Hello again, my beloved beautiful Julia. Are you maintaining your prayers, and taking good care of yourself? I've been holing up here in my cave, and I've been marveling at how things turn full circle. The more things change, the more the stay the same. I remember praying over and over again for God to get me out of the pizza joint, out of the food business, and out I went, on a crazy rollercoaster which is too long-winded to explain. But I still have to eat. And since I don't have money, I have to make the best I can out of cheap stuff. And suddenly, the cheap stuff becomes expensive, but how can it be my fault, since I don't have money to buy the expensive stuff? So, I'm always looking for options. Lord, I hate the food business. BUt I'm never going to work in a restaurant ever again, insyaAllah. I pray that you are able to eat properly without other people making a huge fuss. Probably not, but hey you are just so gorgeous, I love you, and I want to marry you. So you must try hard to take good care of your precious body.
Then I remember long ago, when I had no skill at singing. People kept complaining and criticizing my singing, wanting to replace me, telling me how to sing, etc etc etc. Do it for the music, they said. Maybe I was being superficial, I don't know. You can't stay in music business if you don't love music, y'know. Today, since Allah gave me some ability to mirror some famous singers, I am hated even more. See what I mean: trying to please the crowd is the worst mistake in art. But that's Rock and Roll, I suppose, it's the nature of the beast. Except for the kids, of course. Whenever I practise, they seem to pop out everywhere then instantly evaporate, like ghosts. Maybe they were ghosts.
Whoops! I'm talking too much. But I gotta talk to my sweetie, y'know? She's so beautiful. I have to run back into my cave now, and just kick back with my kitty, and watch Shadowplay TV. As for you, you are my wife, then your closest friends are the ones who believe best in God. So keep that circle closed, and do not take for friends and intimates others outside your ranks, for they will not fail to corrupt you. Their mouths already speak hatred, and what their hearts conceal is far worse.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Qur'an 20111206
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
21. Thus did We make their case known to people, that they might know the promise of Allah is true, and that there can be no doubt about the Hour of Judgement. Behold, they dispute among themselves as to their affair. Said, "Construct a building over them." Their Lord knows best about them. Those who prevailed over their affair said, "Let us surely build a place of worship over them."
22. Saying they were three, the dog being the fourth among them. Saying they were five, the dog being the sixth, doubtfully guessing at the unknown. Saying they were seven, the dog being the eighth. Say, "My Lord knows best their number: it is but few that know them." Enter not therefore into controversies concerning them, except on a matter that is clear. Nor consult any of them about the Sleepers.
23. Nor say of anything, "I shall be sure to do so and so tomorrow,"
24. Without adding, "So please, Allah!" And call your Lord to mind when you forget, and say, "I hope that my Lord will guide me ever closer than this to the right road."
25. So they stayed in their cave three hundred years, and add nine.
26. Say, "Allah knows best how long they stayed. With God is the secrets of the heavens and the earth, how clearly God sees, how finely God hears! They have no protector other than God. Nor does God share God's Command with any person whatsoever."
The Cave 18:21-26
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My Lord knows best their number: it is but few that know them.
Allah knows best how long they stayed. With God is the secrets of the heavens and the earth, how clearly God sees, how finely God hears! They have no protector other than God. Nor does God share God's Command with any person whatsoever.
21. Thus did We make their case known to people, that they might know the promise of Allah is true, and that there can be no doubt about the Hour of Judgement. Behold, they dispute among themselves as to their affair. Said, "Construct a building over them." Their Lord knows best about them. Those who prevailed over their affair said, "Let us surely build a place of worship over them."
22. Saying they were three, the dog being the fourth among them. Saying they were five, the dog being the sixth, doubtfully guessing at the unknown. Saying they were seven, the dog being the eighth. Say, "My Lord knows best their number: it is but few that know them." Enter not therefore into controversies concerning them, except on a matter that is clear. Nor consult any of them about the Sleepers.
23. Nor say of anything, "I shall be sure to do so and so tomorrow,"
24. Without adding, "So please, Allah!" And call your Lord to mind when you forget, and say, "I hope that my Lord will guide me ever closer than this to the right road."
