Letter to Julia 20130228

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

So I stay alone in my little house and quell my loneliness and longing for my Julia by playing the guitar.  The most talented guitarists that I've ever met were all the lonesome types, who stay in their bedroom and practise scales and solos and what not.  Well, that's not exactly accurate, for I pine for my Julia regardless of whether or not I play guitar.  Rather, I play guitar nowadays whenever the Batty-watty Bat Cat sneaks into my room and pounces on my guitar.  I suppose he wants me to put in some work.

Not that I make it a habit to follow the animal instincts of a 9 month old kitten (the human equivalent of a 6 year old child) because I have my own animal instincts to rely on.  Why not occasionally trust the instincts of the animal animal as opposed to the human animal, especially when one is too lazy to think for oneself?  Maybe it's not laziness.  After all, what are friends for?

Anyway, please stay pure, have faith, pray that Allah will bring us together soon, and give us a happy and secure life and afterlife.  I promise you that I will do the same, inshaAllah.  Purity goes with purity, regardless of the gossip.

Letter to Julia 20130227

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi there, my beautiful young Julia.  How are you feeling?  I pray you are healthy and confident.  I was going to visit the dentist again today, but I had a major filling put in last Friday, and it's still healing.  So I decided to work instead, and as I write this letter to you, I am also trying to relax, and lying on the floor feeling miserable.

I am also reprogramming Shadowplay TV right now.  I'm adding more Jerry Springer, the JFK assassination, and I also have 3 old Bruce Lee movies and the latest James Bond.  I haven't watched any of them yet.  I'll tell you what I think of the Bond movie after I watch it.  Too busy being lazy!

Oh, but it rained all day on the 26th, so I posted this letter today instead.  I stayed indoors all day yesterday, except to go out in my raincoat to get more painkillers.  For dinner, I made chicken wraps.  Sorry, but I ate yours since you didn't show up for dinner.  It was OK.  I should have cooked the bread longer, and I really miss Best Foods mayo.

And you.

Letter to Julia 20130225

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia, my darling love!  How is my beautiful beloved feeling today?  I just had steak and fries for dinner.  Oh, so good!  I came across the perfect cut at the day market the other day.  Perfectly marbleized!  I mean, marbled.  It melted in my mouth like a Flake bar, and just as sweet!  I'm very fussy about my fries.  They have to be crinkle cut and perfectly fried in clean oil, and piping hot.  With lots of salt!  Want some?  I also made some simple fry sauce, out of mayo and ketchup.  We don't have Heinz and Best Foods here in Perlis, so it took me a few years to find brands that come close.  Especially with mayo.  I'm very sensitive to mayo: the wrong mayo can make me sick for days.  I've also yet to find buttermilk here in Perlis.  So much for ranch dressing!

Letter to Julia 20130223

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Oh Julia.  Sorry it's been 3 days, but I've been awfully busy.  I went to the dentist yesterday.  Ouch.  Yes, again.  So I've been busy, and in pain at the same time.  I'm afraid I might have to open up your bottle of snake oil.  My bottle has run out, and the stuff does wonders for heat rash.  We'll go and find the snake oil guy together sometime in the future, insyaAllah.  I do love you so, and I want to marry you, so we can be together all the time, and do stuff together.

Did I tell you that it's election year here in Malaysia?  Yes, I know I told you that 2 1/2 years ago.  I hate politics, but I will be voting, insyaAllah.  I don't blame the government for being late.  Both you and I have seen the power of love and music, MASHAALLAH.

Letter to Julia 20130220

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

YOOOOOOOOOOOLIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

Hey there Julia, my dearest.  I pray you are feeling healthy and confident.  I went to the dentist yesterday, I'm sure you noticed that.  Hm, I lost a day somehow.  I seem to do that frequently.  It's all the same day anyway, and I'm here waiting for you, and the rest of my life and afterlife to start.  In love and happiness.  InsyaAllah.

I'm watching "This is Spinal Tap" right now.  What an old movie!  I was living in the Aida House in Salt Lake City when I first saw this movie.  What chaotic days!  The Aida House was damn popular those days.  I don't know how that popularity happened, because I was totally clueless back then.  Anyway, Spinal Tap was a parody band, but they had awesome equipment.  I envy them that!

Letter to Julia 20130217

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia!  How are you feeling today, my beloved?  I am feeling lonely without you, of course.  I hurt myself this morning, which amplified my unhappiness.  I got up too early, then I started to lift heavy objects, the wrong way.  I pulled my left shoulder, which of course made it difficult for me to breathe.  I'm not a morning person to begin with- I don't wake up until 9am after going back to sleep after the dawn prayer, and I don't REALLY wake up until after the afternoon prayer.  But the pain is going away, alhamdulillah.

I'm sorry, Julia.  I'll try to maintain my strength for you, but we all of us humans grow weaker, not stronger, and Allah is the Strongest.  Plus, I'm still too poor to marry.  My love, I am longing to be happily married to you, for I do love you so.

Letter to Julia 20130215

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

It is not February 14.  Here in Malaysia, it is February 15.  So even if this love letter to my precious Julia is posted in the USA on February 14, it is not Valentine's day to me, because I posted this letter on February 15 in Malaysia.  I do not celebrate Valentine's day.  I have no faith in St. Valentine.  I put my trust in Allah, to protect and nurture my love.  I love my Julia.  I want to marry her.  I love her every day.  I don't need a specific day each year to love my Julia.  I love her all the time.

Letter to Julia 20130212

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

YOOOOOLIIIIIEEEEEEE!!!!!

Hello my beloved sweetie Julia!  Please forgive me for not blogging for 4 days.  It was the Chinese New Year, and the internet cafe was closed, but I posted last Saturday's letter for you to read.  I pray you are taking good care of your precious self, and not overworking.

