Letter to Julia 20120501

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

YOOOOOOLIIIIEEEE!!!!!

My, you ARE a beauty, Julia.  What a ravishing delight you are, my love, all the more longing I have to embrace and kiss you for hours.  Do you like my SL outfits?  I don't dress as sophisticated and high-class as you.  I like to shoot for a sort of edgy average look in my SL wardrobe, while maintaining a totally girly aura.  That, and I can't afford to spend money on virtual clothing.  It's impossible for me, or any girl for that matter, to wear mini skirts all the time in real life, but in SL I wear nothing but minis.  I love mini skirts.  It's my Sailor Moon influence, I suppose.  Well, sometimes I like to dress completely outrageous, and other times I like to goth out.  It depends on my mood, and which nightclub I have to go to.  Work, work, work.  No Muslim woman should ever dress the way I do in SL, but hey, it's not reality, so I must as well have fun with clothes.

I don't really say much of anything to anone in SL.  But be sure that there are people on the Internet and off who say things justs for the sake of saying it and throwing ridicule, and trying to mislead people from the Path of God.  When such people hear the Signs of God being rehearsed they turn away and pretend they didn't hear it.  For such people, Allah promises a very heavy penalty.

Letter to Julia 20120430

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

It is no wonder who in the world is listening.  To this music, and to the call to God.  For me, I only hope that they will be guided to Allah, and that Allah will reward me, for Allah is the Best to give reward.  But we can't change people who are stuck in their ways.  We can't force the blind to see, nor can we force the deaf to hear.  The only people who will listen are the ones who already believe in the Signs of God, and submit.  But that's OK, don't you agree?  We don't really care about people who don't really care, right?  So please patiently persevere, and don't let them shake your firmness, those who have no certainty of faith.

Anyway, it's mango season!  You want one, my love?  I love you!  Have a mango!  It's ripe, and sweet!  Just like you!  Alhamdulillah, things are growing like mad right now.  Mangos, bananas, cashews, chilli peppers, okra, pumpkin...  Now how about a budding musical tourist attraction?  InsyaAllah!

Letter to Julia 20120427

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

So please make sure you maintain your prayers, and that you maintain your purity and sincerity.  Men impure are for women impure, and women impure are for men impure, while pure men are for pure women, and pure women are for pure men.  This is not affected by what people say.  Life is a struggle, and there is so much corruption, and that is the reality.  So we must not lose our awareness of this reality by succumbing to corruption: we must maintain our purity.  The Promise of Allah is true: Allah will reward the righteous.  And my love and sincerity for you is also true, insyaAllah.  You are the girl I want to marry, and we will be together soon, insyaAllah.

Qur'an 20120427

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

41.  Mischief has appeared on land and sea because of that the hands of humans have earned.  That may give them a taste of some of their deeds, in order that they may turn back.

42.  Say, "Travel through the earth and see what was the end of those before, most of them worshipped others besides God."

The Romans 30:41-42
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Travel through the earth and see what was the end of those before, most of them worshiped others besides God.

Letter to Julia 20120426

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

I swear my house is being taken over by the cats lately.  First of all, my kitty is Chee Cheh.  She's an adorable little kitty who loves a good conversation, especially over breakfast and dinner.  I took her to the vet yesterday.  The poor thing seems to have a chronic fungal problem.  She's so sensitive to moisture, she gets an outbreak whenever it rains a lot, and it has been raining a lot lately, including yesterday.  She's blessed that cats in Malaysia get subsidized veterinary care from the Department of Animal Control, so I only had to pay for her medicine.  The vet showed me how to put a big pill in her mouth to swallow, by holding her neck with the pinkie and ring fingers, and holding her muzzle with the rest of the fingers on the left hand, then opening her mouth with the middle finger of the right hand while the right thumb and forefinger hold the pill.  Well, the vet made it look easy, but I couldn't get the cat to stop squirming.  She said I was being too rough.  Who?  Little ol' me?