25. So they stayed in their cave three hundred years, and add nine.
26. Say, "Allah knows best how long they stayed. With God is the secrets of the heavens and the earth, how clearly God sees, how finely God hears! They have no protector other than God. Nor does God share God's Command with any person whatsoever."
The Cave 18:21-26
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My Lord knows best their number: it is but few that know them.
Allah knows best how long they stayed. With God is the secrets of the heavens and the earth, how clearly God sees, how finely God hears! They have no protector other than God. Nor does God share God's Command with any person whatsoever.
Friday, December 2, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111203
Hi Julia my love, how are you feeling? I'm just sitting here, writing a love letter, and watching TV. It's been a busy week for some reason, but unproductive. I did a lot of unnecessary running around. For instance, I went to the government clinic to pick up some antifungal cream for my left toe, but it was a long wait because the place was packed, as it usually is. Normally I am prepared to wait, but that day my stomach had some urgent business to attend to, and it started to protest, so I took my stomach home to the comfort of the toilet it so loves, as opposed to a public restroom in a public hospital. That's another reason why I don't like to travel anymore: I don't like to be far away from my bathroom! Wouldn't you prefer to use only your own restroom that you are familiar with? Especially considering the lack of privacy we have to put up with? It's not as simple as taking a roll of toilet paper along with us wherever we go.
Well, I guess I'm stubborn, huh? God gave me this baby, and I have been raising it alone for many, many years already. And I want you. I don't have faith in the morning, then turn back in the evening, like some others. Now please excuse me, I'm going to go and hide in my cave.
Well, I guess I'm stubborn, huh? God gave me this baby, and I have been raising it alone for many, many years already. And I want you. I don't have faith in the morning, then turn back in the evening, like some others. Now please excuse me, I'm going to go and hide in my cave.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111201
**sniffle** Oh Julia, I've gone and gotten myself the sniffles again. **sniffle** I just barely got over the sniffles I had last week, then I got a sniffle attack while I was voice training. **sniffle** I can't sing when the sinus fluids overflow. They ruin my voice. So I have to spend hours draining all those fluids into a small bucket. Nothing else seems to work. This process takes my entire concentration, so I can't multitask while I empty out my sinus cavity, but I must protect my voice. Disgusting though as this may seem, I have managed to maintain voice training and Qur'an reading everyday for over 2 months, because of this strict regimen. Disgusting though as this may seem, sinus fluids are crystal clear, but viscous as a jellyfish. Fascinating, huh? Right now, only Allah and I seem to know how important it is that I sing everyday. Perhaps someday, others will catch on, and offer enough financial aid so that I can marry my sweetie. Yeah, right. I can only trust Allah for that. **sniffle**
I was about to blog a love letter to you yesterday, but my USB drive died. That's too bad, because I wrote up a dissertation on the dangers and intricasies of singing. Oh well, I suppose it's to stay a secret, because I can't remember exactly what I wrote, and I suppose Allah was the One who killed my USB drive, thus I don't want to blog such a topic right now. Instead, I'll just say what I'm supposed to be saying in a love letter. You're the prettiest girl in the world to me, Julia. I love you, and I want to marry you.
I was about to blog a love letter to you yesterday, but my USB drive died. That's too bad, because I wrote up a dissertation on the dangers and intricasies of singing. Oh well, I suppose it's to stay a secret, because I can't remember exactly what I wrote, and I suppose Allah was the One who killed my USB drive, thus I don't want to blog such a topic right now. Instead, I'll just say what I'm supposed to be saying in a love letter. You're the prettiest girl in the world to me, Julia. I love you, and I want to marry you.
Qur'an 20111201
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
99. See they not that Allah, who created the heavens and the earth, has power to create the likes of them? Only God has decreed a term appointed, of which there is no doubt. But the unjust refuse except with ingratitude.
100. Say, "If you had control of the Treasures of the Mercy of my Lord, behold! You would keep them back for fear of spending them, for humans are selfish!"
(The Night Journey 99-100)
106. A Qur'an which We have divided, in order that you might recite it to humans in intervals: We have revealed it in stages.
