeling and deveining shrimp.  But the other noodles, the one my mother gave me, tasted better anyway.  What I would really like right now is some caramel and toffee ice cream.

Qur'an 20120729

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

53.  Say, "O servants who have transgressed against their souls!  Despair not the mercy of Allah, for Allah forgives all sins for God is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful."

Crowds 39:53
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O servants who have transgressed against their souls!  Despair not the mercy of Allah, for Allah forgives all sins for God is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

Letter to Julia 20120726

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

How are feeling today, precious young Julia?  Don't work too hard!  Slow down!  Yeah, I've got much work all backed up, but I'm sooooo lazy....  I just wanna snuggle with my sweetie, and make the looooove...  zzzzzzz 

Qur'an 20120727

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

45. When Allah, the One and Only, is mentioned, the hearts of those who believe not in the Hereafter are filled with disgust and horror, but when gods other than God are mentioned, behold they are filled with joy!

46. Say, "O Allah! Creator of the heavens and the earth! Knower of all that is hidden and open! It is You that will judge between Your servants in those matters in which they have differed."

47. Even if the wrongdoers had all that there is on earth, and as much more, would they offer it for ransom from the pain of the Penalty on the Day of Judgement, but something will confront them from Allah which they could never have counted upon!

48. For the evils of their deeds will confront them, and they will be encircled by that which they used to mock at!

49. Now when trouble touches man, he cries to Us: but when We bestow a favor upon him as from Ourselves, he says, "This has been given to me because of a certain knowledge." No, this is but a trial, but most of them understand not!

50. Thus did those before them say! But all that they did was of no profit to them.

51. No, the evil results of their deeds overtook them, and the wrongdoers of this- the evil results of their deeds will soon overtake them, and they will never be able to frustrate!

Crowds 39:45-51
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O Allah! Creator of the heavens and the earth! Knower of all that is hidden and open! It is You that will judge between Your servants in those matters in which they have differed.

Letter to Julia 20120725

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello my Julia, my beautiful, beloved darling.  How are you feeling?  I've decided that I want to restart the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon in conjunction with regular Shadowplay TV programming.  I can't get enough of my sweetie!  So I'll be having 2 TV screens going at once.  What if the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show comes up on Shadowplay TV?  Oh no!  What should I do?  I'll be getting a double dose of my sweetie!  Sweetie overload!  I don't need to announce anything to the general viewer.  They should be smart enough to know who I love anyway.

How are you dreaming, my love?  No, you don't have to tell me in this public place, but people have always been fascinated with dreams, Freud for instance.  Sleep is a temporary death, and that is why dreams are significant.  That is why your dreams are a Sign of God.  The dreamscape is certainly a different reality.

By the way, don't go chasing after people who are obviously lost souls, who are clearly on a path to ruin.  You are not responsible for how they conduct their lives.  You have your own well-being to take care of.  As long as they leave you alone, you leave them alone.

Qur'an 20120726

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

39.  Say, "O my people!  Do whatever you can, I will do.  But soon will you know."

40.  Who it is to whom comes a Penalty of ignominy, and on whom descends a Penalty that abides.

41.  Verily We have revealed the Book to you in Truth, for mankind.  He then that receives guidance benefits his own soul.  But he that strays injures his own soul, nor are you set over them to dispose of their affairs.

42.  It is Allah that takes the souls at death, and those that die not during their sleep.  Those on whom God has passed the decree of death, God detains.  But the rest God returns for a term appointed.  Verily in this are Signs for those who reflect.

43.  What!  Do they take for intercessors others besides Allah?  Say, "Even if they have no power and no intelligence?"

44.  Say, "To Allah belongs exclusively intercession."  To God belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth.  In the end, it is to God that you shall be brought back.

Crowds 39:39-44
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O my people!  Do whatever you can, I will do.  But soon will you know.

Even if they have no power and no intelligence?

To Allah belongs exclusively intercession.

Letter to Julia 20120724

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia!  My love.  You may be fascinated by the local cuisine here, as it's all new to you.  I have to tell you that I don't really have much of a local stomach.  The staple of the locals is rice with assorted entrees.  I don't eat that daily.  Not even monthly.  Maybe once every 3 months, or less.  I like rice, I do.  But only with one entree.  Then there are some stuff that just don't attract me.  It's all the traveling I've done, you see.  I've acquired sort of a "white man's stomach".  But that's not entirely true either.  I like to experiment lots of times.  I don't know.  I like my own cooking.  Fussy stomach.  Long and tedious history.