As I told you once a while ago, my house used to be inhabited by a gang of cats.  They belong to my brother, and my parents feed them, so they usually hang out next door.  Lately, they've been congregating on my porch, and setting up guard at my front door.  4 cats.  Then there's this other cat with brown striping and a stubby tail that loves to yowl, "Oh oh oh oh oooohhhh" outside my window.  I think he belongs to a girl down the street who probably planted him here.  Then there's this white wildcat, an independent fellow who has lost the shine in his left eye, and he just loves to harass the gang of cats.  Well, somebody tagged my right sandal: when I went out to take Chee Cheh to the vet this morning, I stepped into a sandal drenched in cat pee.  Hey, I'm not being fought over as prime cat property!  I finally got rid of all those fighting chickens outside my bedroom window, now the cats are battling there.

Now, you have probably noticed how Islam today comprises of many different sects, just how Christianity today comprises of many different types of churches, and you are wondering who to trust thereof.  Prophet Muhammad (peace be on him) predicted this long ago.  We are instructed not to join any partners in worship to Allah, and this is taken very seriously by Allah.  If you read 30:31-32 of the Qur'an, those who split up their religion into sects are considered to have joined partners with Allah.  Leave the sects alone.  That is our mutual right, let them go about their business, ignore what they say to you, and Allah will deal with them directly.  Trust only in the Qur'an and the teachings of prophet Muhammad (peace be on him), and leave out the gossip and the opinions.

Letter to Julia 20120425

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

My dearest Julia, I want you to know that I love you dearly, and I am so very grateful for you, for your feelings, and to Allah for creating a woman as beautiful as you.  You are my sweet love, and I love you dearly, my Julia.  I know mere words are too little and not enough, but thank you for your love.

As for work, I suppose I have to fit SL into my budget somehow, but alas my poverty this time as other times has an effect on my community service.  Heh heh.  Now don't get me wrong, I do so enjoy my time on SL, even though I could sure use more shoes and dance animations.  But I'm afraid I'm going to have to reduce my time on SL by 80%.  That means only one nightclub per day.  No more club hopping?!!  Darn!  I just wanna dance!  I really need to be online most of the time, but I only have one computer and no home internet service.  Darn!  I just wanna dance!

A similitude to the Signs of God is: do you have servants who share in the wealth that Allah has endowed upon you?  Do you fear them as you fear each other?  The wrongdoers are the ones who follow their own lusts, being devoid of knowledge.  But who can guide those who Allah leaves astray?  So set yourself firmly towards the faith.

Letter to Julia 20120423

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello dearest Julia.  How are you feeling today?  It is HOT over here, and I've been burning, and burning trash.  Ancient trash, piles of wood pillars and coconuts probably 20 years old.  PeeeYOOO!!  Big house, little house.  The rotting insides of coconuts smells like vomit.  It's too hot.  The night is hot as well.  My hair is too long. I need a haircut.  Too bad this body doesn't look good with a Dutch bob anymore.  It used to.  Gag.  I suppose there's no way to have strength and a dainty body as well.  At least I get to be pretty in SL.

BUt I don't know how much time I get to spend playing SL right now.  I know it's community service and all, plus I get to be pretty, but I need to buy chicken, beef and gasoline, and save up for my power bill.  Life is on the edge anyway, so I might as well play SL.  I don't know.  Ya Allah, please let me have money do I can work properly and marry my Julia!

Dearest Julia, you are the girl I love.  You are so beautiful, and you are all I could ever pray for in a girl.  Please don't pay any attention to those who take the Signs of God in ridicule.  Evil in the long run is the end of those who do evil.  Please maintain your prayers in the morning, afternoon, late afternoon, sunset and evening.  InsyaAllah, we will be together in happiness, safety and comfort soon.

This song is so sad.  The bass player might seem annoying, but he'd just mixed too loud.

Letter to Julia 20120421

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful. Hi there my beautiful, gorgeous girl. How are you feeling, Julia? I am wishing you are with me, of course. I've been thinking "little house, big house" a lot. Oh, I know what you are thinking, so there is no need for you to bluff me. I love you! I really, really like this little house. **smiles**

The problem with the drug culture is money, money, MONEY: it is a business. It is a product with massive demand, and it is a business that permeates all business, though you may never see it on the boards at a stock exchange. Therefore the mask of the drug dealer has many layers: public relations, bankers, lawyers, accountants, politicians, etc etc. And it is global: just because your favorite junkie smokes his dope on a stump in a thicket by a rice field, doesn't mean that his stash wasn't grown in South America or Afghanistan. How did it get here? How did it get so accessible? It is an organized business. This means that it can only be controlled by government agencies. And it is a culture, a way of life, and therefore there is pressure from friends. Sigh. Money, money, MONEY.

