Letter to Julia 20121001

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia, my beloved young princess.  Are you working hard?  Please eat properly, and get sufficient rest.  I've been eating your portion since you haven't been coming for dinner, so I'm scared of getting bloated.  I used to drive around all over the state of Perlis on my motorcycle, but I stopped doing that, because my routine consumes all my time.  The wilderness and the kampung is all the beauty here, while the flat terrain makes Perlis great for bicycles and motorcycles.  Anything man-made, or "progress" here isn't as attractive.  What is attractive was that giant black monkey I saw.

I have to take back some of what I said in my last letter.  I would not want to redo "Shadowplay's Greatest Hits part 2: the 9 Skulls of Prejudice" because it's perfect the way it is.  Adding beautiful female vocals, even though haunting, would ruin the cd.  Plus, I need an almost endless list of musical and computer equipment, a list that evolves as time goes on.  Because creativity is dynamic.  Ya Allah, please grant me all the musical and computer equipment I desire.  I suppose what's most important right now is that I eliminate the dangerous daily commute to the internet cafe, so I would need a home high speed internet connection and a new computer specifically designed to handle only the internet and Second Life.  Oh, well.  InsyaAllah.  Please forgive me for my faults, and the men and women who believe.

Please forgive me for being so poor, and unable to support you as yet, my Julia.  Meanwhile, you had better please slow down.  I've slowed down my Victoria's Secret fashion show loop to 1 fps.  I have to admit it's very entertaining to watch Marisa inhale a donut in slow motion.  You are the prettiest girl of the bunch, because you are MY girl.  Everything you do is beautiful to me, and I love you so much.

Letter to Julia 20120929

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia, my beautiful young bride.  How are you feeling, my precious?  I'm just keeping busy trying to stay put.  Nobody really stays in one place anymore, so it actually takes a lot of effort to do just that.  Is there a lot of drama?  I don't know.  Let's just say that you wouldn't expect to get into heaven without Allah testing your faith.  I seek refuge with Allah, for me and my loved ones.

So right now, I'm remixing "Shadowplay's Greatest Hits part 3: the Struggle to be Normal" for wiser vocals.  Oh well, it's impossible to attain perfection on earth, but since I have the opportunity do try, then I might as well.  Damn whimsical artists.  I would redo the past 3 cds, but I need a drum set and a mixer with mucho microphones.  Ya Allah, please grant me so.  "Woo Hoo" is not necessary on the back burner.  It just needs to be slowed down: it was growing too quickly.

Why?  Because I need to be married to my Julia and raise our family together, and build this tourist attraction, by the Will of Allah.  And you, my beautiful Queen, please remember and be constantly aware of your position as my wife, is that we are allies of God, and that we are righteous people.  InsyaAllah.

Letter to Julia 20120927

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia.  It is I, your spouse-to-be, insyaAllah.  The one who loves you, and wants to marry you.  Well, the vet said that the cat had ulcers in her mouth, caused by a virus.  Aha.  She made me buy some drugs, and God willing, the cat will be healed.  Bat Cat is back to full energy, it seems.  Praise Allah, but he is soooo naughty.  He is tenaciously naughty, and fearless with a foul temper.  Perhaps Allah is giving me a preview of our son.  Are all boys like that?  It would be ludicrous for me to ask for and expect a perfect human being.  I hate young boys.  I'm the opposite of Michael Jackson.  I don't know if I want to have kids if they're going to be impossible.  I want to name our first son Muhammad, and our first daughter Mary.  You can name the rest of the kids.  It is traditional in Malaysia for Moms of all races to use a rattan cane to discipline their kids.  Are you the strict type of Mom?  I'm pretty easy-going, and forgiving.  The Prophet (peace be on him) said for parents to cane the kids at the age of 10 if they refuse to pray.  I believe prayer to be critically important, not just for Muslim couples and families like us, so I would follow that instruction.  I was a nightmare to my parents and teachers when I was a kid, and thoroughly hated by everyone in high school.  Perhaps if I had prayed regularly when I was young, I would be a better person today.

Ya Allah, please grant Julia and I beautiful, happy, healthy, and righteous children.  Anyway my beloved, don't be in a big hurry to convince the skeptical.  Who cares about them, anyway.  I am here to sing for Allah, and you are my wife.  Take your time, slow down.  I've slowed down my Victoria's Secret fashion show loop to about 2 frames a second.  Hee hee!  I love looking for unintentional mug shots, jinns, and secrets that Victoria didn't intend to reveal!