One of the most important techniques of spiritual reality is to know where to put your fear.  Materialists put their fear in poverty.  Pagans would place fear in gods and demigods.  Atheists would put fear in the human will.  But the pious put their fear in God.  Sure, it's a dangerous world, it has always been so, and the cruel would emphasize that in order to make you fear them.  Warfare is all about deception.  And even the best of humans have their weaknesses.  Allah is Absolute in Power, and will compensate for your weaknesses, if it be God's Will.  Put your fear in Allah, ask God for help or anything else you need, and do not be cowed by the intimidation of others.  If you master this, then you would have truly stepped up to a different plane of reality.

Qur'an 20120724

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

37.  And such as Allah does guide, there can be none to lead astray.  Is not Allah Exalted in Power, Lord of Retribution?

38.  If indeed you ask them who it is that created the heavens and the earth, they would be sure to say, "Allah".  Say, "See you then?  The things you invoke besides Allah, can they if Allah wills some penalty for me, remove God's Penalty?  Or if God wills some grace for me, can they keep back God's Grace?"  Say, "Sufficient is Allah for me!"  In God trust those who put their trust.

Crowds 39:8-15
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See you then?  The things you invoke besides Allah, can they if Allah wills some penalty for me, remove God's Penalty?  Or if God wills some grace for me, can they keep back God's Grace?

Sufficient is Allah for me!

Letter to Julia 20120723

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.




I do so love the fasting month, because so many wacky things happen. Wacky? I mean strange. But to be practical, it's more like a different kind of mundane. Since eating habits change, so do cooking habits. Daily responsibilities do not, however. So I have to fit in my routine with my new eating and cooking hours, plus I have to cook for myself. It's also much more social for me, because I attend the additional night prayer at the mosque, insyaAllah. I'm usually quite a recluse, always have been. But I would love to be alone with you, my love.



Most people are more social than I. Especially you, I estimate. I understand that when one sees only the faces of people, then one can get influenced by them. But Allah is the Real Boss. So the issue of sincerity in worship to Allah will come up again. Those who reject Allah are like those who rejected Allah before them, and punishment came from directions they did not perceive. Be not like the billionaire who belongs to many partners at variance with each other. What is perceived as unprofitable is "wasting my time". A Muslim belongs to only one Master. Are those two equal in comparison?

Letter to Julia 20120721

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**Shadowplay TV now returns to its regular programming**

I love the fasting month, don't you?  It's so mysterious.  I used to dread it like everyone else, because I didn't get to stuff my face whenever I felt like it, but now I love it.  And I just had the most delicious baked tuna.  I'm stuffed.

By the way, sincerity is quality, not quantity.  Or better yet, you do things to please God, not to please humans.

Shadowplay TV is back on the randomizer and larger database.  There are still some unanswered questions about the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show, like what lurks in the complicated mind of the mysterious Butt Blurrer, but that will have to remain unanswered for now.

Anyway, have a fantastic Ramadan my beloved, and may Allah bless our love.

Qur'an 20120720

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

8.  When some trouble touches man, he cries unto his Lord, turning to God in repentance.  But when God bestows a favor upon him as from Godself, does forget what he cried and prayed for before, and he does set up rivals unto Allah, thus misleading others from the Path.  Say, "Enjoy your blasphemy for a little while, verily you are of the companions of the fire!"

9.  Is one who worships devoutly during the hours of the night prostrating himself or standing, who takes heed of the Hereafter, and who places his hope in the Mercy of his Lord...  Say, "Are those equal, those who know and those who do not know?  It is those who are endued with understanding that receive admonition."

10.  Say, "O you servants who believe!  Fear your Lord.  Good is for those who do good in this world.  Spacious is Allah's earth!  Those who patiently persevere will truly receive a reward without measure!"

11.  Say, "I am commanded to serve Allah with sincere devotion."

12.  And I am commanded to be the first of those who bow to Allah in Islam.

13.  Say, "I would, if I disobeyed my Lord, indeed have fear of the Penalty of a Mighty Day."

14.  Say, "It is Allah I serve, with my sincere devotion."

15.  Serve you what you will besides God.  Say, "Truly those in loss are those who lose their souls and their people on the Day of Judgement.  Ah!  That is indeed the evident loss!"


Crowds 39:8-15
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Enjoy your blasphemy for a little while, verily you are of the companions of the fire!

Are those equal, those who know and those who do not know?  It is those who are endued with understanding that receive admonition.

O you servants who believe!  Fear your Lord.  Good is for those who do good in this world.  Spacious is Allah's earth!  Those who patiently persevere will truly receive a reward without measure!

I am commanded to serve Allah with sincere devotion.

I would, if I disobeyed my Lord, indeed have fear of the Penalty of a Mighty Day.