So, if one could be clever enough not to get caught by the authorities, then there always a huge amount of money to be made in selling drugs. And even if one does get "caught", there is still the judicial process to manipulate, and it is not necessary for one to be directly involved with it: one could just send a scapegoat or a small fish to the gallows in one's place. This is an organized business, and business protocol is followed in all due seriousness so the consumer always has access to the product of their choice. Then there are the lawful drugs, and new drugs. Alcohol. Some people will do whatever it takes to get high, hence the massive demand. A friend of mine once said that "getting high is being close to death". Every soul shall have a taste of death, and doing drugs is one way of getting there. The feeling of power, the increased awareness, love, happiness and peace, the enhanced sights, sounds, and sensations, is all in search of for the perfect feeling, a glimpse of heaven, therefore a taste of death. But perfection is impossible in this life, so they have to rely on drugs to get a taste of that feeling, and they take more to get closer and closer, when it is death that they are getting closer to.

Yes, perfection is impossible in this life, so the best anyone can get is a taste of the perfect feeling, and you don't need drugs for that. Patience can balance out the rest of the time when there isn't natural ecstasy.

Letter to Julia 20120419

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia, my beloved rock and roll princess. You must be staying busy, and so am I. Be sure to eat properly and maintain your prayers. I have been so busy everyday. I spend my mornings in nightclubs (heh heh), then I rehearse for 2 hours, then I have to do yard work, and at night I have to watch Shadowplay TV (heh heh), plus I have to prepare my own meals. My legs hurt, but I have to stand and sing, I don't know why, but I am compelled to do so. Yes, I also have been working on "Woo Hoo", very SLOWLY. Hey, it's WORK!

I recently acquired a taste for fresh cashews. Not cashew nuts, but the yellowish white meat of cashews. My Mom isn't too pleased about this because I've been picking the fruit from her tree. But cashews, onions and salt seem to go with everything. I had them with my chicken and bean burritos last night. Yummy. I've been trying to grow new cashew trees, but have met with dismal failure. One of my 2 seedlings was killed by a chicken (which in turn got killed by another chicken), and the other was killed by someone going to a wedding.

It is not blood or money that reaches God: it is your piety that reaches God. And that is the Good News for the faithful.

Qur'an 20120419

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

49. No, here are Signs self-evident in the hearts of those endowed with knowledge, and none but the unjust reject Our Signs.

50. Yet they say, "Why are not Signs sent down to him from his Lord?" Say: "The Signs are indeed with Allah, and I am indeed a clear warner."

51. And is it not enough for them that We sent down to you the Book which is rehearsed to them? Verily, in it is Mercy and a Reminder to those who believe.

52. Say: "Enough is Allah for a Witness between me and you: God knows what is in the heavens and on earth, and it is those who believe in vanities and reject Allah, that will perish."

53. They ask you to hasten on the Punishment: had it not been for a term appointed, the Punishment would certainly have come to them, and it will certainly reach them- of a sudden, while they perceive not!

54. They ask you to hasten on the Punishment: but of a surety, hell will encompass the rejecters of Faith!

55. On the Day that the Punishment shall cover them from above them and from below them, and shall say: "Taste you of your deeds!"

56. O My servants who believe! Truly spacious is My Earth, therefore serve you Me!

57. Every soul shall have a taste of death: in the end to Us shall you be brought back.

58. But those who believe, and work deeds of righteousness- to them shall We give a Home in Heaven: lofty mansions which flow rivers, to dwell therein for aye- an excellent reward for those who do!

59. Those who persevere in patience, and put their trust in their Lord and Cherisher.

60. How many are the creatures that carry not their own sustenance? It is Allah who feeds them and you, for God hears and knows.

61. If indeed you ask them who has created the heavens and the earth, and subjected the sun and the moon, they will certainly reply, "Allah". How are they then deluded away?

62. Allah enlarges the sustenance to whichever of God's servants God pleases: and God grants by measure, for Allah has full knowledge of all things.

63. And if indeed you ask them who it is that sends down rain from the sky, and gives life therewith to the earth after its death, they will certainly reply, "Allah!" Say: "Praise be to Allah!" but most of them understand not.

The Spider 29:49-63
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The Signs are indeed with Allah, and I am indeed a clear warner.

