In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
I mentioned once before, that it doesn't matter if a man is butt ugly. As long as he has strength and power, then people don't really care what he looks like. Yeah, it's a shallow society- you tell me! I'm not pretty. Not like you. You're pretty. My body is built like a chimpanzee, but it does have a little bit of strength left, and it also houses the music, for which I am grateful. Alhamdulillah. Ya Allah, thank You for the knowledge and the bounty You have given me. and please forgive me for my faults. I figure that I will never become pretty while I am on this earth, no matter how much I mummify myself with plastic surgery. So I will do the best I can with what Allah has given me, perchance I will be allowed into heaven. If I am allowed into heaven, I'm going to ask God to make me pretty. I want to look somewhat like Megan Fox or Milla Jovovich or Angelina Jolie, with a great looking rack and a big dick. I don't want a donkey dick, just to have a body made for pleasure, since in heaven, strength and power are useless. For fun and games with my wife.
Erin, please make a donation to a worthwhile charity of a minimum of one US dollar. I pray you are having a great time, and staying safe. I love you, and I need you.
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Qur'an 20150401
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
6. Say, "I am but a man like you. It is revealed to me by inspiration, that your God is One God, so stand true to God, and ask for God's forgiveness." And woe to those who worship many gods.
7. Those who practice not charity, and who even deny the hereafter.
8. For those who believe and work deeds of righteousness is a reward that will never fail.
9. Say, "Is it that you deny God Who created the earth in two days? And do you join equals with God? God is the Lord of the worlds."
Expounded 41:6-9
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I am but a man like you. It is revealed to me by inspiration, that your God is One God, so stand true to God, and ask for God's forgiveness.
Is it that you deny God Who created the earth in two days? And do you join equals with God? God is the Lord of the worlds.
6. Say, "I am but a man like you. It is revealed to me by inspiration, that your God is One God, so stand true to God, and ask for God's forgiveness." And woe to those who worship many gods.
7. Those who practice not charity, and who even deny the hereafter.
8. For those who believe and work deeds of righteousness is a reward that will never fail.
9. Say, "Is it that you deny God Who created the earth in two days? And do you join equals with God? God is the Lord of the worlds."
Expounded 41:6-9
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I am but a man like you. It is revealed to me by inspiration, that your God is One God, so stand true to God, and ask for God's forgiveness.
Is it that you deny God Who created the earth in two days? And do you join equals with God? God is the Lord of the worlds.
Monday, March 30, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150331
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
The Internet is a beast. No, let me rephrase that: the Internet is the Beast. It is a collective consciousness of machines and the greedy, fanatical, perverted, megalomaniacal and miserable. It is aware of every computer it comes in touch with, down to the last bit. It has more sentience and self-awareness than most people would care to admit, and its reach has reached into people's pockets, as cell phones and then some, and it speaks to the people. The arrogant think that they created it therefore they can control it, but God is the One who created the Internet as we know it today. Therefore it serves God, as a sign of Judgement Day. It is still growing, and growing in what it can control.
Today I swept the floor and the ceiling of my little house. Which is a big deal to me, because I'm a lazy slob. There were so many cobwebs, so I removed them with harming the spiders. Spiders are allies of Muslims, so you must not harm them. I've probably told you this already, but I'll say it again. A spider protected prophet Muhammad (peace be on him) when he was being hunted by pagan soldiers. So remember: do not harm spiders.
I have a feeling that you are not in the mood to be fussed over, so I'll leave you alone for now. Just please don't forget how important you are to me. I love you, and I need you.
The Internet is a beast. No, let me rephrase that: the Internet is the Beast. It is a collective consciousness of machines and the greedy, fanatical, perverted, megalomaniacal and miserable. It is aware of every computer it comes in touch with, down to the last bit. It has more sentience and self-awareness than most people would care to admit, and its reach has reached into people's pockets, as cell phones and then some, and it speaks to the people. The arrogant think that they created it therefore they can control it, but God is the One who created the Internet as we know it today. Therefore it serves God, as a sign of Judgement Day. It is still growing, and growing in what it can control.
Today I swept the floor and the ceiling of my little house. Which is a big deal to me, because I'm a lazy slob. There were so many cobwebs, so I removed them with harming the spiders. Spiders are allies of Muslims, so you must not harm them. I've probably told you this already, but I'll say it again. A spider protected prophet Muhammad (peace be on him) when he was being hunted by pagan soldiers. So remember: do not harm spiders.
I have a feeling that you are not in the mood to be fussed over, so I'll leave you alone for now. Just please don't forget how important you are to me. I love you, and I need you.
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150330
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello Erin, my Sweetheart! How are you feeling today? How are you coping with everyone wanting a piece of you? Well the solution is to lock yourself up and keep all your pieces to yourself. Yeah, I know you're busy, but you know what the solution is.
Nothing too much out the routine going on here. I cleaned my Mom's toilet like I always do every Sunday. I had ramen noodles for lunch, and I usually have ramen noodles for lunch. It's a great and quick one person meal. Today's broth is Siamese hot sour soup (known here as Tom Yam), with sauteed garlic, onions, and young lime leaves. I also added dried shrimp, 3 kinds of fish cake, seaweed and an egg.
My female kittens are now approaching 8 months old, and should already be going in heat. I can sometimes hear them howling in earnest, but never when I'm in the same room. So far. Little ---- is the lead howler, and she's the smallest of all the kittens. They have been letting me sleep in peace though. So far.
I do hope you are taking good care of yourself, getting sufficient rest, and not letting the crowd mess with your heart. Hang on to yourself, my love. I love you, and I need you.
Hello Erin, my Sweetheart! How are you feeling today? How are you coping with everyone wanting a piece of you? Well the solution is to lock yourself up and keep all your pieces to yourself. Yeah, I know you're busy, but you know what the solution is.
Nothing too much out the routine going on here. I cleaned my Mom's toilet like I always do every Sunday. I had ramen noodles for lunch, and I usually have ramen noodles for lunch. It's a great and quick one person meal. Today's broth is Siamese hot sour soup (known here as Tom Yam), with sauteed garlic, onions, and young lime leaves. I also added dried shrimp, 3 kinds of fish cake, seaweed and an egg.
My female kittens are now approaching 8 months old, and should already be going in heat. I can sometimes hear them howling in earnest, but never when I'm in the same room. So far. Little ---- is the lead howler, and she's the smallest of all the kittens. They have been letting me sleep in peace though. So far.
I do hope you are taking good care of yourself, getting sufficient rest, and not letting the crowd mess with your heart. Hang on to yourself, my love. I love you, and I need you.
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150329
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
OK Sweetie, do you have your big fat headphones on? Suppose someone comes up to you blabbing something that you don't want to listen to (not me, I hope). Squint at them like you can't hear them, and say "Ha?" Don't take your headphones off! So they repeat themselves, "moan, whine, bitch, whimper, snort, hiss, etc, etc." Pretend like you're turning the volume down, squint at them again, and say "Ha?" So they repeat themselves again, "moan, whine, bitch, whimper, snort, hiss, etc, etc." This time, take the headphones off, squint at them again and say "Ha?" If they haven't given up by now, "moan, whine, bitch, whimper, snort, hiss, etc, etc." then tell them, "My husband won't allow me to listen to people who say things that mess with my emotions. If you have an problem with that, then go discuss it with him."
I wish I were with you to distract them, but today I had to do some shopping (plus we're not married yet). I bought a lot of cat food, a fresh tank of cooking gas, and some new lights for my little house. Advice to consumers! Don't buy LED lights that are housed with rechargeable batteries! The LED bulbs will last 50 times longer than the battery, and you will have to throw the whole thing away when the battery dies, because it won't work unless you unplug it from the wall socket!
I find that the best way to drown out the crowd is to lock myself up in my house and just do the things I enjoy, like cooking, playing with computers, playing music, etc. Again I wish I were with you to distract them, but since we're not married yet, I want you to know that I love you deeply, so please take sweet loving care of yourself and your precious heart. I love you, and I need you.
