Letter to Julia 20120426

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

I swear my house is being taken over by the cats lately.  First of all, my kitty is Chee Cheh.  She's an adorable little kitty who loves a good conversation, especially over breakfast and dinner.  I took her to the vet yesterday.  The poor thing seems to have a chronic fungal problem.  She's so sensitive to moisture, she gets an outbreak whenever it rains a lot, and it has been raining a lot lately, including yesterday.  She's blessed that cats in Malaysia get subsidized veterinary care from the Department of Animal Control, so I only had to pay for her medicine.  The vet showed me how to put a big pill in her mouth to swallow, by holding her neck with the pinkie and ring fingers, and holding her muzzle with the rest of the fingers on the left hand, then opening her mouth with the middle finger of the right hand while the right thumb and forefinger hold the pill.  Well, the vet made it look easy, but I couldn't get the cat to stop squirming.  She said I was being too rough.  Who?  Little ol' me?

As I told you once a while ago, my house used to be inhabited by a gang of cats.  They belong to my brother, and my parents feed them, so they usually hang out next door.  Lately, they've been congregating on my porch, and setting up guard at my front door.  4 cats.  Then there's this other cat with brown striping and a stubby tail that loves to yowl, "Oh oh oh oh oooohhhh" outside my window.  I think he belongs to a girl down the street who probably planted him here.  Then there's this white wildcat, an independent fellow who has lost the shine in his left eye, and he just loves to harass the gang of cats.  Well, somebody tagged my right sandal: when I went out to take Chee Cheh to the vet this morning, I stepped into a sandal drenched in cat pee.  Hey, I'm not being fought over as prime cat property!  I finally got rid of all those fighting chickens outside my bedroom window, now the cats are battling there.

Now, you have probably noticed how Islam today comprises of many different sects, just how Christianity today comprises of many different types of churches, and you are wondering who to trust thereof.  Prophet Muhammad (peace be on him) predicted this long ago.  We are instructed not to join any partners in worship to Allah, and this is taken very seriously by Allah.  If you read 30:31-32 of the Qur'an, those who split up their religion into sects are considered to have joined partners with Allah.  Leave the sects alone.  That is our mutual right, let them go about their business, ignore what they say to you, and Allah will deal with them directly.  Trust only in the Qur'an and the teachings of prophet Muhammad (peace be on him), and leave out the gossip and the opinions.

Letter to Julia 20120425

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

My dearest Julia, I want you to know that I love you dearly, and I am so very grateful for you, for your feelings, and to Allah for creating a woman as beautiful as you.  You are my sweet love, and I love you dearly, my Julia.  I know mere words are too little and not enough, but thank you for your love.

As for work, I suppose I have to fit SL into my budget somehow, but alas my poverty this time as other times has an effect on my community service.  Heh heh.  Now don't get me wrong, I do so enjoy my time on SL, even though I could sure use more shoes and dance animations.  But I'm afraid I'm going to have to reduce my time on SL by 80%.  That means only one nightclub per day.  No more club hopping?!!  Darn!  I just wanna dance!  I really need to be online most of the time, but I only have one computer and no home internet service.  Darn!  I just wanna dance!

A similitude to the Signs of God is: do you have servants who share in the wealth that Allah has endowed upon you?  Do you fear them as you fear each other?  The wrongdoers are the ones who follow their own lusts, being devoid of knowledge.  But who can guide those who Allah leaves astray?  So set yourself firmly towards the faith.

Letter to Julia 20120423

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hello dearest Julia.  How are you feeling today?  It is HOT over here, and I've been burning, and burning trash.  Ancient trash, piles of wood pillars and coconuts probably 20 years old.  PeeeYOOO!!  Big house, little house.  The rotting insides of coconuts smells like vomit.  It's too hot.  The night is hot as well.  My hair is too long. I need a haircut.  Too bad this body doesn't look good with a Dutch bob anymore.  It used to.  Gag.  I suppose there's no way to have strength and a dainty body as well.  At least I get to be pretty in SL.

BUt I don't know how much time I get to spend playing SL right now.  I know it's community service and all, plus I get to be pretty, but I need to buy chicken, beef and gasoline, and save up for my power bill.  Life is on the edge anyway, so I might as well play SL.  I don't know.  Ya Allah, please let me have money do I can work properly and marry my Julia!