Enough is Allah for a Witness between me and you: God knows what is in the heavens and on earth, and it is those who believe in vanities and reject Allah, that will perish.

Praise be to Allah!

Letter to Julia 20120418

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

How are you today, my dearest beauty? Oh my Julia, you are the most beautiful girl in the world to me, you are all I could ever dream of in a girl. I long to be with you, and I long for a long and happy life, and afterlife together. I pray you are taking good care of yourself, and that you are maintaining your prayers. I wasn't scolding you last time, my dearest. You know I love you, perhaps I was simply longing too much for you. It is simply that since where I am and what I am doing here is the cutting edge of music insyaAllah, then anything and everywhere else is not. That would make anything and everywhere else the trend followers instead of the trend setters. Sure, I need money to marry you, because I want to give you the best life and love. But meanwhile, you will miss the most of the expansion of this phenomenon, and most importantly the point of expansion.

But Allah is the Master Creator, so all the credit goes to God. The music comes from God, and will return to God. It's nothing really new either, just like everything else out there is some sort of recycled hash. Here, it's just a bunch of ghosts and weather distortion. Just like the destruction of cities and communities is nothing new. And much of the shit that I recorded and composed in the past is just shit, which by they way, does NOT have my consent to be released posthumously (I mean ALL of it, people). It's like watching TV, and you would switch to a channel at some random moment that has a show that resonates with what is happening to your life at the moment, and the show is 20 years old. Perhaps what is fascinating is what people perceive as random. Louise Brooks once preached that, "Everything happens by chance, and it is the people who think they have everything under control that get into the most trouble." She was right about control, but I don't think that chance exists. Putting aside theology for a moment, may Allah forgive me, I don't believe that "random" exists. This comes from working with computers all my life. What is "random" is actually a program, or a mathematical equation. After all, the machine needs to be told what to do, so what is "random" has to be programmed. In real life, an occurence that is "random" is the end of a sequence of events which could have originated from a point far away or at the same place at some different time which carries some sort of emotional meaning to the observer. If there is no observer, or if the observer doesn't care, then the event is meaningless. Increase of entropy becomes negligible with the vast expansion of space to the point where only space is able to be observed and not its entropy. Then consider the doors to more space where entropy can be sucked away, like black holes. And the Big Bang could be a white hole, or the explosion of a black hole, for what black hole can hold infinite mass? The white hole being an event among many similar events which create order out of chaos. So the universe is actually a multiverse, with various loops of sequence of events, for anyone who cares enough to notice. And chaos itself eventually reverts to order. The broken cup pieces itself together again and jumps back onto the table in the next life. But humans want to think of a universe with a beginning and end because humans are born and die. Allah is Eternal.

So we go back to theology, of course there is absolutely a Judgement Day. Humans die, and that is a Judgement Day. The extinction of the human race is a Judgement Day. The observer of theology is the human being. Of course humans will be raised again to life after death. Just as they were born in the first place, or wouldn't have been born if the sperm had swum elsewhere. Flesh and bones are put together in a sequence of events, and taken apart in another sequence of events. And the emotional meanings, and the actions thereof, of the humans is what is judged on THE Judgement Day.

I love you, Julia.

Qur'an 20120418

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

45. Recite what is sent of the Book by inspiration to you, and establish regular prayer, for prayer restrains from shameful and unjust deeds. And rememberance of Allah is the greatest, without doubt. And Allah knows what you do.

46. And dispute you not with the people of the Book except with means better, unless it be with those of them who inflict wrong. But say, "We believe in the Revelation which has come down to us and in that which came down to you: our God and your God is One, and it is to God we bow".

47. And thus, that We have sent down the Book to you. So the people of the Book believe therein, as also do some of these, and none but unbelievers reject Our Signs.

The Spider 29:45-47
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We believe in the Revelation which has come down to us and in that which came down to you: our God and your God is One, and it is to God we bow.