Letter to Julia 20120926

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Greetings, my beloved Julia.  How are you feeling today?  Me, I'm worrying over a cat again.  But this cat isn't mine, it's one of my brother's cats.  I just feed her.  She's having difficulty eating: everytime she eats something, she cries out in pain.  She's hardly eaten at all, she's gotten so thin.  I looked into her mouth, and it's all red, possibly bloody.  I think it could be mouth cancer.  So I have to take her to the vet before I blog this.  My Mom has been in hospital for cataract surgery.  She doesn't seem bothered by it: it seems to have gone smoothly.  Alhamdulillah.  Heh.  This is my life, bound by mundane routine.  Freedom had its fun, but I trade freedom for a chance for something more rewarding, in marriage.  To be with you, to love you, and be devoted to our family.

Letter to Julia 20120924

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

My dearest Julia, I'm still perfectly capable of doing my own laundry, even though I'm bad and lazy at it.  I can cook for myself, and I even clean up after myself, and others, when I'm forced to.  I don't don't want to consume your hard earned money, for what I want is my own wealth that comes directly from Allah.  InsyaAllah.  So I can take good care of you.  I am here to give you love, stability, and your own family.  A family to call your own, a family to belong to.  There is no other "Mrs. Abdullah".  I have never been married.  Our Lord is Allah, and Muslim women keep their names when they marry, so you will always be Julia Stegner.  By the way, "Mrs. Abdullah" would mean my father's wife.  But Julia, I love you.  I am perfectly satisfied with just you for this life, and the hereafter.  InsyaAllah.  I need to be married.  I want to marry you.

Letter to Julia 20120922

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia, my beloved young bride! It's been a busy Friday for me, doing mundane things.  I started the morning growling and swearing, though I normally don't bitch so much, because it took me forever to get out the door.  I'm just not a morning person.  Then, I was drowning in a sea of cats.  MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW etc.  Since I can't go to town on Friday because of Friday prayer, I decided to do some house cleaning for my parents, so as to cut my Sunday workload in half, so as not to get a heart attack trying to get all the Sunday work done before voice training at 2pm.  Why must I do voice training at the same time everyday, you may ask?  Because I'm trying to create a tourist attraction, that's why.  But I just can't hang with all the laundry and ironing.  I hate laundry and ironing.  It hurts my feet.  Bat Cat hates my feet.  He keeps attacking them, and I don't blame him.  My feet are trashed.  What to eat?  Leftovers, which I usually have plenty of, because I always cook for us, because I love you.  It's been a busy Friday, just doing stuff.  I just finished mending my pants.  That's another thing I'm bad at, besides house cleaning, laundry, and ironing, is sewing.  I can't hold a needle and thread without tensing up.  I'm afraid you rule the rag trade in the family, my dearest Julia.

Qur'an 20120922

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

2.  The revelation of the Book is from Allah, the Exalted in Power, full of Wisdom.

3.  We created not the heavens and the earth, and all between them but for just ends, and for a term appointed.  But those who reject Faith turn away from that whereof they are warned.

4.  Say, "Do you see what it is you invoke besides Allah?  Show me what it is they have created on earth, or have they a share in the heavens?  Bring me a Book before this, or any remnant of knowledge, if you are telling the truth!"

5.  And who is more astray than one who invokes, besides Allah, such as will not answer him on the Day of Judgment, and who are unconscious of their call?

6.  And when mankind are gathered together, they will be hostile to them, and reject their worship.

7.  When Our Clear Signs are rehearsed to them, the unbelievers say of the Truth when it comes to them, "This is nothing but evident sorcery!"

8.  Or do they say, "He has forged it"?  Say, "Had I forged it, then can you obtain nothing for me from Allah.  God knows best whereof you talk!  Enough is God for a witness between me and you!  And God is Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful."

9.  Say, "I am no bringer of new doctrine among the messengers, nor do I know what will be done with me, or with you.  I follow that which is revealed to me by inspiration.  I am but a Warner, open and clear."

10  Say, "Do you see?  If this be from Allah, and you reject it, and a witness from among the Children of Israel testifies to its similarity, and has believed while you are arrogant.  Truly, Allah guides not a people unjust."