Dearest Julia, you are the girl I love.  You are so beautiful, and you are all I could ever pray for in a girl.  Please don't pay any attention to those who take the Signs of God in ridicule.  Evil in the long run is the end of those who do evil.  Please maintain your prayers in the morning, afternoon, late afternoon, sunset and evening.  InsyaAllah, we will be together in happiness, safety and comfort soon.

This song is so sad.  The bass player might seem annoying, but he'd just mixed too loud.

Letter to Julia 20120421

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful. Hi there my beautiful, gorgeous girl. How are you feeling, Julia? I am wishing you are with me, of course. I've been thinking "little house, big house" a lot. Oh, I know what you are thinking, so there is no need for you to bluff me. I love you! I really, really like this little house. **smiles**

The problem with the drug culture is money, money, MONEY: it is a business. It is a product with massive demand, and it is a business that permeates all business, though you may never see it on the boards at a stock exchange. Therefore the mask of the drug dealer has many layers: public relations, bankers, lawyers, accountants, politicians, etc etc. And it is global: just because your favorite junkie smokes his dope on a stump in a thicket by a rice field, doesn't mean that his stash wasn't grown in South America or Afghanistan. How did it get here? How did it get so accessible? It is an organized business. This means that it can only be controlled by government agencies. And it is a culture, a way of life, and therefore there is pressure from friends. Sigh. Money, money, MONEY.

So, if one could be clever enough not to get caught by the authorities, then there always a huge amount of money to be made in selling drugs. And even if one does get "caught", there is still the judicial process to manipulate, and it is not necessary for one to be directly involved with it: one could just send a scapegoat or a small fish to the gallows in one's place. This is an organized business, and business protocol is followed in all due seriousness so the consumer always has access to the product of their choice. Then there are the lawful drugs, and new drugs. Alcohol. Some people will do whatever it takes to get high, hence the massive demand. A friend of mine once said that "getting high is being close to death". Every soul shall have a taste of death, and doing drugs is one way of getting there. The feeling of power, the increased awareness, love, happiness and peace, the enhanced sights, sounds, and sensations, is all in search of for the perfect feeling, a glimpse of heaven, therefore a taste of death. But perfection is impossible in this life, so they have to rely on drugs to get a taste of that feeling, and they take more to get closer and closer, when it is death that they are getting closer to.

Yes, perfection is impossible in this life, so the best anyone can get is a taste of the perfect feeling, and you don't need drugs for that. Patience can balance out the rest of the time when there isn't natural ecstasy.

Letter to Julia 20120419

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Hi Julia, my beloved rock and roll princess. You must be staying busy, and so am I. Be sure to eat properly and maintain your prayers. I have been so busy everyday. I spend my mornings in nightclubs (heh heh), then I rehearse for 2 hours, then I have to do yard work, and at night I have to watch Shadowplay TV (heh heh), plus I have to prepare my own meals. My legs hurt, but I have to stand and sing, I don't know why, but I am compelled to do so. Yes, I also have been working on "Woo Hoo", very SLOWLY. Hey, it's WORK!

I recently acquired a taste for fresh cashews. Not cashew nuts, but the yellowish white meat of cashews. My Mom isn't too pleased about this because I've been picking the fruit from her tree. But cashews, onions and salt seem to go with everything. I had them with my chicken and bean burritos last night. Yummy. I've been trying to grow new cashew trees, but have met with dismal failure. One of my 2 seedlings was killed by a chicken (which in turn got killed by another chicken), and the other was killed by someone going to a wedding.

It is not blood or money that reaches God: it is your piety that reaches God. And that is the Good News for the faithful.

Qur'an 20120419

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

49. No, here are Signs self-evident in the hearts of those endowed with knowledge, and none but the unjust reject Our Signs.

50. Yet they say, "Why are not Signs sent down to him from his Lord?" Say: "The Signs are indeed with Allah, and I am indeed a clear warner."

51. And is it not enough for them that We sent down to you the Book which is rehearsed to them? Verily, in it is Mercy and a Reminder to those who believe.

52. Say: "Enough is Allah for a Witness between me and you: God knows what is in the heavens and on earth, and it is those who believe in vanities and reject Allah, that will perish."

53. They ask you to hasten on the Punishment: had it not been for a term appointed, the Punishment would certainly have come to them, and it will certainly reach them- of a sudden, while they perceive not!