OK Sweetie, do you have your big fat headphones on? Suppose someone comes up to you blabbing something that you don't want to listen to (not me, I hope). Squint at them like you can't hear them, and say "Ha?" Don't take your headphones off! So they repeat themselves, "moan, whine, bitch, whimper, snort, hiss, etc, etc." Pretend like you're turning the volume down, squint at them again, and say "Ha?" So they repeat themselves again, "moan, whine, bitch, whimper, snort, hiss, etc, etc." This time, take the headphones off, squint at them again and say "Ha?" If they haven't given up by now, "moan, whine, bitch, whimper, snort, hiss, etc, etc." then tell them, "My husband won't allow me to listen to people who say things that mess with my emotions. If you have an problem with that, then go discuss it with him."
I wish I were with you to distract them, but today I had to do some shopping (plus we're not married yet). I bought a lot of cat food, a fresh tank of cooking gas, and some new lights for my little house. Advice to consumers! Don't buy LED lights that are housed with rechargeable batteries! The LED bulbs will last 50 times longer than the battery, and you will have to throw the whole thing away when the battery dies, because it won't work unless you unplug it from the wall socket!
I find that the best way to drown out the crowd is to lock myself up in my house and just do the things I enjoy, like cooking, playing with computers, playing music, etc. Again I wish I were with you to distract them, but since we're not married yet, I want you to know that I love you deeply, so please take sweet loving care of yourself and your precious heart. I love you, and I need you.
Friday, March 27, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150328
Erin, I can't find any cocoa butter in this town. Maybe I'm not looking hard enough, but it's looking like I'm going to have to flavor chocolate that's already been flavored. Which means that I'm not going to have a consistent recipe for chocolate, unless I buy a high-end name brand every time. Well, not at this time, so I bought some generic cooking chocolate, and I'm going to flavor that. I notice that in mousse recipes, they add and manipulate flavor anyway, so I guess the bottom line is a great tasting chocolate mousse no matter which direction you get it. But first, a chocolate bar.
So you like Mexican food? For lunch, I cooked up some chicken breast in teriyaki sauce and margarine, then sliced it up, made a big fat tortilla, then rolled up the sliced chicken with home made mayo, black pepper, local greens, diced tomato, and sliced onions into a burrito. I suppose you can't call it a burrito if it doesn't have beans and ground beef. So let's call it a wrap. I've discovered that chicken tastes better cooked in margarine over butter. If you're not into big fat home made tortillas, then they've been selling Mission tortillas at some local stores if you're hankering for the taste of Americana Mexicana. Or we can just go to McDonald's for a Big Mac.
People just don't truly appreciate how sensitive and caring you are. And you're such a sweetheart, you actually care and listen to what they have to say. Poor Erin. My poor, dearest Erin. Don't pay so much attention to them, or even bother looking for what they have to say about you. You know those big fat headphones you have? You need to start wearing them all the time to drown out those fungus infected voices. Floofy's getting a fungus infection at the tips of her ears too, and I'm going to have to take her to the vet again for another shot. But Erin, don't listen so much to them, OK? Just say "Ha?" to them. Be oblivious, take good care of yourself and your heart, I want to take good loving care of you. Because I love you, and I need you.
So you like Mexican food? For lunch, I cooked up some chicken breast in teriyaki sauce and margarine, then sliced it up, made a big fat tortilla, then rolled up the sliced chicken with home made mayo, black pepper, local greens, diced tomato, and sliced onions into a burrito. I suppose you can't call it a burrito if it doesn't have beans and ground beef. So let's call it a wrap. I've discovered that chicken tastes better cooked in margarine over butter. If you're not into big fat home made tortillas, then they've been selling Mission tortillas at some local stores if you're hankering for the taste of Americana Mexicana. Or we can just go to McDonald's for a Big Mac.
People just don't truly appreciate how sensitive and caring you are. And you're such a sweetheart, you actually care and listen to what they have to say. Poor Erin. My poor, dearest Erin. Don't pay so much attention to them, or even bother looking for what they have to say about you. You know those big fat headphones you have? You need to start wearing them all the time to drown out those fungus infected voices. Floofy's getting a fungus infection at the tips of her ears too, and I'm going to have to take her to the vet again for another shot. But Erin, don't listen so much to them, OK? Just say "Ha?" to them. Be oblivious, take good care of yourself and your heart, I want to take good loving care of you. Because I love you, and I need you.
Qur'an 20150328
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
66. Say, "I am forbidden to invoke those whom you invoke besides Allah, seeing that the Clear Signs have come to me from my Lord, and I have been commanded to to bow to the Lord of the Worlds."
Forgiver 40:66
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I am forbidden to invoke those whom you invoke besides Allah, seeing that the Clear Signs have come to me from my Lord, and I have been commanded to to bow to the Lord of the Worlds."
66. Say, "I am forbidden to invoke those whom you invoke besides Allah, seeing that the Clear Signs have come to me from my Lord, and I have been commanded to to bow to the Lord of the Worlds."
Forgiver 40:66
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I am forbidden to invoke those whom you invoke besides Allah, seeing that the Clear Signs have come to me from my Lord, and I have been commanded to to bow to the Lord of the Worlds."
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150327
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello Sweetheart. They asked you an interesting question whe you were on #Redes: "Did the guys who painted you, did they get paid?" It's not just that the women who did the work got paid, it's that they didn't know if they were men or women, so that didn't really matter to them. It's the having to work for free is such a common expectation. Also, I don't recall rooting for anyone during the last soccer World Cup. I'm not a sports fan. I'm a sports wife (so to speak), so I root for my wife's team. I remember saying a cheer for Germany after game over, but you know why. It may seem that I listen to every word you say, but that's not so. But I love you so much, and it is all I have, because I live in a bubble. A delusion that I'm some sort of Rock Star. An adolescent fantasy world. Please forgive me for my faults.
I would totally admit that I'm not the best drummer in the world. My feet are smashed: they grew a whole 2 sizes since I quit the pizza job, and my bad feet puts me at a great disadvantage as a drummer. But I have my own style, my own point of view of the drums, which I don't see anyone else grasping. Which can be said of my music in general: I'm great at playing my own music. I've observed that drummers are the most superstitious of all the musicians. You must have noticed how many cults and magic use drums in their ceremonies. The connection to blood is obvious, because drums were used at the front of most armies, including the fabulous Muslim army. In Islam, as far as I understand, the drum was used to announce the prayers before the human voice became the norm. So there is definitely some sort of supernatural image of the drum. Certainly the little antique snare drum I just acquired doesn't predate the Nanking Massacre, but it is a drum made by a Japanese company, made in Japan when it's not supposed to be. Even the serial number is weird: JN
You must be having a hectic time right now as you at on top of the world, so I ask you to please take time to slow down and rest your precious heart. I'm sure it's a lot of fun, but things have to be mundane in order to raise a family. I believe stress doesn't make children stronger: it destroys them. How would you have felt if your parents were always jetting around and partying when you were small? So please be ready to slam on the brakes when we marry inshaAllah. Rehearse slamming on the brakes. I want you to be happy, and happy with me. Please forgive me for my faults. I love you, and I need you.
Hello Sweetheart. They asked you an interesting question whe you were on #Redes: "Did the guys who painted you, did they get paid?" It's not just that the women who did the work got paid, it's that they didn't know if they were men or women, so that didn't really matter to them. It's the having to work for free is such a common expectation. Also, I don't recall rooting for anyone during the last soccer World Cup. I'm not a sports fan. I'm a sports wife (so to speak), so I root for my wife's team. I remember saying a cheer for Germany after game over, but you know why. It may seem that I listen to every word you say, but that's not so. But I love you so much, and it is all I have, because I live in a bubble. A delusion that I'm some sort of Rock Star. An adolescent fantasy world. Please forgive me for my faults.
