Zoolander

Oh, I saw Zoolander for the first time!  Well actually, I've seen flashes of the movie way back when I had cable TV, but I never sat through the entire movie for some reason.  I guess I'm not that into male models.  But I saw the whole movie a couple nights ago, and it is quite funny.  Prime Minister of Malaysia... oh please.  But I am sure you are quite and very literate with the computer, right?  You can meet me in Second Life someday, right?  For lunch today, I had coconut cream of mushroom soup with kale. Very tasty.  Want some?

You should know by now why you're so marketable, Natty.  It because everyone wants my girl.  That's because they know she's so totally HOT.  By the way, that shadow figure is the background is a cute idea and all, but it's not a blessing for me.  I need to make money so I can afford to be married and buy musical instruments.

Pina, you look totally cute in that outfit by Dolce and Gabbana!

Peace of mind

Hey Natty honey!  I haven't forgotten you.  How could I ever forget little old you?  Yesterday was the 4th anniversary of when I proposed to Erin.  I didn't have any money then, so I offered a song as dowry.  I still don't have any money, but I can't offer music as dowry anymore- it absolutely has to be a ring, so please forgive me.  Time and my heart crawls because I'm too broke to support wives, but as far as I understand, when things happen they happen FAST.  How are you feeling?  You've had the most incredible month of your entire life, I'm sure.  I wanna celebrate with you!  Go shopping!  Jump into bed with you!  You look like you have a lot of energy.  Don't be lonesome Sweetie, I'm with you.  Put your trust in God, and pray OK?

Do you like that song, Erin?  It was actually written by me and Ivo J Shanks.  I made an error on the copyright credit, because I forgot because I was pressed for time because I had to replace the power supply of my computer by October 3.  So the song is copyright Azham Abdullah and Ivo J Shanks.  The first version was recorded on a 4 track cassette tape recorder, oh my God, 29 years ago.  Ivo sang and I played guitar.  I wasn't very good back then, but that is the original guitar riff that you hear.  And I had absolutely no peace of mind.  22 years old, are you kidding?  Oh my God, I was only starting to get into trouble... oh my God, I haven't even started yet today...

I didn't know about the Vegas shooting until someone in the chat room told me, by that time the news was almost a day old.  Which is strange to me because I check the news several times a day, as often as I check on my wife.  So I showed up, without knowing, at the chat room in a red trench coat with white polka dots.  I took it off quickly (to reveal a rather slutty dress but I don't dress like this in real life), but I think I upset some people.  I read that the shooter was a multi-millionaire accountant, a normal Joe with no criminal history other than his dad being a dangerous felon.  I guess money doesn't bring peace of mind, so it kind of irritates me that almost everybody makes a big deal about money.  I guess money doesn't bring security, that's why some billionaires run for president.  Would he have done the deed if he had had righteous upbringing?  It is not righteous to murder innocent people, no matter what the extremists rationalize.

To my understanding, to be rid of all desire is the way to peace of mind.  To abandon the need for material things is the means to rid yourself of stress and desire.  In Islam, we are instructed to look past what is in this life, the world and materialism, in favor of the Hereafter.  Would you have peace of mind if you didn't have all the stuff you accumulated through years of hard work?  I want you to live comfortably, that is my responsibility.  But heaven is a better place.  In Islam, we are instructed that God is the Great Provider, and to worship and place our trust in God.  And death is the ultimate peace of mind, the great release from all the burdens of this world.  But only for the righteous- for the unrighteous, death is the beginning of more torment.  In Islam, we are instructed that we must be ready for death all the time, because death can come at any time.  Or are you seeking peace of mind from having to be a celebrity and life in the Public Eye?  Most celebrities crave that- normal people do not have concerns beyond making a living and raising a family.  Or are you seeking peace of mind from who you are and who I am?  Well, we don't want to be anyone else, do we?  We're having so much fun, right?  Whatever it is, you don't have to sit in a lotus position to empty your mind and think of nothing.  You can sit on the couch, lie in bed, or walk in the park and still be able to empty your mind and think of nothing.  Be aware that Buddhism is a religion.  To sit in the lotus position and meditate is an act of worship of Buddhism.  Buddha is not God, he was a man.   Buddhists worship the Buddha, not God.  If you choose the path of Buddha, then you abandon the path of God.  Do not abandon God, or God will abandon you.  True spiritual awareness is the realization of God.  To be righteous and aware of God at all times.  Therefore true peace of mind is a gift from God, because Allah is the Protector of the righteous.