Letter to Julia 20120416

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Aaaaargh... Sundays are always busy days for me. I've been slammed since I woke up this morning, I need to wake up later, but that doesn't work either. Oh I'm so lazy, Julia. I just wanna snuggle up with you. The lot next to my house belonged to my grandfather, and it's twice as big as my yard. It was overgrown with trees, scrub and thick thorny brambles, with snakes and huge monitor lizards, but I managed to clear out most of them. The monitor lizards still come around occasionally, but I just found an old catapult on the ground. How convenient, but I would rather have an AK-47: those lizards can run pretty damn fast. I'm still working on chopping down useless trees, and burning trash, and digging up stumps, and whacking weeds, plus everything regrows at lightning speed out here in the tropics, so it needs to be maintained. But my Mom is in such a hurry to cultivate that land for some reason, so she also has me plant and maintain some crops. Of course I don't eat any of that stuff except maybe the okra and the peppers, but they are all still babies at this point. I transplanted a few banana trees for my Mom. Did you know that banana trees are kind of like giant celery bunches? Well, that's what it seems like to me. The babies grow right at the roots, so I chop off a portion of the root where the baby plant grows, just as you would chop off a segment of a potato where the eye grows. More daunting is the task of emptying out all the trash in the ruins of my grandfather's house. It's a big house, with about 7 or 8 bedrooms. It's most likely crawling full of jinns.

Everything of that house has to be demolished anyway, for some of the rooms are just ramshackle spaces made of reused wooden planks built by my grandfather for some odd reason, probably due to excessive jinn activity. God knows. Chee Cheah seems to think it's clean, because she hangs out there nearly all the time. Besides, I much prefer this little house I'm in now. But nowadays, there is something much more different going on here than when I was a small child. You may think that it's not your fault that you lag behind, as I may think that the front line is no place for someone as beautiful as you. Rather, it is preordained that you lag behind, due to the circumstances and the type of people I have to deal with in regards to this mission of mine to please Allah with music. The consequences are that decisions will be made for you, and the restrictions thereof. But do know that I love you and am faithful to you, InsyaAllah.

Qur'an 20120414

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

18. And if you reject, so did generations before you. And the duty of the messenger is only to preach publicly.

19. See they not how Allah originates creation, then repeats it: truly that is easy for Allah.

20. Say, "Travel through the earth and see how Allah did originate creation, so will Allah produce a later creation, for Allah has power over all things."

The Spider 29:18-20
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Travel through the earth and see how Allah did originate creation, so will Allah produce a later creation, for Allah has power over all things.

Letter to Julia 20120414

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

It's always difficult to make chicken soup without bouillon, or chicken stock, and I didn't have any bouillon last night. You might think that salt would do the trick, but it's not that simple: the soup is either tasteless or salty, and not like chicken soup. Well, I didn't have a any bouillon for my chicken rice gruel, but I did have chicken. I always buy my white meat from chickens cut in half, and you need the bones for chicken soup, for it is bone marrow that gives soup its thickness. So I cut the chicken lengthwise parallel to the neck, and separate the rest to be used as white meat for sandwiches, or whatever. I marinated 2 portions of neck & ribs in salt and dry hot peppers, y'know the kind you put on pizza, then fried them up in a pot. Meanwhile, I had a cup of rice cooking in the rice pot with 4x extra water. My Mom has some chives growing in her yard, and I have some lemongrass in my yard, so I added them to the frying chicken with garlic and onions. When everything browned, I added the hot rice and water from the rice cooker. I then slow cooked the mix, separated the meat from the bones, and added salt until there was slight flavor, making sure to scrape the bottom when mixing. When it turned into gruel, it was ready to eat. With each bowl a soup, you add a thin layer of light soy sauce, and hot sauce. Don't stir it! Just scoop it up and eat it.

The oppression of humans is not the Wrath of God. We are instructed to fight oppression. Though fighting may seem overwhelming, is that not better than being overwhelmed by evil? Perhaps Allah will grant us a swift and easy victory. Certainly Allah knows who the hypocrites are. And don't follow unbelievers who say that they will help bear your burdens. How can they bear the problems of others with their selfish skepticism and lack of faith? That's illogical, and by their standards.

Letter to Julia 20120412

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Yeah, it's chili time again at Casa de Julia! This time, the batch of chili was made with a cheap kind of chilli sauce (instead of tomato paste) that her cook bought in bulk, because it was cheap. Thus her cook couldn't eat too much of the chili, even though it tasted good, because it gave the cook gastritis, or acid reflux. But the chili worked excellently when matched with other items! So on the menu tonight is chicken and beans tacos, made with fried chicken, chili, blackened onions, and home made soft flour tortillas with BIG air bubbles in them. Oh, what a soft and savory dinner!