I would totally admit that I'm not the best drummer in the world. My feet are smashed: they grew a whole 2 sizes since I quit the pizza job, and my bad feet puts me at a great disadvantage as a drummer. But I have my own style, my own point of view of the drums, which I don't see anyone else grasping. Which can be said of my music in general: I'm great at playing my own music. I've observed that drummers are the most superstitious of all the musicians. You must have noticed how many cults and magic use drums in their ceremonies. The connection to blood is obvious, because drums were used at the front of most armies, including the fabulous Muslim army. In Islam, as far as I understand, the drum was used to announce the prayers before the human voice became the norm. So there is definitely some sort of supernatural image of the drum. Certainly the little antique snare drum I just acquired doesn't predate the Nanking Massacre, but it is a drum made by a Japanese company, made in Japan when it's not supposed to be. Even the serial number is weird: JN
You must be having a hectic time right now as you at on top of the world, so I ask you to please take time to slow down and rest your precious heart. I'm sure it's a lot of fun, but things have to be mundane in order to raise a family. I believe stress doesn't make children stronger: it destroys them. How would you have felt if your parents were always jetting around and partying when you were small? So please be ready to slam on the brakes when we marry inshaAllah. Rehearse slamming on the brakes. I want you to be happy, and happy with me. Please forgive me for my faults. I love you, and I need you.
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150326
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hey there, Precious Gorgeous! You must be a busy, busy girl right now. Hang on to your heart, Sweetie. Your precious heart. Please make sure you put aside some down time for yourself to rest your precious heart. Be lazy. Watch TV. Take a nap. Eat snacks. I saw that Mexican thingy you did, you know the one where they announced your SI issues sold out. Congratulations! You are so beautiful. I love you, and I need you.
Today I ate out all day. I had roti canai (India style greasy flat bread) in the morning, rice vermicelli soup for lunch, and fried noodles for dinner. I have never done that before, never in my life in fact. Wait, that's not true: I remember being on tour, and eating nothing but restaurant and convenience store food. Today was a busy day for me. It centered mostly around an antique snare drum, an out of production Yamaha marching snare, I think it's at least 12 years old, most likely older. It's made in Japan: most Yamaha stuff nowadays are made in China. All modern drummers center their kits and lives around the snare and bass drum, and nowadays even composers and machines think only "kick and snare". Boom chuck, boom chuck. I love a good bass drum, but to me the snare drum is a lesser drum, perhaps the lowest drum, probably not even necessary in my kit. I can just hit a rack tom for "chuck". Who cares, anyway? Well today, many people across the country were getting emotional over this old snare drum. I have to admit that I like this drum, so I put in the work and money to acquire it. I used to play this drum when I was a drum teacher about 5 years ago, and it's still in tune from then, the same tuning I gave it, even though it's covered in dust and cobwebs. This will probably be the last snare drum I will ever own. I also got limited Internet access at home- the cheapest plan possible! It will help me cut back on dangerous commute. I'm sorry but it's not good enough for video conferencing, and I'm still too broke to get you a ring. Please forgive me for my faults. At least you may expect to hear from me everyday. InshaAllah.
Hey there, Precious Gorgeous! You must be a busy, busy girl right now. Hang on to your heart, Sweetie. Your precious heart. Please make sure you put aside some down time for yourself to rest your precious heart. Be lazy. Watch TV. Take a nap. Eat snacks. I saw that Mexican thingy you did, you know the one where they announced your SI issues sold out. Congratulations! You are so beautiful. I love you, and I need you.
Today I ate out all day. I had roti canai (India style greasy flat bread) in the morning, rice vermicelli soup for lunch, and fried noodles for dinner. I have never done that before, never in my life in fact. Wait, that's not true: I remember being on tour, and eating nothing but restaurant and convenience store food. Today was a busy day for me. It centered mostly around an antique snare drum, an out of production Yamaha marching snare, I think it's at least 12 years old, most likely older. It's made in Japan: most Yamaha stuff nowadays are made in China. All modern drummers center their kits and lives around the snare and bass drum, and nowadays even composers and machines think only "kick and snare". Boom chuck, boom chuck. I love a good bass drum, but to me the snare drum is a lesser drum, perhaps the lowest drum, probably not even necessary in my kit. I can just hit a rack tom for "chuck". Who cares, anyway? Well today, many people across the country were getting emotional over this old snare drum. I have to admit that I like this drum, so I put in the work and money to acquire it. I used to play this drum when I was a drum teacher about 5 years ago, and it's still in tune from then, the same tuning I gave it, even though it's covered in dust and cobwebs. This will probably be the last snare drum I will ever own. I also got limited Internet access at home- the cheapest plan possible! It will help me cut back on dangerous commute. I'm sorry but it's not good enough for video conferencing, and I'm still too broke to get you a ring. Please forgive me for my faults. At least you may expect to hear from me everyday. InshaAllah.
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150324
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
It's almost mango season. Last season, there were so many seedlings that I decided to save and nurse them, perhaps someone would want them. I spoke to a pro, and he said I needed to "marry" them to a mature mango of the same type, so they would acquire the strengths of the mature tree and bear fruit sooner. The type that grows in my yard is Harumanis. I recalled some methods of making hybrid mangoes from biology class in high school, so I decided to "marry" them to the mother tree, which is big and strong. They're plants, so don't say "ew". But my methods failed, because the shoots didn't bond to the seedlings, and they dried up and died. So I watched a video on the proper method, then redid all of them, hopefully the roots aren't dead yet. Then Bob Cat attacked one of them, and I discovered that I hadn't secured the bond properly. The cat fancies himself a farmer. Well, I hope I will raise good hybrids inshaAllah, with the help of Bobby-Wobby the mango farmer. It looks like there will be hundreds more seedlings this year.
I have 3 female cats that live indoors, and they will probably spend their entire lives inside the house. Their names are ----, ----, and -------. They are definitely at the age where they should be going in heat. I've been preparing myself for the potential racket, but they haven't begun howling in earnest yet, which is odd to me. Mama cat Floofy has been spending more time indoors with them. Perhaps that has something to do with it, I don't know. Perhaps it's because they have each other. One thing is for certain, that a cat in heat will do her howling right at my bedroom door. It's one of those certainties in life. Like death and taxes.
How are you doing, my dearest heart? My beautiful Erin. I pray you are feeling healthy and happy, and learning how to relax. I'm obviously in a better mood than last time. When I start to meow, then you know my mood is getting better. I want you to know that I love you with all my heart. I love you, and I need you.
It's almost mango season. Last season, there were so many seedlings that I decided to save and nurse them, perhaps someone would want them. I spoke to a pro, and he said I needed to "marry" them to a mature mango of the same type, so they would acquire the strengths of the mature tree and bear fruit sooner. The type that grows in my yard is Harumanis. I recalled some methods of making hybrid mangoes from biology class in high school, so I decided to "marry" them to the mother tree, which is big and strong. They're plants, so don't say "ew". But my methods failed, because the shoots didn't bond to the seedlings, and they dried up and died. So I watched a video on the proper method, then redid all of them, hopefully the roots aren't dead yet. Then Bob Cat attacked one of them, and I discovered that I hadn't secured the bond properly. The cat fancies himself a farmer. Well, I hope I will raise good hybrids inshaAllah, with the help of Bobby-Wobby the mango farmer. It looks like there will be hundreds more seedlings this year.
I have 3 female cats that live indoors, and they will probably spend their entire lives inside the house. Their names are ----, ----, and -------. They are definitely at the age where they should be going in heat. I've been preparing myself for the potential racket, but they haven't begun howling in earnest yet, which is odd to me. Mama cat Floofy has been spending more time indoors with them. Perhaps that has something to do with it, I don't know. Perhaps it's because they have each other. One thing is for certain, that a cat in heat will do her howling right at my bedroom door. It's one of those certainties in life. Like death and taxes.
How are you doing, my dearest heart? My beautiful Erin. I pray you are feeling healthy and happy, and learning how to relax. I'm obviously in a better mood than last time. When I start to meow, then you know my mood is getting better. I want you to know that I love you with all my heart. I love you, and I need you.