I'm doing my laundry right now.  Ach!  I hate laundry!  But I'm still able to do it.  My parents gave me nearly a whole box full of Flake bars.  I love Flake!  Made in Egypt.  Hmm.  I want to save a couple of bars for you, but I don't think I can, because I love Flake bars sooooo much.  Hey Julia!  I love you.  I want to marry you.

Letter to Julia 20130209

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hai Julia, my beloved!  How are you feeling today?  I love you, with all my heart.  Everyday.  I've loved you for a very long time now, and I want to marry you.  InsyaAllah.

It's been really dry the past month.  My front lawn and the wildflowers have dried up, but they'll be back with the next rain, insyaAllah.  The quinine tree behind my house is dripping water for some reason.  It's been hot and dry, the tree is covered with blossoms, and it's dripping water, tiny droplets of water, like falling mist.  But it stains the ground like amber, and it doesn't wash off, so it might not be water.  My back yard looks like it's drenched, but it's hot and dry.

Hey, it's raining right now!

Subhanallah!  Alhamdulillah!  Allahuakbar!

(I'll tell you the significance of this odd occurence someday, but not here.  Trace back my letters to when I discuss a similar subject, and you will understand.)

Letter to Julia 20130207

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

As I told you once before, the human race is not the only dominant species on this planet.  There are 2 dominant species: the human race made out earth and water, and the jinn race made out of fire.  Islam is both real and surreal, and we Muslims learn from the Qur'an to be scientific, mathematical, and spiritual.  After all, since humans are finite then so is our knowledge and awareness, thus it is easy to take us by surprise from directions we do not perceive.  Whether you are aware of it or not, the jinns share our everyday life with us, and it cannot be denied.  It's like denying atheists exist doesn't make them go away.

Anyway, just like the humans, there are jinns who worship Allah, and jinns who do not.  There are jinns who speak lies about God, just as there are humans who seek shelter with and worship the jinns.  There are humans and jinns who think that Allah will never raise the dead, and there are humans and jinns who seek the secrets of heaven.  And their knowledge and awareness is also finite, so much that they have no idea what God intends to do with those on Earth.

Qur'an 20130207

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

20.  Say, "I do no more than invoke my Lord, and I join not with God any."

21.  Say, "It is not in my power to cause you harm, or to bring you to right conduct."

22.  Say, "No one can deliver me from Allah, nor should I find refuge except in God."

23.  Mine is only to convey what I receive from Allah and God's messages.  For any that disobey Allah and God's messenger, for them is hell, they shall dwell therein forever.

24.  At length, when they see that which they are promised, then they will know who it is that is weakest in helper, and least important in point of numbers.

25.  Say, "I know not whether that you are promised is near, or whether my Lord will appoint for it a distant term."

The Jinns 72:20-25
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I do no more than invoke my Lord, and I join not with God any.

It is not in my power to cause you harm, or to bring you to right conduct.

No one can deliver me from Allah, nor should I find refuge except in God.

I know not whether that you are promised is near, or whether my Lord will appoint for it a distant term.

Letter to Julia 20130206

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi there, my beautiful Julia.  And how are you feeling today?  I pray you are feeling healthy and confident.  I made some spaghetti yesterday.  Wow, it's been years since I had spaghetti!  It still tastes like spaghetti.  Apparently spaghetti is en vogue with the locals now, so I made a batch and gave a sample to a family friend so she could figure out a recipe for her restaurant.  I also taught her how to handle pasta.  Isn't it amazing how we take some things for granted, which are craved by others?  A spaghetti dinner is so blah in the USA, but highly coveted here.  No, I'm not going into food business again, insyaAllah.  Would you like some spaghetti, my darling?  Tomato sauce?  Alfredo sauce?  Stuffed pasta?

My dearest heart, you are my wife, and thus you are me.  Please be sure to maintain your prayers.

Qur'an 20130206

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

1.  Say, "It has been revealed to me that a company of Jinns listened.  They said, 'We have really heard a wonderful recital!'"

2.  It gives guidance to the Right, and we have believed therein: we shall not join any with our Lord.

The Jinns 72:1-2
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It has been revealed to me that a company of Jinns listened.  They said, "We have really heard a wonderful recital!"

Letter to Julia 20130204

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

OK OK you have very pretty teeth, much prettier than mine.  I am grateful to Allah that you have never tasted poverty.  Ya Allah, please protect my Julia, and please shield her from the hardships that were imposed upon me.  I do hope to finally get some proper dental work done in the near future, insyaAllah.  Whatever the case, I will never be able to catch up with you, and having fake teeth screwed into my skull is absolutely out of the question, because I have to protect my singing.  Ya Allah, please protects Julia and I, and the music You gave to me.

Letter to Julia 20130202

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Ah Julia, my heart.  It's been such a long time, my dearest heart.  How could I not be in deepest love with you, after all these years of such dedication.  And it spins on and over again, for I have chosen to love you, I have chosen you.  For you are my heart, you are the most beautiful girl in the world to me, layers and layers above all the beauty I have perceived, the first snowfall, the piercing brightness of the full moon, the parade of orange striped clouds marching towards a humid sunset.  All I have to offer you my love, are these words.  Until the time Allah grants me the means to give you a good married life, I watch you from my office chair, walking that distant runway.  I think about that time, when I get to get you, riding on that giant snake all the way there.  But it doesn't matter anymore, it's all too late.  I have given my life to you, and how could it be any other way?  Please pray for us, my dearest love, please ask Allah to have mercy on us.  I am your knight in armor of shadow, and you are my sweet, sweet love.