Winding sand-tracts 46:2-10
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Do you see what it is you invoke besides Allah?  Show me what it is they have created on earth, or have they a share in the heavens?  Bring me a Book before this, or any remnant of knowledge, if you are telling the truth!

Had I forged it, then can you obtain nothing for me from Allah.  God knows best whereof you talk!  Enough is God for a witness between me and you!  And God is Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful.

I am no bringer of new doctrine among the messengers, nor do I know what will be done with me, or with you.  I follow that which is revealed to me by inspiration.  I am but a Warner, open and clear.

Do you see?  If this be from Allah, and you reject it, and a witness from among the Children of Israel testifies to its similarity, and has believed while you are arrogant.  Truly, Allah guides not a people unjust.

Qur'an 20120919

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

22.  Allah created the heavens and the earth for just ends, and in order that each soul may find the recompense of what it has earned, and none of them be wronged.

23.  Then do you see such a one that takes as his god his own vain desire?  Allah has knowingly left him astray, and sealed his hearing and his heart, and put a cover on his sight.  Who then, will guide him after Allah?  Will you not then receive admonition?

24.  And they say, "What is there but the life of this world?  We shall die and we live, and nothing but time can destroy us."  But of that they have no knowledge: they merely conjecture.

25.  And when Our Clear Signs are rehearsed to them, their argument is nothing but this: they say, "Bring our
forefathers, if what you say is true!"

26. Say, "It is Allah who gives you life, then gives you death.  Then God will gather you together for the Day of Judgment about which there is no doubt."  But most men do not understand.

The kneeling down 45:22-26
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It is Allah who gives you life, then gives you death.  Then God will gather you together for the Day of Judgment about which there is no doubt.

letter to Julia 20120920

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful

Hi Julia, my beloved!  How are you feeling today?  Molten indecision?  Me, I'm getting old, and losing my mind.  I'm sorry I didn't blog yesterday, because it was raining heavily.  And today, I forgot my flash drive, so I have to type everything in again.  If I don't post a letter everyday, it's not because I don't love you.  I love you with all my heart.  I love you, and I want to marry you.  You are the one I love, and I choose to marry you.  It's just sometimes I just can't make it to town to the internet cafe to blog.  And I usually don't go on Fridays because of Friday prayer, and on Sundays I have to clean my parents' house.  Please forgive me.

Letter to Julia 20120918

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello again, my beloved young Julia.  I do so love you, and I do so long to marry you, but right now all I have to offer you are these letters, so please forgive me.  You are the most beautiful girl in the world to me, and you are all I could ever dream of in a girl.  Please have patience with me until Allah grants me my own wealth, so I can afford to give you a good married life.  I love you.

Letter to Julia 20120917

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello there, my dearest princess Julia!  How are you feeling today, my love?  Smile!  Say, did you know that I share the same birthday as Karolina Kurkova?  Does it mean that if you were to make love to me, it would be the same as making love to Karolina Kurkova?  Errr... no, I don't think so.  But I think I can safely say that I have a bigger one than Karolina.  It's not great, but it's bigger than hers.

I saw a big ass snake in my yard yesterday.  I had just finished voice training, and it had just stopped raining.  That's when all the beasts become super active, is when it just stops raining.  It was a dark snake about 2m long, with dark stripes, and it was crawling along the brick wall that separates my house and my parents' house.  I went to get a weapon, and I got an extra long bamboo, and went back to tackle the snake.  By then it had propped itself against the front wall in an L shape by the big mango tree, and it was staring at me.  It wasn't aggressive, but I think it was waiting for me to make the first move, and since it was braced against the wall, it could push hard to jump at me.  I got the wrong weapon: I couldn't hit it from the top, right, or left because of the wall and the tree.  I could only attack it with a forward thrust, and the bamboo was too weak for that.  Plus the snake would have a chance for counter-attack if I had missed.  So I rattled the leaves of the mango tree to let it slip away, then went for a heavier weapon: a long steel bar with a flat spade head.  I went around the wall to kill it from the other side, but it had gone, or gone hiding.  Grrrr.

Certainly there are the type of people who are stubborn, and pretend they didn't hear instructions being given by the Qur'an, and the Signs of God being rehearsed in front of them, and they joke about it.  Let them laugh at their own unprofitable business.  But you are righteous, so you must forgive those who do not look forward to the Days of Allah, whether those days be now or the hereafter.