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150322
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
I will be the first to admit that this music that Allah gave me can be powerful and dangerous. This is because mashaAllah, I channel the voices of the dead. But I have mentioned this over and over again over the decades past, and I am oppressed by poverty, ridiculed because of my religion, the music and my poverty, and have had my life hanging as a result. SO WHAT? Everybody needs money. Everyone has to fight to succeed. And as far as human lives are concerned, there are people here flushing newborn babies down the toilet on a perhaps daily basis. Yeah, I know all that, but this power of music is not my power but the power of Allah. I'm just the vessel of this music, and I can't help the ghosts, the bitterness, and the death that permeate my aura. What would I do if I get money, anyhow? Become bloated and obese? Gamble? Party? Buy a football team? No, I would get married, do my Hajj, and acquire the tools to create music while I still can. At times dark and supernatural music. InshaAllah. But why should I need this world? Allah knows my mission, and that it interferes with the Pharaoh's routine: I'm not here to be a prophet, I'm not here to be a king, and I don't need to explain myself to this world. But perhaps my wife would like to hear some of the details.
By the way Erin, there has been noticably less garbage resulting out of your search string. But there is still some trash. More organized and produced trash, but trash nonetheless. Trash that I do not desire to consume. Please esteem yourself with dignity in all your social interactions, be better than me at least. Please maintain your chastity, piety, and integrity. I want you to know that I have faith in your goodness. so please avoid being quarrelsome about this matter. I love you, and I need you.
I will be the first to admit that this music that Allah gave me can be powerful and dangerous. This is because mashaAllah, I channel the voices of the dead. But I have mentioned this over and over again over the decades past, and I am oppressed by poverty, ridiculed because of my religion, the music and my poverty, and have had my life hanging as a result. SO WHAT? Everybody needs money. Everyone has to fight to succeed. And as far as human lives are concerned, there are people here flushing newborn babies down the toilet on a perhaps daily basis. Yeah, I know all that, but this power of music is not my power but the power of Allah. I'm just the vessel of this music, and I can't help the ghosts, the bitterness, and the death that permeate my aura. What would I do if I get money, anyhow? Become bloated and obese? Gamble? Party? Buy a football team? No, I would get married, do my Hajj, and acquire the tools to create music while I still can. At times dark and supernatural music. InshaAllah. But why should I need this world? Allah knows my mission, and that it interferes with the Pharaoh's routine: I'm not here to be a prophet, I'm not here to be a king, and I don't need to explain myself to this world. But perhaps my wife would like to hear some of the details.
By the way Erin, there has been noticably less garbage resulting out of your search string. But there is still some trash. More organized and produced trash, but trash nonetheless. Trash that I do not desire to consume. Please esteem yourself with dignity in all your social interactions, be better than me at least. Please maintain your chastity, piety, and integrity. I want you to know that I have faith in your goodness. so please avoid being quarrelsome about this matter. I love you, and I need you.
Friday, March 20, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150320
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello, beautiful Erin. How are you feeling today? I pray that you are feeling healthy and confident. I just had steak and eggs for dinner. I seem to talk about food a lot, don't I? Allah gave me some knowledge of cooking, for which I am grateful, and I love good food. Are you trying your hand at cooking? It's a nice way to pass the time, plus I'm sure you would want to make something for your children. Make sure you start off with a small to medium fire on the stove top. It makes for better control, and less dangerous. I went to the market at 7 am this morning. I always wake up early for the dawn prayer, but this time I didn't go back to sleep. My Mom said that she likes my stuffed wontons, so I went and got some wonton and spring roll skins, and tofu. When we are married inshaAllah, we will have to get up and out early for raw foods, otherwise they sell out.
So how are you coping with a romance in the Public Eye? The best way to do this is to ignore all those other humans, and focus on us. Don't you agree? I want you to know that I sincerely love you, and care for you deeply. I love you and I need you.
Hello, beautiful Erin. How are you feeling today? I pray that you are feeling healthy and confident. I just had steak and eggs for dinner. I seem to talk about food a lot, don't I? Allah gave me some knowledge of cooking, for which I am grateful, and I love good food. Are you trying your hand at cooking? It's a nice way to pass the time, plus I'm sure you would want to make something for your children. Make sure you start off with a small to medium fire on the stove top. It makes for better control, and less dangerous. I went to the market at 7 am this morning. I always wake up early for the dawn prayer, but this time I didn't go back to sleep. My Mom said that she likes my stuffed wontons, so I went and got some wonton and spring roll skins, and tofu. When we are married inshaAllah, we will have to get up and out early for raw foods, otherwise they sell out.
So how are you coping with a romance in the Public Eye? The best way to do this is to ignore all those other humans, and focus on us. Don't you agree? I want you to know that I sincerely love you, and care for you deeply. I love you and I need you.
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150318
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Erin, I saw that Valentine's Day thingy you did for the swimsuit 2015. I kind of got the sensation that you were displeased with me? If it's because I don't acknowledge Valentine's Day, then I ask you to forgive me. It is most certainly because I refuse to join partners with Allah, and if you believe such a reason is trivial, to me it is most serious. I have to live a spiritual life for Allah: I have no choice in that matter. Let's just say that I have chosen my camp, and I intend to die there. I have been doing so for decades already, it is my reality, and it is the reality of us, of how we came to be in love. If God had not made you love me, you wouldn't have given me a second thought! You are my wife inshaAllah, and you will have to live this reality with me.
Or perhaps I misread you. Perhaps you have something else crossing your heart. I sincerely love you everyday, but I won't celebrate Valentine's Day. I'm not trying to change you in this matter, I'm trying to not change me. So please forgive me, whatever it is. I can be clueless too. I love you, and I need you.
Do you like squid? I made some squid in marinara sauce and lime juice, and cooked up two big, fat tortillas. One for you, and one for me.
Erin, I saw that Valentine's Day thingy you did for the swimsuit 2015. I kind of got the sensation that you were displeased with me? If it's because I don't acknowledge Valentine's Day, then I ask you to forgive me. It is most certainly because I refuse to join partners with Allah, and if you believe such a reason is trivial, to me it is most serious. I have to live a spiritual life for Allah: I have no choice in that matter. Let's just say that I have chosen my camp, and I intend to die there. I have been doing so for decades already, it is my reality, and it is the reality of us, of how we came to be in love. If God had not made you love me, you wouldn't have given me a second thought! You are my wife inshaAllah, and you will have to live this reality with me.
Or perhaps I misread you. Perhaps you have something else crossing your heart. I sincerely love you everyday, but I won't celebrate Valentine's Day. I'm not trying to change you in this matter, I'm trying to not change me. So please forgive me, whatever it is. I can be clueless too. I love you, and I need you.
Do you like squid? I made some squid in marinara sauce and lime juice, and cooked up two big, fat tortillas. One for you, and one for me.
Monday, March 16, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150316
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Erin, you are such a sweetheart. You are my beautiful sweetheart, and I love you so. Please know that only God is perfect. I'm just the one who loves you, I want you to be safe, and I want you to be happy and happy with me. I know that you are best you, no one else can be you, and you are my girl, the girl I love. People will keep trying to change you, so hang on to yourself. You're already at the top of your game mashaAllah, so you don't have to do much of anything but be yourself. The most beautiful girl in the world. MY girl. So just stay at home if you're not working, and relax. I love you, and I need you. By the way, have you met my clones? If you need the real me, you know where to find me.
I just made the best batch of chili in my entire life! The other day, my Mom gave me some trash beef which consisted mostly of fat and gristle, and told me to grill it. She has some salty seasoning on it, I removed the gristle, then burned it to medium. Not intentionally! I was trying to man the grill, them Mom yelled at me to watch her make curry. I love you, Mom! I also burned my fish. Anyway, I sliced up all that fatty beef and stuck it in the cooler. So today I fried up some garlic, onions, a can of baked beans in tomato sauce, red hot pepper puree, then chopped up all that charcoal burned fatty beef (Warning! Burned animal fat is a carsonigen! But I'm not doing the nasty with anybody right now, so it's unlikely that I spawn mutant children) and slow cooked it as chili. Oh my God! SubhanAllah! Alhamdulillah! LailahailAllah! Allahuakbar! This chili is from heaven! You must try some!
Erin, you are such a sweetheart. You are my beautiful sweetheart, and I love you so. Please know that only God is perfect. I'm just the one who loves you, I want you to be safe, and I want you to be happy and happy with me. I know that you are best you, no one else can be you, and you are my girl, the girl I love. People will keep trying to change you, so hang on to yourself. You're already at the top of your game mashaAllah, so you don't have to do much of anything but be yourself. The most beautiful girl in the world. MY girl. So just stay at home if you're not working, and relax. I love you, and I need you. By the way, have you met my clones? If you need the real me, you know where to find me.