It is Allah I serve, with my sincere devotion.

Truly those in loss are those who lose their souls and their people on the Day of Judgement.  Ah!  That is indeed the evident loss!

Letter to Julia 20120719

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

Yes, of course I love you.  How could I not?  You're so beautiful, inside and out.  But you didn't do me any favors by becoming a Muslim.  Rather, Allah conferred a favor upon you by guiding you to the faith, if you are true and sincere.  The hypocrites don't think so, but sincerity is very transparent.  In fact, you would be destroying us both if your faith is not sincere.

Letter to Julia 20120718

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

And how are you coping, my beloved?  Too much attention?  Please try to slow down and enjoy whatever it is you are doing, and please be patient with others who only long to see you.  Sure, when a mosquito demands attention, you would get the bug spray.  But most people lack understanding and patience.  So you just compensate with your own patience, and not be in any sort of hurry to please others.

Qur'an 20120718

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

86.  Say, "No reward do I ask of you for this, nor am I a pretender."

87.  This is no less than a Message to the worlds.

88.  And you shall certainly know the truth of it after a while.

(The letter) Sad 38:86-88
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No reward do I ask of you for this, nor am I a pretender.

Letter to Julia 20120717

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

**sniffle**  Yes, I still have the sniffles.  I thought I beat it last week, but it came back for round 2.  It must be this freaky weather here lately.  I managed to burn the trash today which had been accumulating for the past week, with much effort, but much of it is still wet.  And it's raining slightly right now.  I'm certainly not in the mood to cook.  Thank God I have some curry made by one of my favorite cooks.  I bought some fresh buns at the night market, and had bread and fish curry for dinner.  A very intelligent and calculated curry, perfect in flavor and texture.  I got slight heartburn, but I do have the sniffles after all.  **sniffle**  I'm curious as to how the chef chose the fish.  It looks like cod, but I'm not sure.  I'm still mastering my fishes.  I haven't had sushi in a while, mostly because I can't find any wasabi in Perlis.  I don't have my own curry recipe, even though I eat it often.  That's because I'm too lazy to learn the local recipes.  What I do is buy curry then jazz it up if I'm not satisfied with it.  **sniffle**

Letter to Julia 20120716

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

Hi Julia, my beloved beautiful young bride!  How are you feeling?  I love you with all my heart!  The fasting month starts on Saturday the 21st of July.  ARE YOU READY TO ROCK??!!!  Well, I'm getting ready to fast.  I need to maintain my daily schedule as best as possible, plus there is an additional group prayer every night throughout Ramadan which I attend, insyaAllah.  Which means I don't have to do the hour's worship I do about 4am every morning throughout the rest of the year: I eat instead.  I plan to eat light or quickly for breaking fast, then pigging out in the wee hours of the morning.  Shadowplay TV will be going back to regular programming in less than a week, too.  But don't worry: I'll be seeing the fashion show whenever Allah takes over the randomizer and picks that show.  I'll get to see my sweetie!  Hi Sweetie!  Say, do those wings actually work?  I mean, if I wore those wings and then jumped into the Grand Canyon, would I die?  No, I don't wanna die like that!

But all joking aside, if you call yourself a believer, then Allah will test your faith.  That is as certain as death.  Do you believe?  Then Allah will test you.  Perfection is a reward in the next life.  What we can pray for is that Allah make our journey together an easy one.  Ya Allah, please grant Julia and I love, beauty, good health, safety and happiness together in this life as well as the hereafter. Please don't divorce us.  Please grant us long, happy, healthy lives together with beautiful, happy, healthy and pious children.  Please protect us.  Please forgive our sins, make us great Muslims, make us faithful to each other and to You, grant us the highest place in heaven, and make our journey together easy.

Qur'an 20120716

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

65.  Say, "Truly I am a warner: no god is there but the One God, Supreme and Irresistible."

66.  The Lord of the heavens and the earth, and all between, Exalted in Might, Able to enforce God's Will, Forgiving again and again.

67.  Say, "That is a Message Supreme."

68.  From which you do turn away!

69.  No knowledge have I of the chiefs on high, when they discuss among themselves.

70.  Only this has been revealed to me: that I am to give warning plainly and publicly.


(The letter) Sad 38:65-70
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Truly I am a warner: no god is there but the One God, Supreme and Irresistible.

That is a Message Supreme.

