I will always be with you

And thank you for your love.  A person of influence like you must sometimes take caution that when asserting influence, that it not backfire.  Trump has proven that he has neither strength, restraint nor integrity, but when he gets hammered on, people might feel sorry for him, and vote for him.  This is a very distinct possibility, so please restrain yourself unless it is absolutely necessary.  Another backfire is that it might get him killed, and we don't want to be like him right?

I will never get used to death.  Especially close ones, friends who cared deeply about the music.  It makes me sad to hear my parents talk to each other, and try to prepare the other for death.  My parents have been together all their lives.  Ya Allah, please give my parents long, happy lives.  It may sound like a cliche, but the best way to die is to say the right last words.  For a Muslim, the correct last words are "I bear witness that there is no god worthy of worship other than Allah, and I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah," preferably in Arabic.  This needs to be rehearsed.  Just because you say it 50 times a day, doesn't mean you will say it when you die.  You will be distracted.  You will hallucinate.  You will think it's a dream.  You will time travel.  You will forget.  Just because there will be people there to coax you to saying it, you will not see or hear them unless it be the Will of Allah.  Don't count on them.  You must practice dying, and saying the right words.  Practice, practice, practice.

Natty, you need to practice too.  Stand in front of the mirror in those high heels and pose.  Being on the red carpet is your job, so please do it well.  Practice, practice, practice.  Below are photos of frumpy people who should have stayed at home and eaten bon bons instead of being on the red carpet that day.

Lunch was noodles in soup again.

Congratulations Erin

On getting into the World Series.  Be the Champion!

Natty, I told you to carry yourself like a queen.  It's not simply a matter of putting your hand on your hip, and it doesn't matter if you're covering your shoulders: you've got to exude that aura!  Be the Queen!  I guess you're a modest person, which I like a lot.  I try to be modest too.  You and your gang looked kind of goth, though.  When you're on the red carpet, you're going to have to work it harder, my dear.  You can do it, Natty.  Check out the examples below.

New album

Is actually an old new album.  I put down the drum tracks for "Woo Hoo" in 2007.  Then I lost my job and my home plus most of my musical instruments, left the USA, then rebuilt the music with whatever Allah gave me.  It's been a slow process, but why release the music for people who don't listen?  Well, it has to be released: God's orders.  I've finished the instrumental tracks, now I have to do the vocals, then it will be technically done, aside from a technicality.

Natty, you like feet don't you?  You have pretty feet.  Here, I took a photo of my plastic sandals which I wear everyday, just for you.

Piene, you photograph so well in your everyday look!  It's so cute!  I wonder why the professional photographers haven't been able to capture that.

Rock and Roll Babe

The "Shadowplay" connection to the ballet... oh well.  A friend of mine gave me a book on Anthony Tudor many years ago, titled "Shadowplay".  I didn't see the connection, I still can't dance, my feet have gotten bigger, and I love women now more than ever.  What I did learn from the book is the attitude of "all-out-abandon".

Nat, you are my Rock and Roll Babe.  My Punk Rock Girl.  But sometimes you  look like you only wear Armani?

My Mom was suddenly admitted into hospital yesterday for observation, due to a slow heartbeat.  I was busy today dealing with her discharge.  Ya Allah, thank You for keeping my parents alive.  Have mercy on my parents as they cherished me in childhood.

The Nose

Erin, that Carlosdoc77 guy is just so CREEPY!

Oh Natty, I forgot you have a nose ring.  I guess it's OK with me Sweetheart, I chosen you already.  I couldn't have one of those things for myself though.  When I sing, a lot of my voice goes through the nose, so something like that would drive me insane.  I can't even stand having nose hairs.

Piene, congratulations on your promotion.  Please don't party too much while you're in England.  I don't want to marry a party girl.

Ice cream

A-L-L-A-H.  One would think that that name would come up often in Scrabble.  I believe the Scrabble value of that word is 8.  But where am I going to find concord grape and roasted pear flavored ice cream in this town?  You're teasing me.  I bought a vanilla and chocolate cone anyway.  You show off.

MashaAllah (by the Will of Allah) I am well known in China.  When the time comes for you to go to China, make sure you prepare your stomach and bring your mom along.  You're a beautiful girl, Nat.

Working hard? Being strong?

Hi Natty!  How's business?  I hope you are keeping safe, and having fun with your career.  I want you to please be patient now that big business is coming your way.  You're a sensitive girl, so please don't be greedy.  Wait until the food cools down a little before you put it in your mouth.

I've had a lingering cough from my fever last week.  I would have whipped it, but I ran out of cough medicine, so the phlegm regenerated and clogged up my lungs.  It's been raining all day every day lately, so I didn't get to buy more cough syrup until yesterday.  I still had a voice, so I had to voice train as usual.  The show must go on.  Stand my ground.  Sing for the sake of Allah.  Sing or die.  So I hacked and dry-heaved my way through voice training.  It must have sounded awful.  But I can't make excuses not to be strong, then make people pity me.  What kind of a man uses pity as a tool?  I'm sorry if it sounds macho, but I would rather fight than have people feel pity for me.  My enemies would laugh, then wipe out my family anyway.  People would think I'm impotent.