 

 

 

 

Happy Anniversary, Erin

It has been 4 years since I proposed to you.  Since I don't have money to give you a ring, all I could offer you was the music.  Today, I still can't afford to give you a ring, a house, and a secure married life.  InshaAllah I will do so, I have faith that I will do so, and I hope you have faith and pray along with me.  Meanwhile, I hope that Allah has given you wealth through this music that Allah has not given me, as many other people make a living from this music as I have not.  Thank you for your love and for putting up with me and being patient with me.

Please forgive me because I don't have a ring to give you today.  Instead, on the occasion of our anniversary, I give the world this song called "Reputation Unknown."  It's a bit overdriven, so please turn down the volume when you listen to it.

I love you.

Yay!

I got my computer fixed!  I am back in action!  Woo hoo!  Rock and Roll!

Oh Erin, what is that thing!  It's so beautiful.  I thought it was the most beautiful fish tank at first.  Imagine if an aquarium looked like that... that would be hell to clean.  Yeah there's a lot of drama going on, and it's on a global scale.  You're excited, aren't you?  Just remember who you are, Erin honey.  You're my Rock and Roll Queen.  Stay in the eye of the hurricane.  Please pray.

Oh Natty, those emotions of yours!  You've had an absolutely awesome 2 weeks that few girls ever get to live out.  Now keep your cool and don't worry: I am with you, and I think of you always OK?  Don't lose yourself, and don't forget to pray.

Pina, I am well known in Japan mashaAllah.  People will think you are one of my wives.  Are you?

8 hours sleep

Yes, that is what I have been getting lately, since the power supply of my computer blew up, and I can't get on Second Life.  I've had so much free time at night, that I've opted for sleeping early.  I guess I should be feeling well rested, but was still worn out in the middle of my set during voice training.  That had more to do with house cleaning in the morning than lack of sleep.  I suppose sleeping more is more a hobby, something to do.  Right now I have lots to do.  While I write this, I'm cooking up some young coconut meat.  I want to see how well it softens, so I can make a dessert.  Also, I am encoding a video.  I am sure there is a lot of drama going on over there, so I hope you are watching it instead of participating in it.  Stay in the eye of the hurricane, Honey.

Wooo Natty!  Ow!  Ow!  Ow!  So sexy!  What beautiful legs!  I like it!

The cell phone and the portable computer

Wow.  My computer blew up its power supply, so I can't work at Second Life.  Suddenly, I have my nights free.  I spent last night catatonic and gaping, watching TV.  What to do with all this extra time?  Am I really a workaholic?  Do you want to make love?  I guess God has my taking a break of seclusion away from the crowd.  Second Life was getting either too faggy or too many young girls.  I prefer the company of my wife.  Well it seems that l have been forced into a greater isolation, so there is no more "meet and greet" for now.  The only way to connect with me is through my wife.

Oh, you're not here.  Duh.  I think I'll spend my nights playing bass while I watch TV, and work on the next album.  I already have the songs and the story written, but I need to clean it up.  I need to record it, of course.  I need a drum set.  Hey, I'm starting to get the hang of writing on this smartphone.  I like the word assist feature.  I used to use this smartphone as a phone, but I got sick of receiving calls while I was trying to play a game, so I took the SIM card out, and put it in a Nokia brick.  So I have a smartphone as a portable computer, and a phone that's just a phone.  My modem is also portable and a Wi-Fi transmitter, so I use that to connect to the Internet.  I've figured out how to upload files InshaAllah, so I can add some color to these posts.  I need a new computer, ya Allah!  Something that can handle virtual reality....

Natty, what beautiful shoulders you have.  What a dreamy apparition roaming the night you are.  And in Paris too.  What a fairytale.  I just want to reach out and lift your hair....  Oh no, I'm starting to sound like that Carlos guy!

Emergency news flash!

My computer blew up!  Oh dear, the power supply burst into flames.  There was a loud pop, and smoke, then it shut down.  I'm writing this letter on my smartphone right now.  In fact, all my Internet is being handled by my smartphone.  So Second Life is completely out of the question at this time.  I won't be posting many photos or videos either, so please forgive me if only my words seem inadequate.  I don't know when I will be able to get a new power supply.  InshaAllah this means I will be getting a new and better computer.  I hope all is well with you.  I love you.