54. They ask you to hasten on the Punishment: but of a surety, hell will encompass the rejecters of Faith!

55. On the Day that the Punishment shall cover them from above them and from below them, and shall say: "Taste you of your deeds!"

56. O My servants who believe! Truly spacious is My Earth, therefore serve you Me!

57. Every soul shall have a taste of death: in the end to Us shall you be brought back.

58. But those who believe, and work deeds of righteousness- to them shall We give a Home in Heaven: lofty mansions which flow rivers, to dwell therein for aye- an excellent reward for those who do!

59. Those who persevere in patience, and put their trust in their Lord and Cherisher.

60. How many are the creatures that carry not their own sustenance? It is Allah who feeds them and you, for God hears and knows.

61. If indeed you ask them who has created the heavens and the earth, and subjected the sun and the moon, they will certainly reply, "Allah". How are they then deluded away?

62. Allah enlarges the sustenance to whichever of God's servants God pleases: and God grants by measure, for Allah has full knowledge of all things.

63. And if indeed you ask them who it is that sends down rain from the sky, and gives life therewith to the earth after its death, they will certainly reply, "Allah!" Say: "Praise be to Allah!" but most of them understand not.

The Spider 29:49-63
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The Signs are indeed with Allah, and I am indeed a clear warner.

Enough is Allah for a Witness between me and you: God knows what is in the heavens and on earth, and it is those who believe in vanities and reject Allah, that will perish.

Praise be to Allah!

Letter to Julia 20120418

In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.

How are you today, my dearest beauty? Oh my Julia, you are the most beautiful girl in the world to me, you are all I could ever dream of in a girl. I long to be with you, and I long for a long and happy life, and afterlife together. I pray you are taking good care of yourself, and that you are maintaining your prayers. I wasn't scolding you last time, my dearest. You know I love you, perhaps I was simply longing too much for you. It is simply that since where I am and what I am doing here is the cutting edge of music insyaAllah, then anything and everywhere else is not. That would make anything and everywhere else the trend followers instead of the trend setters. Sure, I need money to marry you, because I want to give you the best life and love. But meanwhile, you will miss the most of the expansion of this phenomenon, and most importantly the point of expansion.

But Allah is the Master Creator, so all the credit goes to God. The music comes from God, and will return to God. It's nothing really new either, just like everything else out there is some sort of recycled hash. Here, it's just a bunch of ghosts and weather distortion. Just like the destruction of cities and communities is nothing new. And much of the shit that I recorded and composed in the past is just shit, which by they way, does NOT have my consent to be released posthumously (I mean ALL of it, people). It's like watching TV, and you would switch to a channel at some random moment that has a show that resonates with what is happening to your life at the moment, and the show is 20 years old. Perhaps what is fascinating is what people perceive as random. Louise Brooks once preached that, "Everything happens by chance, and it is the people who think they have everything under control that get into the most trouble." She was right about control, but I don't think that chance exists. Putting aside theology for a moment, may Allah forgive me, I don't believe that "random" exists. This comes from working with computers all my life. What is "random" is actually a program, or a mathematical equation. After all, the machine needs to be told what to do, so what is "random" has to be programmed. In real life, an occurence that is "random" is the end of a sequence of events which could have originated from a point far away or at the same place at some different time which carries some sort of emotional meaning to the observer. If there is no observer, or if the observer doesn't care, then the event is meaningless. Increase of entropy becomes negligible with the vast expansion of space to the point where only space is able to be observed and not its entropy. Then consider the doors to more space where entropy can be sucked away, like black holes. And the Big Bang could be a white hole, or the explosion of a black hole, for what black hole can hold infinite mass? The white hole being an event among many similar events which create order out of chaos. So the universe is actually a multiverse, with various loops of sequence of events, for anyone who cares enough to notice. And chaos itself eventually reverts to order. The broken cup pieces itself together again and jumps back onto the table in the next life. But humans want to think of a universe with a beginning and end because humans are born and die. Allah is Eternal.

So we go back to theology, of course there is absolutely a Judgement Day. Humans die, and that is a Judgement Day. The extinction of the human race is a Judgement Day. The observer of theology is the human being. Of course humans will be raised again to life after death. Just as they were born in the first place, or wouldn't have been born if the sperm had swum elsewhere. Flesh and bones are put together in a sequence of events, and taken apart in another sequence of events. And the emotional meanings, and the actions thereof, of the humans is what is judged on THE Judgement Day.

I love you, Julia.