107. Say, "Whether you believe in it or not, it is true that those who were given knowledge beforehand, when it is recited to them, fall down on their faces in humble prostration."
108. And they say, "Glory to our Lord! Truly has the promise of our Lord has been fulfilled!"
109. They fall down on their faces in tears, and it increases their humility.
110. Say, "Call upon Allah, or call upon the Compassionate One. By whatever name you call upon God, for to God belong the Most Beautiful Names. Neither speak your prayer aloud, nor speak it in a low tone, but seek a middle course between."
111. Say, "Praise be to Allah, who begets no son, and has no partner in dominion, nor any to protect God from humiliation. Yea, magnify God, for God's Greatness and Glory!"
(The Night Journey 17:106-111)
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If you had control of the Treasures of the Mercy of my Lord, behold! You would keep them back for fear of spending them, for humans are selfish!
Whether you believe in it or not, it is true that those who were given knowledge beforehand, when it is recited to them, fall down on their faces in humble prostration.
Call upon Allah, or call upon the Compassionate One. By whatever name you call upon God, for to God belong the Most Beautiful Names. Neither speak your prayer aloud, nor speak it in a low tone, but seek a middle course between.
Praise be to Allah, who begets no son, and has no partner in dominion, nor any to protect God from humiliation. Yea, magnify God, for God's Greatness and Glory!
99. See they not that Allah, who created the heavens and the earth, has power to create the likes of them? Only God has decreed a term appointed, of which there is no doubt. But the unjust refuse except with ingratitude.
100. Say, "If you had control of the Treasures of the Mercy of my Lord, behold! You would keep them back for fear of spending them, for humans are selfish!"
(The Night Journey 99-100)
106. A Qur'an which We have divided, in order that you might recite it to humans in intervals: We have revealed it in stages.
107. Say, "Whether you believe in it or not, it is true that those who were given knowledge beforehand, when it is recited to them, fall down on their faces in humble prostration."
108. And they say, "Glory to our Lord! Truly has the promise of our Lord has been fulfilled!"
109. They fall down on their faces in tears, and it increases their humility.
110. Say, "Call upon Allah, or call upon the Compassionate One. By whatever name you call upon God, for to God belong the Most Beautiful Names. Neither speak your prayer aloud, nor speak it in a low tone, but seek a middle course between."
111. Say, "Praise be to Allah, who begets no son, and has no partner in dominion, nor any to protect God from humiliation. Yea, magnify God, for God's Greatness and Glory!"
(The Night Journey 17:106-111)
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If you had control of the Treasures of the Mercy of my Lord, behold! You would keep them back for fear of spending them, for humans are selfish!
Whether you believe in it or not, it is true that those who were given knowledge beforehand, when it is recited to them, fall down on their faces in humble prostration.
Call upon Allah, or call upon the Compassionate One. By whatever name you call upon God, for to God belong the Most Beautiful Names. Neither speak your prayer aloud, nor speak it in a low tone, but seek a middle course between.
Praise be to Allah, who begets no son, and has no partner in dominion, nor any to protect God from humiliation. Yea, magnify God, for God's Greatness and Glory!
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Letter to Julia 20111128
Of course, when the time comes when Allah allows me the means to travel to you and get you, I would have prepared a home and a means of living for you, insyaAllah. A life of marriage that I have been talking about all this while to you, happiness in this life as well as the Hereafter, insyaAllah. Be aware that there are greater issues at stake, considering that your suitor is a one with a spiritual agenda, to please Allah with music. It is a larger existence than you have ever experienced before, a space larger than the glitz of a ballroom with crystal chandeliers and gold adornments. A pressure greater than the deepest chasm in the ocean, an awareness of life far beyond the sensation of motion perceived by your eyes and fuzzy blond hairs on your forearm. Much more important than the amount of cash and material possessions I am able to accumulate in order to give you a comfortable existence. It is something you need to figure out for yourself, if Allah wills. I can't slap a collar around your neck and pull you upstairs. If Allah refuses to guide you, then you will not be helped. I can't save anybody, no matter how much I love them, not my parents, not you. Allah is the One who saves people, not me.
Qur'an 20111128
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
85. They ask you concerning the Spirit. Say, "The Spirit by command of my Lord. Of knowledge, it is only a little that is communicated to you."