Letter to Julia 20120714

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

Hi Julia!  How are feeling today, my love?  My beloved!  My girl!  Are you still close by?  I can't tell.  If you are, then you are very good at being invisible.  I made some eggplant sauce today.  Such a handy sauce, it can be used for dipping, on chicken, beef or seafood, used in lieu of cheese in a sandwich etc etc.  It's actually eggplant and liver sauce.  I've become very fond of liver lately.  For this sauce this time (I'm a go-with-the-flow kind of cook), I had 6 medium eggplants.  First I sauteed some chopped onion and garlic in a little grease in a saucepan until brown.  Then I added the eggplant, peeled and diced, gradually, and I add more oil as I add eggplant.  Eggplant absorbs oil, so the balance between eggplant and oil is very tricky!  Oh, but before that, please prepare the chicken liver.  I used one chicken liver.  Liver can be sliced when frozen, which is convenient.  I marinade the sliced liver with curry powder, then I fry it up in a little oil until it changes color.  Don't overcook the liver!  Take it off the heat quickly!  The liver is for flavoring the sauce, and it's easy to mulch with a spoon into a paste after you lightly fry it.  Use the leftover grease to saute the onions and garlic.

Anyway, the eggplant is ready to mulch when it has softened.  Add the liver, a cup of chilli paste and one cube of chicken bouillon.  Cook and mulch the mix until it becomes a sauce.  Yummy!  Don't forget to add the eggplant and oil together gradually!

Letter to Julia 20120712

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

I got a new kitten, Julia!  Aw, he's such a cutie.  Last week, I think about Thursday, I was awoken early at 7:30 am by a loud, high-pitched squealing and crying amidst the noise of the daily traffic on the road to the elementary school.  Even though I was half asleep, I immediately realized that a kitten was playing chicken with the cars and motorcycles during school rush hour.  So I got out there as quickly as I could, to see some guy on a motorcycle screaming at a tiny black and white kitten by the side of the road, who was crying his little heart out.  So I waved at the little thing to catch his attention, and he followed me, and he kept on following me around for the next half hour, until I shacked him up at my grandfather's old house.

He managed to get out while I was voice training, and started squeaking at my window.  Which eventually caught the attention of my Dad, and he decided to adopt the little guy.  But my Dad got bored with him a few days later, so now the kitten is mine!  He's a black and white kitten, with huge ears and small eyes, and looks kinda like a bat, so I named him Bat Cat.  Chee Cheah isn't pleased of course that Batty is around, so I keep Batty in the cage where I keep my motorcycle, so the house belongs to Choo Choo.  I took him to the vet a couple of days ago, and the vet said that he was a fine cat.  Batty is such a polite little kitten.  Whenever I let him into the house, he plays around a little, then asks to be put back in his cage.

Such a tiny little baby.

Letter to Julia 20120711

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

**sniffle**  Oh dear, it looks like I've got the sniffles again.  If you hadn't noticed, the weather here has been rather freaky lately, and last night was particularly cold but full of mosquitoes, so I had incense burning the whole night.  I felt somewhat OK in the morning, but by the time I had to do voice training, the snots attacked with full force.  As you know, I have to empty my sinus cavity so that none of those fluids flow down my throat.  But it was time to sing.  Part of voice training is to gain the strength to overcome physical limitations, and be consistent.  But I could only do one hour of singing, mostly Billie Holiday.

Not that she's easy to sing: it's more that she fit the mood of the moment.  Sometimes it can be impossible to nail Billie.  It really depends on how I feel.  And with my nose stuffed up, I certainly feel like our Lady of Sorrow.

While you live, you will certainly keep getting those nobodies who taunt you for your faith by saying, "Oh God, hurry up and bring on the punishment!"  So just ignore them like the nobodies they are, for when they do get their asses kicked, you wouldn't have noticed they existed in the first place.

Letter to Julia 20120709

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

Peace!

Whoops!  I forgot to post my last love letter to you.  I'm such a ditz!  Um, yeah!  I put it up just now so that you can read it.  The contents of the letter leaked out somehow the last time I was here.  I think I've figured out how I'm being observed.  Since this is an internet cafe, it would be nearly impossible for them to anticipate which station I will be at (unless they have an agent posted here), so I am identified by the signature of my flash drive, and my letters are read before I even post them.  Well, these love letters are for you, Julia.  I write them because I love you, and I want to marry you.  Not them.  Only they care about them.

I just had the most awesome beef bone soup!  It was PERFECT, after I gave it a little more time on the stove.  Soup always tastes better the next day anyway, like chili and stew, but it was so tasty, I guzzled it all down immediately.  I'm so full!  Most people use a slow cooker for soups, stews and chili, where they can just throw in all the ingredients, turn it on, then forget about it for the next 12 hours.  I used a knife to scrape out all that delicious bone marrow, and I cut my mouth when I slurped on the marrow.  That was so stupid of me!