Allah will test the faith of everyone. We can't just say, "We believe," and not expect our faith to be tested. This is something I can't save you from, nobody can save you from Allah except Allah. This is your personal relationship with God, where your own personal convictions and decisions will be put to the test, for God and the the world to see your true colors. Do the evil ones think they will not be called to account? In the end, Allah will save the righteous, and destroy the wrongdoers.

Letter to Julia 20120411

n the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

And I definitely don't want to tour. Hey, I've become old: I spent most of my life abroad, and now that I'm old, and am not renting anymore, I refuse to travel unless absolutely necessary. No, traveling for the sake of some corporate protocol and community is NOT necessary. Hey, I have to protect the knowledge given to me by Allah, and I don't want what I have learned to be warped by the materialistic opinions of some committee! What the hell?

No, the real reason I don't want to tour is that my parents are old, and I've become too old, and too lazy, to tour. I DON'T want to go to South America, or anywhere else, even though I've never been there. I just want to snuggle up with my sweetie in our beloved home, raise a family, and try to be happy for a change. InsyaAllah. They can come over here to exotic Perlis, and listen to my singing.

With Allah as my witness, they are already coming in trickles to observe how I serve Allah with music. The nature of water is truly complex: we all have seen how a trickle can turn into a stream into a river into a waterfall, by the Will of Allah. What I'm most concerned is with this flood of people, InsyaAllah, there will be those who sincerely seek guidance. So come and join us in Islam, oh sincere ones, so we may return to God as one faith. The imams and teachers here had better brush up on their English and foreign languages.

You, my beloved Julia, please come to my arms, join me in Islam, and embrace my love in marriage. I want to marry YOU my love, please come to me. And don't ever be of any help to the rejectors of faith.

Qur'an 20120411

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

84. If any do good, the reward to him is better than his deed, but if any do evil, the doers of evil are only punished of their deeds.

85. Verily God Who ordained the Qur'an for you, will bring you back to the Place of Return. Say, "My Lord knows best who it is that brings true guidance, and who is in manifest error."

86. And you did not expect that the Book would be sent to you except as a Mercy from your Lord. Therefore, lend not your support in any way to those who reject.

The Narrations 28:84-86
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My Lord knows best who it is that brings true guidance, and who is in manifest error.

Letter to Julia 20120409

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Wow. Time is moving so quickly. Today went by in a blink of the eye. On Sunday mornings I clean my parents' house, then I had to cook my lunch, which was chicken, chicken liver and onions on rice, then I had to rehearse for 2 hours as is my responsibility to nurture the voices of some dead women that Allah entrusted to me, then I had to cut the grass, then cook my dinner which was teriyaki beef on rice, then do my laundry as I write to my sweetie. Hi Sweetie!

I certainly hope I don't have to do any modeling in the future. I would rather you do all the modeling in the family. If I had a choice, I would wear only a sarong all the time, but I sunburn easily. I don't want to be photographed in this ape-like body. Ecch. This body is good for killing or breaking things, not for being photographed. My avatar would make a much better model. She's a bit on the petite side, but she photographs well. No, I don't want my own line of clothing.

Qur'an 29072009

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

71. Say, "Do you see? If Allah were to make the night perpetual over you to the Day of Judgement, what god is there other than Allah, who can give you enlightenment? Will you not then hearken?"

72. Say, "Do you see? If Allah were to make the day perpetual over you to the Day of Judgement, what god is there other than Allah, who can give you a night in which you can rest? Will you not then see?"

73. It is out of God's Mercy that God had made for you night and day, that you may rest therein, and that you may seek of God's Grace, and in order that you may be grateful.

The Narrations 28:71-73
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Do you see? If Allah were to make the night perpetual over you to the Day of Judgement, what god is there other than Allah, who can give you enlightenment? Will you not then hearken?

Do you see? If Allah were to make the day perpetual over you to the Day of Judgement, what god is there other than Allah, who can give you a night in which you can rest? Will you not then see?

Letter to Julia 20120407

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Loneliness. I received the argument the other day that people seek fame because they are lonely. But everyone gets lonely. You can ask anyone that, and they know it to be true. Some heal their loneliness with temporary relationships or flings, some consider that having sex heals loneliness, others get married. Some people get lonely when they are away from their spouse, but since a perfect marriage is impossible in this life, then it is the long-lasting marriage that is truly blessed by God. Like having a long life. But we all still get lonely, regardless. Sometimes sometimes, other times all the time. No, fame doesn't cure loneliness. On the contrary, fame amplifies loneliness.

