Letter to Julia 20111128

Of course, when the time comes when Allah allows me the means to travel to you and get you, I would have prepared a home and a means of living for you, insyaAllah. A life of marriage that I have been talking about all this while to you, happiness in this life as well as the Hereafter, insyaAllah. Be aware that there are greater issues at stake, considering that your suitor is a one with a spiritual agenda, to please Allah with music. It is a larger existence than you have ever experienced before, a space larger than the glitz of a ballroom with crystal chandeliers and gold adornments. A pressure greater than the deepest chasm in the ocean, an awareness of life far beyond the sensation of motion perceived by your eyes and fuzzy blond hairs on your forearm. Much more important than the amount of cash and material possessions I am able to accumulate in order to give you a comfortable existence. It is something you need to figure out for yourself, if Allah wills. I can't slap a collar around your neck and pull you upstairs. If Allah refuses to guide you, then you will not be helped. I can't save anybody, no matter how much I love them, not my parents, not you. Allah is the One who saves people, not me.

Qur'an 20111128

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

85. They ask you concerning the Spirit. Say, "The Spirit by command of my Lord. Of knowledge, it is only a little that is communicated to you."

86. If it were Our Will, We could take away that which We have sent to you by inspiration. Then would you find none to plead your affair in that matter as against Us.

87. Except for Mercy from your Lord, for God's Bounty is indeed to you great.

88. Say, "If the whole of humans and jinns were to gather together to produce the like of this Qur'an, they could not produce the like thereof, even if they backed up each other with help and support."

89. And We have explained to humans, in this Qur'an, every kind of similitude. Yet the greater part of humans refuse, except with ingratitude!

90. They say, "We shall not believe in you until you cause a spring to gush forth for us from the earth."

91. "Or you have a garden of date trees and vines, and cause rivers to gush forth in their midst, carrying abundant water."

92. "Or you cause the sky to fall in pieces, as you say, against us. Or you bring Allah and the angels here, face to face."

93. "Or you have a house adorned with gold, or you mount a ladder right into the skies. No, we shall not even believe in your mounting until you send down to us a book that we can read." Say, "Glory to my Lord! Am I aught but a man, a messenger?"

94. What kept humans back from belief when Guidance came to them was nothing but this: they said, "Has Allah sent a man to be messenger?"

95. Say, "If there were settled on earth angels walking about in peace and quiet, God would certainly sent them down from the heavens an angel for a messenger."

96. Say, "Enough is Allah for a witness between me and you, for God is Well-acquainted with God's servants, and God Sees."

The Night Journey 17:85-96
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The Spirit by command of my Lord. Of knowledge, it is only a little that is communicated to you.

If the whole of humans and jinns were to gather together to produce the like of this Qur'an, they could not produce the like thereof, even if they backed up each other with help and support.

Glory to my Lord! Am I aught but a man, a messenger?

If there were settled on earth angels walking about in peace and quiet, God would certainly sent them down from the heavens an angel for a messenger.

Enough is Allah for a witness between me and you, for God is Well-acquainted with God's servants, and God Sees.

I bear witness that there is no deity worthy of worship other than Allah, and I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah.

Letter to Julia 20111126

High, my butterfly! Ah, my Julia. You are so pretty, and beautiful. You are all I could dream of in a girl. How I long for us to be together all the time and spend the rest of our life and afterlife together. Yeah, I think of you all the time, my precious. But I don't go looking for you, or for news for you. You know that. Who knows what bad news, or lies, I might find about you. It's better that I don't know, and nurture this pure, uncorrupted love that I keep in my fantasies and heart, until the day when Allah allows me the means to travel to you and get my answer face to face, or not at all, which means no, of course. For when that time comes, I will be prepared, insyaAllah.

Everyone has a second voice in their heads, a whispering that promises great rewards and glory, for acts of evil. Some may be confused as to whose voice it is. Since it is in my head, surely it must be there for a reason? Surely it must be my own voice, telling me what to do? Surely it must be my thinking? As I told you before, Satan swore long ago to destroy all humans. He and his minions represent themselves by that whispering in your thoughts that prod you to commit acts of evil, of arrogance, to convince you that the One and Only God is inferior to other beliefs, and that those thoughts are yours, when the thoughts only becomes yours after you succumb to them. So what thoughts are actually yours? The thoughts that compel you to think of goodness, of acts of goodness, of faithfulness, of humility. For God is all that is good, and God protects those who turn to God from the coaxing of evil. Don't let anyone ever convince you that God tells you to do acts of evil, God is only all that is good. The polarity is distinct, is black and white, there is no gray area. For when your thoughts and acts of good are even slightly corrupted, then you have succumbed to the whisperings of evil. And corruption is the majority, is the norm, is the conformity. Very, very few people are pure.

Qur'an 20111126

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

80. Say, "O my Lord! Let my entry be by the Gate of Truth and Honor, and likewise my exit by the Gate of Truth and Honor, and grant me from Your Presence an authority to aid."

81. And say, "Truth has arrived and falsehood perished, for falsehood is bound to perish."

82. We send down in the Qur'an that which is a healing and a mercy to those who believe. To the unjust it causes nothing but loss after loss.

83. Yet when We bestow Our favors on man, he turns away and becomes remote on his side, and when evil seizes him, he gives himself up to despair!

84. Say, "Everyone acts according to his own disposition, but your Lord knows best who it is that is best guided on the Way."

The Night Journey 17:80-84
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O my Lord! Let my entry be by the Gate of Truth and Honor, and likewise my exit by the Gate of Truth and Honor, and grant me from Your Presence an authority to aid.