I just made the best batch of chili in my entire life! The other day, my Mom gave me some trash beef which consisted mostly of fat and gristle, and told me to grill it. She has some salty seasoning on it, I removed the gristle, then burned it to medium. Not intentionally! I was trying to man the grill, them Mom yelled at me to watch her make curry. I love you, Mom! I also burned my fish. Anyway, I sliced up all that fatty beef and stuck it in the cooler. So today I fried up some garlic, onions, a can of baked beans in tomato sauce, red hot pepper puree, then chopped up all that charcoal burned fatty beef (Warning! Burned animal fat is a carsonigen! But I'm not doing the nasty with anybody right now, so it's unlikely that I spawn mutant children) and slow cooked it as chili. Oh my God! SubhanAllah! Alhamdulillah! LailahailAllah! Allahuakbar! This chili is from heaven! You must try some!
Saturday, March 14, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150314
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
I am a creature of feedback, so I have my vocal microphone setup in my bedroom marked so it can be the same every time I rehearse. Today I had to voice train right after I returned from Friday prayer. When I did, my bedroom was hot, so I turned on the AC. Then I turned on the PA system, and I was overwhelmed my massive feedback on both high and low frequencies, and I had to turn everything down way past my usual settings. Then I started to sing, and everything sounded wimpy and wrong, and it made me uncomfortable. The room cooled down eventually, and I found out that I could turn everything up to my normal levels. The hot air made the feedback uncontrollable, Science! Ya Allah, thank you for the music.
Erin, that was a beautiful black suit you were wearing, and I must say that you looked totally hot in it. It turned me on! So sexy! If you had put up your hair and showed off your lovely neck to me, I would have been even more turned on. But you didn't put your hair up because you didn't want to attract vampires, right? Oh, no! Ya Allah, please protect my beloved Erin. Ya Allah, thank You for Erin, and for making her so beautiful. Erin, thank you for your love. I love you, and I need you.
Alhamdulillah. Praise be to Allah, Lord of the worlds.
I am a creature of feedback, so I have my vocal microphone setup in my bedroom marked so it can be the same every time I rehearse. Today I had to voice train right after I returned from Friday prayer. When I did, my bedroom was hot, so I turned on the AC. Then I turned on the PA system, and I was overwhelmed my massive feedback on both high and low frequencies, and I had to turn everything down way past my usual settings. Then I started to sing, and everything sounded wimpy and wrong, and it made me uncomfortable. The room cooled down eventually, and I found out that I could turn everything up to my normal levels. The hot air made the feedback uncontrollable, Science! Ya Allah, thank you for the music.
Erin, that was a beautiful black suit you were wearing, and I must say that you looked totally hot in it. It turned me on! So sexy! If you had put up your hair and showed off your lovely neck to me, I would have been even more turned on. But you didn't put your hair up because you didn't want to attract vampires, right? Oh, no! Ya Allah, please protect my beloved Erin. Ya Allah, thank You for Erin, and for making her so beautiful. Erin, thank you for your love. I love you, and I need you.
Alhamdulillah. Praise be to Allah, Lord of the worlds.
Qur'an 20150314
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
64. Say, "Is it someone other than Allah that you order me to worship, o you ignorant ones?"
65. But it has already been revealed to you, as it was to those before you, if you were to falsely worship, truly fruitless will be your work, and you will surely be in the ranks of those who lose.
66. No but worship Allah, and be of those who give thanks.
The crowds 39:64-66
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Is it someone other than Allah that you order me to worship, o you ignorant ones?
64. Say, "Is it someone other than Allah that you order me to worship, o you ignorant ones?"
65. But it has already been revealed to you, as it was to those before you, if you were to falsely worship, truly fruitless will be your work, and you will surely be in the ranks of those who lose.
66. No but worship Allah, and be of those who give thanks.
The crowds 39:64-66
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Is it someone other than Allah that you order me to worship, o you ignorant ones?
Thursday, March 12, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150312
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Aaaaa! Busy, busy! The Qur'an won't let me rest this week. Sweetheart I love you with all my heart, but I don't usually blog everyday. It's the commute that's the problem: fame can be a real drag. You ought to know what I mean, people wanting to touch you all the time and shit like that. In my case, people wanting to touch me with their vehicles while driving at top speed. No, it's not a blessing. If I had a home Internet connection, I would write everyday inshaAllah, I would at least keep some sort of diary/love letter. But this week I have to post the Qur'an everyday. I'll take this Friday off, though. I need to cut the grass over at your house inshaAllah.
When we are married, you're going to have to put up with me everyday. I warn you now, I'm a lazy slob musician. I like to sleep on the floor. Even if I were a billionaire, I would still sleep on the floor. I can spend long hours working on music and computers. I can spend long hours just watching TV. I like my own cooking: Allah gave me some knowledge of cooking, and that helps me get out of the house and get busy. For dinner today is fried spring rolls. I've been working on cutting down the grease, and I'm getting close to a system. Today's flavor is chicken curry, tofu, cilantro and onion. I had some leftover chicken curry, so I drained out the water, and mixed it in with the other ingredients, rolled them up, and fried them. Hey, it worked! Want some? Quite filling, actually. I didn't eat your portion. I put it in the cooler for later.
So are you learning to relax and ride the spiritual wave? Do you know what I mean? Yeah fame can be a real drag, but I learned after a while that no matter how hard you work, wherever you go there you are: you would be just as famous (or not famous) anyway. So why overwork? Work when you have to. Work when you're motivated. Float through work. Dream through work. I dream of you. I love you, and I need you.
Aaaaa! Busy, busy! The Qur'an won't let me rest this week. Sweetheart I love you with all my heart, but I don't usually blog everyday. It's the commute that's the problem: fame can be a real drag. You ought to know what I mean, people wanting to touch you all the time and shit like that. In my case, people wanting to touch me with their vehicles while driving at top speed. No, it's not a blessing. If I had a home Internet connection, I would write everyday inshaAllah, I would at least keep some sort of diary/love letter. But this week I have to post the Qur'an everyday. I'll take this Friday off, though. I need to cut the grass over at your house inshaAllah.
When we are married, you're going to have to put up with me everyday. I warn you now, I'm a lazy slob musician. I like to sleep on the floor. Even if I were a billionaire, I would still sleep on the floor. I can spend long hours working on music and computers. I can spend long hours just watching TV. I like my own cooking: Allah gave me some knowledge of cooking, and that helps me get out of the house and get busy. For dinner today is fried spring rolls. I've been working on cutting down the grease, and I'm getting close to a system. Today's flavor is chicken curry, tofu, cilantro and onion. I had some leftover chicken curry, so I drained out the water, and mixed it in with the other ingredients, rolled them up, and fried them. Hey, it worked! Want some? Quite filling, actually. I didn't eat your portion. I put it in the cooler for later.
So are you learning to relax and ride the spiritual wave? Do you know what I mean? Yeah fame can be a real drag, but I learned after a while that no matter how hard you work, wherever you go there you are: you would be just as famous (or not famous) anyway. So why overwork? Work when you have to. Work when you're motivated. Float through work. Dream through work. I dream of you. I love you, and I need you.
Qur'an 20150312
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
53. Say, "O servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not the mercy of Allah, for Allah forgives all sins, for God is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful."
The crowds 39:53
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O servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not the mercy of Allah, for Allah forgives all sins, for God is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
53. Say, "O servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not the mercy of Allah, for Allah forgives all sins, for God is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful."
The crowds 39:53
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O servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not the mercy of Allah, for Allah forgives all sins, for God is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150311
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Cocoa butter? Is that the only way to harden chocolate? What is lecithin for? Maybe I didn't prepare it correctly the last time. If I have to use cocoa butter, then I might just as well buy cooking chocolate and flavor that correctly. Hmm. I need more knowledge and more experimentation.