We can never guide all who we love. God is the Only One who can guide them, protect them, or save them. If that is not God's Will, then there is nothing anyone else can do. People seek fame because they seek to be like God. Just like some people who have wealth and power think they are God. The quest for power, and all that nonsense. Always have been, always will be. Until Judgement Day.

Meanwhile, I feel lonely without you, Julia. I've always wanted to be married, but it never happened. Probably because I am meant to marry you. I can't seem to get a "quick fix" like other people. So I wait, until Allah allows us to be happily married, in this life as well as the hereafter.

I love you.

Letter to Julia 20120405

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hey, did you know that Indiana Jones' dad is James Bond? Both Sean Connery and Roger Moore made 7 Bond movies each, but Roger Moore got the raw end of the deal because Ian Fleming ran out of material after "For Your Eyes Only". I think. But I don't think that either is a better Bond than the other, it's just that one had better access to the best writer. Oh, I do so hope the next Bond movie will be a great one. They certainly should know the right ingredients to make it a great flick. There have been so many awful movies lately. It's so sad about the complete lack of creativity in the movie, and TV business nowadays. It's so sad to see people burn their lives out quickly in front of the camera for reality shows, for the sake of entertainment and fame, and because of the lack of creative writing and direction puts them through that grinder. But then again, none can create like Allah.

As you know, I have to hang out on the Internet, specifically SL, as much as possible because I'm too damn reclusive to be a rockstar. Rockstars are supposed to hang out at nightclubs, so instead I hang out at virtual nightclubs. SL is so very handy to me because I don't have to be face to face with any real people, and I don't really have to say much of anything to anyone. I assure you I'm a good girl, insyaAllah. Yesterday, I did get tricked into clicking the wrong dance ball, but I won't do that again. InsyaAllah. I'm just there to wear pretty clothes and dance.

Qur'an 20120405

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

48. But when the Truth comes to them from Ourselves, they say, "Why are not sent to him like those which were sent to Moses?" Didn't they reject which were formerly sent to Moses? They say, "Two kinds of sorcery, each assisting the other!" And they say, "For us, we reject it all!"

49. Say, "Then bring you a Book from Allah which is a better Guide than either of them, that I may follow it, if you are truthful!"

50. But if they hearken not to you, know that they only follow their own lusts. And who is more astray than one who follows his own lusts, devoid of guidance from Allah? For Allah guides not people given to wrongdoing.

The Narrations 28:48-50
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Then bring you a Book from Allah which is a better Guide than either of them, that I may follow it, if you are truthful!

Letter to Julia 20120404

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi there, beloved Julia. How are you feeling? I pray you are not overworking, and are eating properly and maintaining your prayers. I'm trying not to overwork, but I do seem to have a lot on my plate right now... I don't quite understand how I got so busy. Maybe it's just me: I need to be lazier, I suppose.

Ah, it's the right time for you to watch a James Bond movie! I'm sure you have seen all the Pierce Brosnan and Daniel Craig movies, being the young 'un that you are. But the best Bond movies are the ones that Ian Fleming wrote. No, I haven't seen all the Bond movies because I don't really like the George Lazenby and Timothy Dalton Bonds. Sure, we all love the high tech toys, but it's the intrigue that makes the best Bond movie. Also, the bad guy has to be someone you would love to hate, but the 2 007 movies I want you to watch right now, even though the villains aren't the worst, are "From Russia With Love" and "The Man With The Golden Gun".

Letter to Julia 20120402

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Yeeeeaaaarrrrggghh!!! I suddenly have too much to do, with not enough time to do it. Talk about time distortion! Today I've been on the go ever since I woke up. Today is Sunday, so I had to clean my Mommy's house. I now have 3x the yard work to do: my own yard, and my grandfather's house next door, which is twice as large as my yard. And I totally have to clear out all the trash and landscape it, so that it looks pretty. I also increased my rehearsal time to 2 hours, for the purpose of stamina training. Have to spend the time to get the skill, y'know. And right now, I'm writing a love letter to my sweetie Julia, while doing the laundry. How are you, Precious? Are eating properly and maintaining your prayers? I love you!