Letter to Julia 20120915

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia, my love!  Oh dear, it's been 3 days since I wrote.  I try to write everyday as I try to maintain my web presence everyday on SL, but that's the problem: this blog is too public for something as private as an intimate relationship.  I mean, I would rather for us to be face to face, so I can reach out and kiss you.  Mwah!

But the reason for the gap in love lettering, is that poor little Batty kitten caught a fever from all the strange weather going on right now, and lost his appetite, which made his mommy (me) frantic.  As you know, since Bat Cat is a citizen of Malaysia, he enjoys subsidized veterinary care from the Department of Animal Control.  I was about to take him to the vet on Thursday, but it was a good thing that I didn't, because the Crown Prince of Perlis threw a party on the local premises of the Department of Animal Control, so the place was closed.  But I managed to take him there today, and the vet gave him a feline flu shot, and he seems to be almost back to his normal energetic self.  Even though he allowed himself to be cuddled more when he wasn't feeling well, it's nice to have my squirmy little Batty Watty back.  Alhamdulillah!

Letter to Julia 20120912

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hey Julia, how are you feeling today?  A bit serious, maybe?  Well, I'm sorry but I ate your mushburger last night since you weren't here for dinner.  Mushroom burgers and fries are all I can afford right now.  When Allah grants me my own wealth InsyaAllah, I'll make you a foie gras burger or a caviar burger.

It's a clear sky this morning, with a smiling moon, and crisp, clean air.  Amazing, that everything was once smoke or gas in the beginning.  But I'm sure the smoke never really left, and that it will return.  Alhamdulillah!  Bat Cat is growing up quickly.  He was a very courteous cat in the beginning, but now that he's gaining strength, he's becoming very bold and aggressive.  He's a good cat though, in fact he's a one in a million cat, because he's a mouser.  That means he automatically outranks all the cats in the family.  It takes a certain personality in a cat to be a mouser, it can't be trained or bred.  He kills cockroaches, too.  He's so macho: he won't let himself be snuggled anymore even though he's still cute.  Not unless I'm checking him for fleas.  He is litter box trained, but since he's a male cat, he's going to intimidate the mice with his tag.  And I can't fix him, because I don't want to change his personality.  So if you want to leave him in the house to get rid of vermin, be prepared to clean up his tag.  Ya Allah, please protect and bless my Batty.

Letter to Julia 20120911

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello my love, Julia.  Are you hungry?  How are you feeling today?  I pray you are not working too hard, and taking things easy.

Ah, flat noodles!  Here it's called "keow teow", not necessarily pronounced the way it's spelled.  The problem with flat rice noodles is that it's so fragile!  It needs to be pre-separated, it breaks easily, it bloats easily, and it mulches into a clumpy mess way too easily.  Of course you know all this, but with your gentle and intelligent fingers, you can overcome the physical setbacks of keow teow.  My problem with keow teow is that I only like it within one context or recipe: the fried combination of cockles, keow teow, egg, and bean sprouts.  And that's what I cooked for dinner tonight.  I seek the perfect blend of all said ingredients!  The fond was too complicated, but I came close to the perfect blend, except that it needed heat, or hot pepper sauce somewhere in the process.  You want to try it?  Remember, cockles and bean sprouts rule this combo!  I stuffed myself silly, and put your portion in the cooler.  Yeah, I always cook for you, Julia!  If you happen to spy on my kitchen when I'm cooking, you will know that I always cook for you.  Then I realize I'm alone, so I eat your portion as leftovers.

You Julia, my wife, are truly a blessing from Allah, and I love you with all my heart.  And to all who believe in God, that is how you must view your wife, as a blessing.

Letter to Julia 20120909

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello, and happy Sunday, beautiful Julia.  I don't normally blog on Sunday, because I usually spend Sundays cleaning my parents' house.  But my parents are currently on vacation, and I did some cleaning on Friday morning (another day when I usually don't blog because of Friday prayer), so I guess I'm here today.

Let me share with you a little of what I know about Jesus (peace be on him).  Jesus (peace be on him) was sent to the Jews, as Muhammad (peace be on him) was sent to the Arabs.  The return of Jesus (peace be on him) will be a Sign of Judgement Day.  The purpose of the return of Jesus (peace be on him) is to kill the Antichrist (in Arabic known as the Dajjal), and help clean up the mess caused by the Antichrist and others.  This will be the final period of peace before Judgement Day.

"Entertaining", huh?