It's about time for Floofy to get her next contraceptive shot, which means a trip to the vet. She seems to know that I have plans for her to go to the vet, and she's avoiding me. I must have that "I'm about to take you to the vet" aura about me. All my cats are tuned in to my actions especially when my actions pertain to them. Like feeding time. Especially snack time. Both indoor and outdoor cats at the same time. Of course every meal I make for myself is a potential snack, and all my cats, especially the younger ones, inside and outside, can run around berserk and howling over a potential snack. And of course the inside cats have the power to be more obnoxious, but they should know me by now. Obnoxious? No mas snackipoo-o for you-o!
You do know what I mean when I tell you not to get too caught up in the competitiveness. Sure you work hard, but Allah is the One who put you where you are today. At the top of your game. So as long as you are grateful to God, there is no pressure that you need to put on your heart. So relax, enjoy some games, or design a house. As for me, I have chosen YOU for my girl. You are MY girl. I love you, and I need you.
Cocoa butter? Is that the only way to harden chocolate? What is lecithin for? Maybe I didn't prepare it correctly the last time. If I have to use cocoa butter, then I might just as well buy cooking chocolate and flavor that correctly. Hmm. I need more knowledge and more experimentation.
It's about time for Floofy to get her next contraceptive shot, which means a trip to the vet. She seems to know that I have plans for her to go to the vet, and she's avoiding me. I must have that "I'm about to take you to the vet" aura about me. All my cats are tuned in to my actions especially when my actions pertain to them. Like feeding time. Especially snack time. Both indoor and outdoor cats at the same time. Of course every meal I make for myself is a potential snack, and all my cats, especially the younger ones, inside and outside, can run around berserk and howling over a potential snack. And of course the inside cats have the power to be more obnoxious, but they should know me by now. Obnoxious? No mas snackipoo-o for you-o!
You do know what I mean when I tell you not to get too caught up in the competitiveness. Sure you work hard, but Allah is the One who put you where you are today. At the top of your game. So as long as you are grateful to God, there is no pressure that you need to put on your heart. So relax, enjoy some games, or design a house. As for me, I have chosen YOU for my girl. You are MY girl. I love you, and I need you.
Qur'an 20150311
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
46. Say, "O Allah! Creator of the heavens and the earth! Knower of all that is hidden and open! It is You that will judge between Your servants in those matters about which they have differed."
47. Even if the wrongdoers had all that there is on earth, and as much more, would they offer it for ransom from the pain of the penalty on the Day of Judgement, but something will confront them from Allah which they could never have counted upon.
48. For the evils of their deeds will confront them, and they will be encircled by that which they used to mock at.
The crowds 39:46-48
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O Allah! Creator of the heavens and the earth! Knower of all that is hidden and open! It is You that will judge between Your servants in those matters about which they have differed.
46. Say, "O Allah! Creator of the heavens and the earth! Knower of all that is hidden and open! It is You that will judge between Your servants in those matters about which they have differed."
47. Even if the wrongdoers had all that there is on earth, and as much more, would they offer it for ransom from the pain of the penalty on the Day of Judgement, but something will confront them from Allah which they could never have counted upon.
48. For the evils of their deeds will confront them, and they will be encircled by that which they used to mock at.
The crowds 39:46-48
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O Allah! Creator of the heavens and the earth! Knower of all that is hidden and open! It is You that will judge between Your servants in those matters about which they have differed.
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150310
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Busy, busy! How are you doing right now, my beloved Erin? I suddenly have too much to do right now. A lot of cooking stuff, and a lot of driving around. It looks like I'm going to be busy all week. Plus the Internet is damned slow right now. I have to make sure I get enough sleep. Tomorrow is grill day. I'll be grilling that stuffed scad, and a bunch of meat for my Mom. I'm just going to man the grill, and nothing else. I'm not the Iron Chef. I hate running around the kitchen trying to finish 6 dishes at a time. I used to that at the pizza joint, and it destroyed my feet, that I can't play the drums normally anymore. So it's the grill only for me, with tongs in my left hand and a fan in my right hand, and the cats cooped up ion the cage. I'm thinking lime juice and soy sauce for the stuffed scad. So you wanna join me for lunch?
I hope you aren't getting too caught up in the competition of it all. Try to relax, and soothe your heart. I don't have a competitive bone in my body. I want you to be happy. I love you, and I need you.
Busy, busy! How are you doing right now, my beloved Erin? I suddenly have too much to do right now. A lot of cooking stuff, and a lot of driving around. It looks like I'm going to be busy all week. Plus the Internet is damned slow right now. I have to make sure I get enough sleep. Tomorrow is grill day. I'll be grilling that stuffed scad, and a bunch of meat for my Mom. I'm just going to man the grill, and nothing else. I'm not the Iron Chef. I hate running around the kitchen trying to finish 6 dishes at a time. I used to that at the pizza joint, and it destroyed my feet, that I can't play the drums normally anymore. So it's the grill only for me, with tongs in my left hand and a fan in my right hand, and the cats cooped up ion the cage. I'm thinking lime juice and soy sauce for the stuffed scad. So you wanna join me for lunch?
I hope you aren't getting too caught up in the competition of it all. Try to relax, and soothe your heart. I don't have a competitive bone in my body. I want you to be happy. I love you, and I need you.
Qur'an 20150310
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
39. Say, "O my people! Do whatever you can: I will do. But soon will you know."
40. Who it is to whom comes a penalty of ignominy, and on whom descends a penalty that abides.
41. Verily We have revealed the Book to you in Truth, for humankind. He then that receives guidance benefits his own soul. But he that strays injures his own soul. Nor are you set over them to dispose of their affairs.
42. It is Allah that takes the souls at death, and those that die not during their sleep. Those on whom God has passed the decree of death, God keeps back. But the rest God returns for a term appointed. Verily in this are Signs for those who reflect.
43. What! Do they take for intercessors others besides Allah? Say, "Even if they have no power whatever and no intelligence?"
44. Say, "To Allah belongs exclusively Intercession. To God belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth. In the end, it is to God that you shall be brought back."
The crowds 39:39-44
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O my people! Do whatever you can: I will do. But soon will you know.
Even if they have no power whatever and no intelligence?
To Allah belongs exclusively Intercession. To God belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth. In the end, it is to God that you shall be brought back.
39. Say, "O my people! Do whatever you can: I will do. But soon will you know."
40. Who it is to whom comes a penalty of ignominy, and on whom descends a penalty that abides.
41. Verily We have revealed the Book to you in Truth, for humankind. He then that receives guidance benefits his own soul. But he that strays injures his own soul. Nor are you set over them to dispose of their affairs.
42. It is Allah that takes the souls at death, and those that die not during their sleep. Those on whom God has passed the decree of death, God keeps back. But the rest God returns for a term appointed. Verily in this are Signs for those who reflect.
43. What! Do they take for intercessors others besides Allah? Say, "Even if they have no power whatever and no intelligence?"
44. Say, "To Allah belongs exclusively Intercession. To God belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth. In the end, it is to God that you shall be brought back."
The crowds 39:39-44
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O my people! Do whatever you can: I will do. But soon will you know.
Even if they have no power whatever and no intelligence?
To Allah belongs exclusively Intercession. To God belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth. In the end, it is to God that you shall be brought back.
Monday, March 9, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150309
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello, my beautiful Erin. How are you feeling today, Sweetheart? You must be busy, so please take time to slow down and rest your precious heart. Please pray. I love you, and I need you.
It began to rain after my voice training today, so I couldn't do any yard work. I watched the rain for a little while. Ya Allah, thank you for the rain. The rainfall wasn't too spectacular to watch, just enough to let the plants live. So I stayed in the kitchen for the evening. I still had that scad, so I made some stuffing. I had some coconut, so I had to blend and squeeze that for coconut milk, then made light chicken curry for noodles, then turned the leftover coconut into stuffing by frying it up with the too-strong marinara sauce and lime juice. Um yeah... it works. Whoops, I don't want any of this stuff for dinner. So I cooked up a sirloin steak instead. I love steak. I have a fresh loaf of sliced white bread. Last night, I made steak and cheese sandwiches with cashew shoots, tomatoes, and home made mayo. I gave one to my Dad, and my Mom made a big noise about my using cashew shoots. Well, I didn't have lettuce. One of my favorite desserts is bread, butter and sugar sandwiches. I made two. You want one?