Truth has arrived and falsehood perished, for falsehood is bound to perish.

Everyone acts according to his own disposition, but your Lord knows best who it is that is best guided on the Way.

Letter to Julia 20111124

YOOOOOOLIIIIIEEEEE!!!!

Oh dearest Julia my beloved beauty, I've suddenly got the sniffles. **sniffle** It also seems like I might have to take Chee Cheah in for another antifungal shot. Seems like she's gained some weight, as well. She was once a dainty litlle kitty, I must have spoiled her too much. It's been raining almost non stop for the past 3 days, but there was anough of a break for me to write yesterday's letter. And today's letter, obviously.

Perhaps you wonder why skeptics remain skeptics despite all the Signs of God that are obvious to people of faith. All populations will be destroyed before Judgement Day, that is certain. God only sends Signs by way of fear, but it only increases their transgression. Then God refrains from sending Signs because they were treated as false. The only thing left is for the people to get wiped out by God. You've seen the ruins of cities, haven't you?

Letter to Julia 20111123

Since I am alone and unmarried right now, it is rather easy to stick to a budget, even though my income is far beyond pathetic. Knowing how to cook for myself really helps, and Chee Cheah is my only dependent, and she doesn't have professional, entertainment, apparel, transportation and education expenses. In fact, she eats like a King Cat since I can't afford to buy her packaged cat food. Today she ate nothing but fried fish heads. Fish heads galore! She's also quite healthy for a kitty: I've only had to take her in for antifungal shots, and the last one was 3 months ago, Besides the sinus congestions I sometimes get, Allah has blessed us both with good health, alhamdulillah.

Even if I had money, I believe I have learned not to spend just for the sake of spending, insyaAllah. I know I'm not pretty, so I wouldn't spend much of anything on vanity. Perhaps some new clothes and boots, when my cargo pants and jungle boots get too worn out from gardening. I really like those cop boots, you know the type those motorcycle cops wear. I wonder how they'll work for gardening? I also prefer a small house. Right now I sleep on the floor, and I don't receive guests because I have no friends, so I don't have any furniture other than kitchen cabinets, closets and the occasional chair and table. My profession is entertainment, so those 2 expenses are one, but it would be substantially larger than an average person's expense because of the need for research. My having no vanity means that I won't need flashy cars. I would use the motorcycle most of the time anyway, and if I feel the urge to drive fast then I just play GTA. I'm sick of traveling, so I would have limited travel expenses. I would certainly spend more on ingredients, because I enjoy cooking at leisure, and I like my own cooking. I might even order live cattle from USA or Japan to be slaughtered here, plus build a walk-in cooler for my cheese collection and the occasional salmon. Is that extravagant? I don't know. I would definitely donate some of that meat to the poor, I would prefer to eat the cheese than to show it off, and the local seafood is superior in quality to the rest of the world as it is, as long as the environment remains clean. Between all that, I have to give in charity and worship to Allah. Every other expense is all about you, so I pray you have a disciplined budget. We Muslims must not be spendthrifts and wasteful, so I would appreciate you to be respectful in that as well.

Anyway, when you speak, please speak for the best. You are a role model, for people you may not see or hear, and some of them are very small. And you are my girl, and I love you. Please be patient, maintain your prayers.

Qur'an 20111123

I seek refuge with Allah from Satan, the rejected.
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

41. We have explained variously in this Qur'an, in order that they may receive admonition, but it only increases their flight.

42. Say, "If there had been gods with God as they say, behold! They would certainly have sought out a way to the Lord of the Throne!"

43. Glory to God! God is high above all that they say, Exalted and Great!

44. The seven heavens and the earth, and all beings therein,, declare God's glory. There is not a thing but celebrates God's praise, and yet you understand not how they declare God's glory! Verily God is Oft-Forbearing, most Forgiving.

45. When you do recite the Qur'an, We put between you and those who believe not in the Hereafter, a veil invisible.

46. And We put coverings over their hearts lest they should understand the Qur'an, and deafness into their ears. When you do commemorate your Lord and God alone in the Qur'an, they turn on their backs, fleeing!

47. We know best why it is they listen when they listen to you, and when they meet in private conference, behold! The wicked say, "You follow none other than a man bewitched!"

48. See what similes they strike for you, but they have gone astray, and never can they find a way.

49. They say, "What? When we are reduced to bones and dust, should we really be raised up, a new creation?"

50. Say, "Be you stones, or iron!"

51. Or created matter which, in your minds, is hardest. Then will they say, "Who will cause us to return?" Say, "God, who created you first!" Then will they wag their heads towards you and say, "When will that be?" Say, "Maybe it will be quite soon!"

52. It will be on a day when God will call you, and you will answer with God's praise, and you will think you tarried but a little while!

53. Say to Our servants that they should say those things that are best, for Satan does sow dissensions among them, for Satan is to humans an avowed enemy.

54. It is your Lord that knows you best. If God please, God grants you mercy, or if God please, punishment. We have not sent you to be a disposer of their affairs for them.

55. And it is your Lord that knows best all beings that are in the heavens and on earth. We did bestow on some prophets more gifts than on others, and We gave to David the Psalms.

56. Say, "Call on those, besides God, whom you fancy. They have neither the power to remove your troubles from you, nor to change them."

The Night Journey 17:41-56
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If there had been gods with God as they say, behold! They would certainly have sought out a way to the Lord of the Throne!

Be you stones, or iron!

God, who created you first!

Maybe it will be quite soon!

Call on those, besides God, whom you fancy. They have neither the power to remove your troubles from you, nor to change them.