Qur'an 20120909

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

78. Verily We have brought the Truth to you, but most of you have a hatred for Truth.

79. What? Have they settled some plan? But it is We who settle things.

80. Or do they think that We hear not their secrets, and their private counsels? Indeed! And Our messengers are by them, to record.

81. Say, "If the Most Gracious had a son, I would be first to worship."

The Gold Adornments 43:78-81
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If the Most Gracious had a son, I would be first to worship.

Letter to Julia 20120908

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi my precious young Julia?  How's the fashion biz, boss?  Hey, it's your playing field, my lady.  I just so happen to like miniskirts and dresses for my avatar, but that's just me.  Real life is a totally different situation.  I guess this means that you should be paid to wear clothes!

I don't want to be misleading as to say that a feminine voice should be baritone, because that isn't true.  My voice is multi-spectrum, but it is the will of Allah that makes it so, and feminine.  Femininity cannot be defined with rhetoric.  Is it attitude, or is it God given?  I chuckle when pagans and atheists believe in sorcery over God.  I believe that God is very mathematical and precise.  It's more likely than most people are bad at math, and the mathematicians are bad at the Qur'an.

Letter to Julia 20120906

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello Julia, my beloved.  I hope I'm not boring you with these mundane letters, but I write because I love you, and I want you to be assured of that.  Plus, in this situation, saying something is better than saying nothing.  Because you are my love.  Perhaps when we are face to face insyaAllah, we can start communicating telepathically.

It started raining yesterday, after over a week of blistering hot weather.  I was watering my Mom's plants out in the sun for 5 minutes, and I got burned!  As you know, my voice is quite bassey, even at high pitches.  But I found a digital pre-amp on the karaoke circuit of my dvd player that had a preset noise gate, compressor, and eq that cut the bass in my voice so as to make my chick singer vocals sound more feminine.  So I thought.  Then I had to rearrange all my electronics and computers to make room for the new color TV my parents gave me, and I didn't have a long enough cord for my dvd player to reach my vocal amp.  So I had to sing without any color or processing.  Then it started to rain, and it is still raining right now.  I suppose Allah considers my bassey voice better, or even more feminine.

Letter to Julia 20120905

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

So for dinner last night, I barbecued a pair of chicken breasts that I bought at the night market on Monday for us.  My Mom is on vacation, so I'm house sitting for her, and she left a whole lot of perishable foods in her cooler, even though I told her not to.  So rather than let it rot and stink up the cooler, I used up the food.  Which included some long, red peppers, and a whole pot of peanut sauce, that is supposed to be eaten with pressed rice.  So I wrapped the chicken breasts with the long red peppers, and used the peanut sauce as barbecue sauce.  It worked out quite well, it was very fragrant, but it did not burn well, so the burnt parts were inedible.  The chicken on the whole was awesome, but one of the breasts did not cook all the way.  So I suppose it was a good thing you weren't here for dinner last night.  I'll just make sure the meat is cooked all the way when I have it for lunch the next day.  Wish you were here.

Letter to Julia 20120904

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello, my beloved young Julia.  How are you feeling today?  I pray you are taking it easy, and doing well.  Traffic has been really dangerous lately.  Are you close by, perchance?  I say that because men are being extra aggressive with me now.  Sigh.  But I don't think it's because of you: these men look kind of gay.  Sigh again.  Perhaps they should get together with each other, and leave me alone.  I want my Julia.

Qur'an 20120904

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

136.  Say you, "We believe in Allah, and in the revelation given to us, and to Abraham, Ismail, Isaac, Jacob, and the descendents, and that given to Moses and Jesus, and that given to prophets from their Lord, we make no difference between one and another of them, and we are Muslims."

The Heifer 2:136

Letter to Julia 20120903

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia!  How are you feeling?  I love you!  I haven't much to report today except that my parents gave me a new color TV!  Alhamdulillah!  God answered my prayer, and granted me a color TV.  It's a nice TV too, one of those new led monitors.  I can watch Shadowplay TV in HD!  Well, the data is low definition, but my Victoria's Secret fashion show loop is HD.  My sweetie in HD!  Now I need a Mercedes-Benz, and a regular night gig out on the town.  You can have the Mercedes-Benz, Julia.  All I need is a small local car.  And a truck for hauling my drums and tube stack.  Thanks Mom and Dad!  Glory to God Who has subjected these to ours, for we could never have accomplished this.