Hello, my beautiful Erin. How are you feeling today, Sweetheart? You must be busy, so please take time to slow down and rest your precious heart. Please pray. I love you, and I need you.
It began to rain after my voice training today, so I couldn't do any yard work. I watched the rain for a little while. Ya Allah, thank you for the rain. The rainfall wasn't too spectacular to watch, just enough to let the plants live. So I stayed in the kitchen for the evening. I still had that scad, so I made some stuffing. I had some coconut, so I had to blend and squeeze that for coconut milk, then made light chicken curry for noodles, then turned the leftover coconut into stuffing by frying it up with the too-strong marinara sauce and lime juice. Um yeah... it works. Whoops, I don't want any of this stuff for dinner. So I cooked up a sirloin steak instead. I love steak. I have a fresh loaf of sliced white bread. Last night, I made steak and cheese sandwiches with cashew shoots, tomatoes, and home made mayo. I gave one to my Dad, and my Mom made a big noise about my using cashew shoots. Well, I didn't have lettuce. One of my favorite desserts is bread, butter and sugar sandwiches. I made two. You want one?
Qur'an 20150309
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
36. Is not Allah enough for God's servant? But they try to frighten you with others besides God! For such as Allah leaves to stray, there can be no guide.
37. And such as Allah does guide, there can be none to lead astray. Is not Allah Exalted in Power, Lord of Retribution?
38. If indeed you ask them who it is that created the heavens and the earth, they would be sure to say, "Allah." Say, "Do you see? The things that you invoke besides Allah, can they, if Allah wills some penalty for me, remove God's penalty? Or if God wills some grace for me, can they keep back God's grace?" Say, "Sufficient is Allah for me! In God trust those who put their trust."
The crowds 39:36-38
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Do you see? The things that you invoke besides Allah, can they, if Allah wills some penalty for me, remove God's penalty? Or if God wills some grace for me, can they keep back God's grace?
Sufficient is Allah for me! In God trust those who put their trust.
36. Is not Allah enough for God's servant? But they try to frighten you with others besides God! For such as Allah leaves to stray, there can be no guide.
37. And such as Allah does guide, there can be none to lead astray. Is not Allah Exalted in Power, Lord of Retribution?
38. If indeed you ask them who it is that created the heavens and the earth, they would be sure to say, "Allah." Say, "Do you see? The things that you invoke besides Allah, can they, if Allah wills some penalty for me, remove God's penalty? Or if God wills some grace for me, can they keep back God's grace?" Say, "Sufficient is Allah for me! In God trust those who put their trust."
The crowds 39:36-38
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Do you see? The things that you invoke besides Allah, can they, if Allah wills some penalty for me, remove God's penalty? Or if God wills some grace for me, can they keep back God's grace?
Sufficient is Allah for me! In God trust those who put their trust.
Saturday, March 7, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150307
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Jim Garfield mentioned recently, "Oh no! There's a lot of nothing going on!" while he was reading Cat News. Well, a sleeping cat is a peaceful cat. If you were to dream about a cat, then the cat should be either a friend or sleeping. Otherwise it should be driven away. Cats are useful for killing vermin. So if a cat in your dream isn't a friend, sleeping, or killing vermin, then it should be driven away. Anyway, I guess I should put in a report. All my kitties are healthy and doing well, alhamdulillah. The kittens are almost grown up. I keep the females inside the house, so they can stay out of contact of males. It's about time they go into heat, but they haven't yet. Mama cat Floofy has been spending more time inside the house, even though she still snarls at them. I hope she's teaching them to go into heat silently. 3 cats in heat simultaneously could be very noisy, especially because I know they will choose to howl right at my bedroom door. Floofy is on contraceptives, but I can't afford to pay for all of them. The boys don't get pregnant, so they stay outside. They are both big boys now, and their faces have that tomcat look. Now in cat politics, the cat with the biggest balls wins, and Bob Cat looks like he will have the biggest balls on the street. You should see him do the ball dance. My Mom loves to watch the ball dance. That's when I hold him by his lower back and shake it in tempo, and his balls swing along. Sometimes Bobby sings along. Bat Cat can't do the ball dance. I tell him his balls aren't big enough, and he gets offended.
Tonight I was scheduled to eat rice, so I went over to Ina's restaurant but she was out of anchovy and egg rice. So I went home and made spaghetti and meatballs instead. Linguini and meatballs, rather. I use chilli pepper puree in my marinara sauce, but my usual brand was unavailable because the usual place I get it from got burned down (it looked like a bomb went through the roof) and I couldn't find it anywhere else, so I had to get a different brand, which hurt my stomach. Knowledge has made my stomach sensitive. Alhamdulillah. I would offer you some, but I need to fine tune my marinara sauce. Besides, you're not here. I wish you were here. Are you traveling right now? Please take good, sweet care of yourself. I love you, and I need you.
Jim Garfield mentioned recently, "Oh no! There's a lot of nothing going on!" while he was reading Cat News. Well, a sleeping cat is a peaceful cat. If you were to dream about a cat, then the cat should be either a friend or sleeping. Otherwise it should be driven away. Cats are useful for killing vermin. So if a cat in your dream isn't a friend, sleeping, or killing vermin, then it should be driven away. Anyway, I guess I should put in a report. All my kitties are healthy and doing well, alhamdulillah. The kittens are almost grown up. I keep the females inside the house, so they can stay out of contact of males. It's about time they go into heat, but they haven't yet. Mama cat Floofy has been spending more time inside the house, even though she still snarls at them. I hope she's teaching them to go into heat silently. 3 cats in heat simultaneously could be very noisy, especially because I know they will choose to howl right at my bedroom door. Floofy is on contraceptives, but I can't afford to pay for all of them. The boys don't get pregnant, so they stay outside. They are both big boys now, and their faces have that tomcat look. Now in cat politics, the cat with the biggest balls wins, and Bob Cat looks like he will have the biggest balls on the street. You should see him do the ball dance. My Mom loves to watch the ball dance. That's when I hold him by his lower back and shake it in tempo, and his balls swing along. Sometimes Bobby sings along. Bat Cat can't do the ball dance. I tell him his balls aren't big enough, and he gets offended.
Tonight I was scheduled to eat rice, so I went over to Ina's restaurant but she was out of anchovy and egg rice. So I went home and made spaghetti and meatballs instead. Linguini and meatballs, rather. I use chilli pepper puree in my marinara sauce, but my usual brand was unavailable because the usual place I get it from got burned down (it looked like a bomb went through the roof) and I couldn't find it anywhere else, so I had to get a different brand, which hurt my stomach. Knowledge has made my stomach sensitive. Alhamdulillah. I would offer you some, but I need to fine tune my marinara sauce. Besides, you're not here. I wish you were here. Are you traveling right now? Please take good, sweet care of yourself. I love you, and I need you.
Thursday, March 5, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150305
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hey there, my beautiful beloved Erin. How are you feeling, Sweetheart? Did you have fun on your birthday? I wish I could have made you a nice chocolate mousse cake or something. I wish you were here, of course. And I still need to get my chocolate chops down.
Oh, yesterday I stocked up my cooler. I didn't buy any chocolate, though. I like chocolate, I just don't eat a lot of it. I seem to have a lot of chocolate and milk powders, and even some soy lecithin. My first attempt at making a chocolate bar was a dismal failure, so I used the mix to make mole sauce instead. I'll get the hang of it inshaAllah. But I bought sirloin, chicken breast, a large scad, tofu, wonton and spring roll skins, and so on. Last night I had scad sushi rolled in spring rolls. It was really good, but my hot sauce was old, which ruined my dining experience. So today I made stuffed wontons again, and a fresh batch of hot sauce, and marinara sauce. I have one more dough ball which I must finish before I make a new batch of dough, so tomorrow for lunch it's going to be a sausage calzone. I try not to waste anything. I suppose you won't be joining me for lunch. I have a busy day tomorrow anyway. When we are face to face inshaAllah, I will make you a nice chocolate mousse. Erin, I love you. And I need you.