86. If it were Our Will, We could take away that which We have sent to you by inspiration. Then would you find none to plead your affair in that matter as against Us.
87. Except for Mercy from your Lord, for God's Bounty is indeed to you great.
88. Say, "If the whole of humans and jinns were to gather together to produce the like of this Qur'an, they could not produce the like thereof, even if they backed up each other with help and support."
89. And We have explained to humans, in this Qur'an, every kind of similitude. Yet the greater part of humans refuse, except with ingratitude!
90. They say, "We shall not believe in you until you cause a spring to gush forth for us from the earth."
91. "Or you have a garden of date trees and vines, and cause rivers to gush forth in their midst, carrying abundant water."
92. "Or you cause the sky to fall in pieces, as you say, against us. Or you bring Allah and the angels here, face to face."
93. "Or you have a house adorned with gold, or you mount a ladder right into the skies. No, we shall not even believe in your mounting until you send down to us a book that we can read." Say, "Glory to my Lord! Am I aught but a man, a messenger?"
94. What kept humans back from belief when Guidance came to them was nothing but this: they said, "Has Allah sent a man to be messenger?"
95. Say, "If there were settled on earth angels walking about in peace and quiet, God would certainly sent them down from the heavens an angel for a messenger."
96. Say, "Enough is Allah for a witness between me and you, for God is Well-acquainted with God's servants, and God Sees."
The Night Journey 17:85-96
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The Spirit by command of my Lord. Of knowledge, it is only a little that is communicated to you.
If the whole of humans and jinns were to gather together to produce the like of this Qur'an, they could not produce the like thereof, even if they backed up each other with help and support.
Glory to my Lord! Am I aught but a man, a messenger?
If there were settled on earth angels walking about in peace and quiet, God would certainly sent them down from the heavens an angel for a messenger.
Enough is Allah for a witness between me and you, for God is Well-acquainted with God's servants, and God Sees.
I bear witness that there is no deity worthy of worship other than Allah, and I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah.
85. They ask you concerning the Spirit. Say, "The Spirit by command of my Lord. Of knowledge, it is only a little that is communicated to you."
86. If it were Our Will, We could take away that which We have sent to you by inspiration. Then would you find none to plead your affair in that matter as against Us.
87. Except for Mercy from your Lord, for God's Bounty is indeed to you great.
88. Say, "If the whole of humans and jinns were to gather together to produce the like of this Qur'an, they could not produce the like thereof, even if they backed up each other with help and support."
89. And We have explained to humans, in this Qur'an, every kind of similitude. Yet the greater part of humans refuse, except with ingratitude!
90. They say, "We shall not believe in you until you cause a spring to gush forth for us from the earth."
91. "Or you have a garden of date trees and vines, and cause rivers to gush forth in their midst, carrying abundant water."
92. "Or you cause the sky to fall in pieces, as you say, against us. Or you bring Allah and the angels here, face to face."
93. "Or you have a house adorned with gold, or you mount a ladder right into the skies. No, we shall not even believe in your mounting until you send down to us a book that we can read." Say, "Glory to my Lord! Am I aught but a man, a messenger?"
94. What kept humans back from belief when Guidance came to them was nothing but this: they said, "Has Allah sent a man to be messenger?"
95. Say, "If there were settled on earth angels walking about in peace and quiet, God would certainly sent them down from the heavens an angel for a messenger."
96. Say, "Enough is Allah for a witness between me and you, for God is Well-acquainted with God's servants, and God Sees."
The Night Journey 17:85-96
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The Spirit by command of my Lord. Of knowledge, it is only a little that is communicated to you.
If the whole of humans and jinns were to gather together to produce the like of this Qur'an, they could not produce the like thereof, even if they backed up each other with help and support.
Glory to my Lord! Am I aught but a man, a messenger?
If there were settled on earth angels walking about in peace and quiet, God would certainly sent them down from the heavens an angel for a messenger.
Enough is Allah for a witness between me and you, for God is Well-acquainted with God's servants, and God Sees.
I bear witness that there is no deity worthy of worship other than Allah, and I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah.
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