I guess I need to remind you to please slow down, and take your time doing things, please relax and enjoy your life and whatever it is you are doing.  Again, it is error to seek friends and social recognition, because they already know who you are.  And trust takes time.  I'm not going anywhere, insyaAllah.  I think it's safe for me to say that I've been waiting for you all my life, and I am willing to wait a little longer, so we can have a rock-solid and loving marriage.  InsyaAllah.

Letter to Julia 20120707

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

Ah, that was some delicious fried chicken I had the other night.  All white meat, too.  Just the way I like it.  I didn't eat the hot dogs, though.  I don't know why.  The hot dogs in this country suck, anyway.  The Jews made great hot dogs.

Of all the Victoria's Secret Fashion Shows, my favorite has to be the 2008 show.  You know, the one at the Fountainbleu.  That was right after the financial meltdown, wasn't it?  Was the show aired live?  Silly me, it was edited: it couldn't have been.  It certainly had a lot of very entertaining drama.  I have to admire all the girls for maintaining their bouncity-bounce despite the shenanigans over at Wall Street.

Letter to Julia 20120704

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

Say, that scrap metal collector looked like he was from Bollywood!  He seemed a bit too dapper to be gathering scrap.

**sob** My red hot chili peppers won't turn red!  I've been watching them for weeks.  I mean they're nice and big, but they won't ripen.  So I have to pick them while they're still green, otherwise they'll fall off and rot.  They taste sweeter than green peppers though, but there's absolutely no heat.  Now my pepper steak has turned green, too.

Petai is green, as well.  I don't know the English name for petai, but it is a fruit, or a vegetable, or whatever it is, that very strong smelling and strong tasting, almost akin to garlic, but without the nutrients.  It comes in long strands of seeds, kind of like a string bean, but flat and much larger.  so perhaps petai is some kind of legume.  The locals here devour petai with white rice and mixed entrees because it gives a certain extra kick to food.  The skin of the petai strand is thick enough for roasting, which enhances the flavor and scent of petai.  But in general, only the seed is eaten.

Letter to Julia 20120703

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

Lately, the food my Mom has been serving me at her house has been so awesome.  The ingredients have been classy and perfectly cooked, and the recipes were very calculated.  Plus, my stomach didn't lodge a single complaint!  Whoever cooked all that delicious food is a very intelligent cook.  Last night, I was about to prepare pepper steak for myself again.  I love pepper steak.  It's super spicy, but my stomach absorbs all of it.    Then I found clams going for RM5 for 2 kilos when I went to night market, so I decided to have clams instead.  The key to cooking clams is clam broth: the juices inside the clam that spill out when you heat up the clam and it opens up.  It's already very salty, so whatever fond you create must have minimal salt.  Clam broth becomes poisonous quickly, so use up any leftover clam broth immediately!  I also bought half a kilo of mackerel.  Most cooks here like to throw in the mackerel into their soups and sauces bones and heads included.  I like to fillet and remove the heads of mackerel.  I keep the fillets for cooking or eating raw, and the bones I fry up until crisp as an alternative source of calcium to milk, which gives me the runs.  Plus, I like the flavor.  I offered some fried fish bones to my parents once, and they both gave me the dirtiest look in the world.

Grappling hooks are used for climbing.  The symbolism of grappling hooks being used to lock a door as it applies to us is that we need not seek anymore status or recognition.  We are already as high as we can be.  All we need to do is just be ourselves, and to live as normally and happily with each other as possible.  Then as we enter the darkness of the sundry shop, we must remember that it is wisest to grow slowly, using resources that are already available.  We must SLOW DOWN.  We must pray for Allah to strengthen our faith, to God and to each other, and to make our path together easy.

I love you, Julia.

Letter to Julia 20120702

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

**It's still the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show marathon on Shadowplay TV**

Hello, my beloved young angel Julia.  If it be that you are close by with the intent to marry me, then you have done a righteous thing, for you have chosen love over money in the name of Allah.  Our love may have broken down a locked door, but it is the door of an old sundry shop, and it is dark inside.  Do you know what a sundry shop is, Julia?  It is a small grocery store the size of a convenience store, which is independently owned with small capital, and look as thus.  And there is one more locked door before we enter the darkness, a door which is bolted down with grappling hooks.  In the darkness could be diamonds and gold or otherwise, who knows?  So please please please pray that Allah grants me my own wealth so I can treat you well.  It would break my heart to see you live in poverty as I am.  I just wanna die.  I just wanna die.  I just wanna die.  I want the best for you, for you are my love, my heart, my soul.  So I must live and be patient and faithful that Allah will grant us all that we need.