Hey there, my beautiful beloved Erin. How are you feeling, Sweetheart? Did you have fun on your birthday? I wish I could have made you a nice chocolate mousse cake or something. I wish you were here, of course. And I still need to get my chocolate chops down.
Oh, yesterday I stocked up my cooler. I didn't buy any chocolate, though. I like chocolate, I just don't eat a lot of it. I seem to have a lot of chocolate and milk powders, and even some soy lecithin. My first attempt at making a chocolate bar was a dismal failure, so I used the mix to make mole sauce instead. I'll get the hang of it inshaAllah. But I bought sirloin, chicken breast, a large scad, tofu, wonton and spring roll skins, and so on. Last night I had scad sushi rolled in spring rolls. It was really good, but my hot sauce was old, which ruined my dining experience. So today I made stuffed wontons again, and a fresh batch of hot sauce, and marinara sauce. I have one more dough ball which I must finish before I make a new batch of dough, so tomorrow for lunch it's going to be a sausage calzone. I try not to waste anything. I suppose you won't be joining me for lunch. I have a busy day tomorrow anyway. When we are face to face inshaAllah, I will make you a nice chocolate mousse. Erin, I love you. And I need you.
Qur'an 20150305
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
11. Say, "Verily I am commanded to serve Allah with sincere devotion."
12. And I am commanded to be the first of those who bow to God in Islam.
13. Say, "I would, if I disobeyed my Lord, indeed have fear of the penalty of a Mighty Day."
14. Say, "It is Allah I serve, with my sincere devotion."
15. Serve you what you will besides God. Say, "Truly those in loss are those who lose their own souls and their people on the Day of Judgement. Ah, that is indeed the evident loss!"
16. They shall have layers of fire above them, and layers below them. With this does Allah warn God's servants: "O My servants! Then fear you Me!"
17. Those who eschew evil and fall not into its worship, and turn to Allah: for them is good news. So announce the good news to My servants.
18. Those who listen to the Word, and follow the best in it. Those are the ones whom Allah has guided, and those are the ones endued with understanding.
The crowds 39:11-18
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Verily I am commanded to serve Allah with sincere devotion.
I would, if I disobeyed my Lord, indeed have fear of the penalty of a Mighty Day.
It is Allah I serve, with my sincere devotion.
Truly those in loss are those who lose their own souls and their people on the Day of Judgement. Ah, that is indeed the evident loss!
11. Say, "Verily I am commanded to serve Allah with sincere devotion."
12. And I am commanded to be the first of those who bow to God in Islam.
13. Say, "I would, if I disobeyed my Lord, indeed have fear of the penalty of a Mighty Day."
14. Say, "It is Allah I serve, with my sincere devotion."
15. Serve you what you will besides God. Say, "Truly those in loss are those who lose their own souls and their people on the Day of Judgement. Ah, that is indeed the evident loss!"
16. They shall have layers of fire above them, and layers below them. With this does Allah warn God's servants: "O My servants! Then fear you Me!"
17. Those who eschew evil and fall not into its worship, and turn to Allah: for them is good news. So announce the good news to My servants.
18. Those who listen to the Word, and follow the best in it. Those are the ones whom Allah has guided, and those are the ones endued with understanding.
The crowds 39:11-18
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Verily I am commanded to serve Allah with sincere devotion.
I would, if I disobeyed my Lord, indeed have fear of the penalty of a Mighty Day.
It is Allah I serve, with my sincere devotion.
Truly those in loss are those who lose their own souls and their people on the Day of Judgement. Ah, that is indeed the evident loss!
Wednesday, March 4, 2015
Qur'an 20150304
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
7. If you reject, truly Allah has no need of you, but God dislikes ingratitude from God's servants. If you are grateful, God is pleased with you. No bearer of burdens can bear the burden of another. In the end, to your Lord is your return, when God will tell you the truth of all that you did, for God Knows Well all that is in hearts.
8. When some trouble touches man, he cries unto his Lord, turning to God in repentance. But when God bestows a favor upon him as from Godself, he forgets what he cried and prayed for before, and he sets up rivals for Allah, thus misleading others from Allah's Path. Say, "Enjoy your blasphemy for a little while, verily you are of the companions of the fire!"
9. Is one who worships devoutly during the hours of the night prostating or standing, who takes heed of the hereafter, and who places his hope in the mercy of his Lord... Say, "Are those equal, those who know and those who do not know? It is those who are endued with understanding that receive admonition."
10. Say, "O you servants who believe! Fear your Lord. Good is for those who do good in this world. Spacious is Allah's earth. Those who patiently persevere will truly receive a reward without measure!"
The crowds 39:7-10
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Enjoy your blasphemy for a little while, verily you are of the companions of the fire!
Are those equal, those who know and those who do not know? It is those who are endued with understanding that receive admonition.
O you servants who believe! Fear your Lord. Good is for those who do good in this world. Spacious is Allah's earth. Those who patiently persevere will truly receive a reward without measure!
7. If you reject, truly Allah has no need of you, but God dislikes ingratitude from God's servants. If you are grateful, God is pleased with you. No bearer of burdens can bear the burden of another. In the end, to your Lord is your return, when God will tell you the truth of all that you did, for God Knows Well all that is in hearts.
8. When some trouble touches man, he cries unto his Lord, turning to God in repentance. But when God bestows a favor upon him as from Godself, he forgets what he cried and prayed for before, and he sets up rivals for Allah, thus misleading others from Allah's Path. Say, "Enjoy your blasphemy for a little while, verily you are of the companions of the fire!"
9. Is one who worships devoutly during the hours of the night prostating or standing, who takes heed of the hereafter, and who places his hope in the mercy of his Lord... Say, "Are those equal, those who know and those who do not know? It is those who are endued with understanding that receive admonition."
10. Say, "O you servants who believe! Fear your Lord. Good is for those who do good in this world. Spacious is Allah's earth. Those who patiently persevere will truly receive a reward without measure!"
The crowds 39:7-10
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Enjoy your blasphemy for a little while, verily you are of the companions of the fire!
Are those equal, those who know and those who do not know? It is those who are endued with understanding that receive admonition.
O you servants who believe! Fear your Lord. Good is for those who do good in this world. Spacious is Allah's earth. Those who patiently persevere will truly receive a reward without measure!
Monday, March 2, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150302
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello, my dearest Erin. How are you feeling today? Right now, I am preparing my taxes. As you may already know, Shadowplay is a legal and registered business of Malaysia for about 5 years already, but Shadowplay as a music has been around since 1989. Yes, as old as you. Nothing to get excited about though. I have had 0 sales and services, and the only donations have been from my parents. That's right, I've been living off my Mommy all this while. How humiliating. Any normal person would be beyond despair and dead at their own hands, but I desire to be faithful, and the faithful do not despair. This is my service to Allah. I seek my reward from Allah, and I have faith that Allah will grant me all I need inshaAllah. I need to make music. I need to go to Hajj. I need to marry you. I love you, and I need you.
Hello, my dearest Erin. How are you feeling today? Right now, I am preparing my taxes. As you may already know, Shadowplay is a legal and registered business of Malaysia for about 5 years already, but Shadowplay as a music has been around since 1989. Yes, as old as you. Nothing to get excited about though. I have had 0 sales and services, and the only donations have been from my parents. That's right, I've been living off my Mommy all this while. How humiliating. Any normal person would be beyond despair and dead at their own hands, but I desire to be faithful, and the faithful do not despair. This is my service to Allah. I seek my reward from Allah, and I have faith that Allah will grant me all I need inshaAllah. I need to make music. I need to go to Hajj. I need to marry you. I love you, and I need you.
Qur'an 20150302
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
86. Say, "No reward do I ask of you for this, nor am I a pretender."
87. This is no less than a message to the worlds.
88. And you shall certainly know the truth of it after a while.
Sad 38:86-88
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No reward do I ask of you for this, nor am I a pretender.
86. Say, "No reward do I ask of you for this, nor am I a pretender."
87. This is no less than a message to the worlds.
88. And you shall certainly know the truth of it after a while.
Sad 38:86-88
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No reward do I ask of you for this, nor am I a pretender.
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