In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi Erin. Hi Princess! Please try to keep your nose clean, OK? Erin, I saw your pretty little NYC home. It's so pretty! It's the perfect reflection of you and who you are. It's so clean. I look around me, and I see the contrast between our homes. You're so civilized, and I'm such a Neanderthal. It's must have been uncomfortable for you to display your home to the Public Eye, so I will say "Thank You" on behalf of everybody. You have a beautiful home, and a talent for interior design.
It occurs to me that you need to supervise the building of your house inshaAllah. It is your house after all and by the Qur'an, I'm the guy that has to finance it. I don't mind, because I love you and need you. I've taken for granted that you have your house plan, just make sure you try to fit it in the dimensions I gave you. I have no problem with your being here to oversee the construction of your house, if I could restrain myself from grabbing you and making out with you. We have to be married first! The old house which stands on the site of your house inshaAllah, has plenty of old wood which may be reclaimed if you see fit. I will try to save them for you as neatly as I can. I have a picture in my head of how beautiful you are in your beautiful new house, and you would find me sleeping on the floor somewhere, in front of a computer.
Those astrologers told me many years ago that a union of 2 dreamers is no good, because we wouldn't be able to keep the wolf away from the door. What a bunch of shit. So let's be practical. The land for your house would cost about RM100000. The property I live on right now (which belongs to my aunt) would cost about half of that for me to own. A 2 karat diamond ring at Tiffany's is at least USD12600 (and you would have to be the one to buy it, since they won't sell it to me). The construction of your house would be about RM500000, even with reclaimed wood. Plus legal and living expenses, which would be ongoing. And what do I do? My mission is to please Allah with music. At this time, I am in danger of eviction at any time. So if I fail to pay for your house, get evicted from my house and fail to pay for our marriage, then my mission here has failed, and I would have to go somewhere else, assuming I survive. Nobody can save me from the wolf, because I am the wolf.
What do I mean by that? I know, with Allah as my witness, of the power of this music by the Will of Allah which I have to bear. But no one here has spoken to me of the music, except my parents. I'm not a prophet, so I cannot say that Allah would avenge me. The closest analogy in the Qur'an which I can compare myself to is the she-camel of Allah, which was hamstrung. I can only keep creating and communicating this music until I am silenced. And I know for certain that the world is watching and listening.
What's practical here is the leap of faith. I belong to Allah, and if I don't make it with you here in this life then I will catch you in the next, but I have faith that Allah will bring us together and resolve our affair for us. But we have to work. That is what I do. I work. Did you think this music is easy? A hobby?
Friday, March 11, 2016
Qur'an 20160312
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
26. Say, "O Allah! Lord of Power, You give power to whom You please, and You strip off power from whom You please. You endue with honor whom You please, and You bring low whom You please. In Your hand is all Good. Verily, over all things You have Power."
(The Family of Imran 3:26)
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26. Say, "O Allah! Lord of Power, You give power to whom You please, and You strip off power from whom You please. You endue with honor whom You please, and You bring low whom You please. In Your hand is all Good. Verily, over all things You have Power."
(The Family of Imran 3:26)
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Thursday, March 10, 2016
Letter to Erin 20160311
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello, my Queen. Hi Princess! I believe I have a sense of how you are feeling right now, because I can feel it too. I want you to know that you are so beautiful to me, you are the most beautiful girl in the world, and I love you with all my heart. I miss you very much, and I wish I were there with you. To talk with you, to go out and eat together, to sit on a bench together and watch the clouds and the birds, to hold you and kiss you, to make love to you, because I love you very much, and you mean the world to me. My most beautiful Queen, you are my heart. Everyday I think of you all day, I pray for you, I pray that you are doing well and are happy with your life and with me, because I need you. I want the best for you my darling. Please do not feel lonely, because I am with you all the time, and we will be together, inshaAllah. You are my love.
Then we can have pizza later. It's pizza night again! Sausage and basil! Oh no, why am I eating pizza all the time lately? I have a routine for making pizza at home with cheap cheese taste better than the delivered stuff. One talent that Allah gave me is the ability to elevate the mediocre, alhamdulillah. And those are the ingredients that are available to me, so I mix them up into something tasty. But why am I eating pizza every day? Am I turning into a politician? Oh no! Please, no! I'm a musician, not a politician.
Hello, my Queen. Hi Princess! I believe I have a sense of how you are feeling right now, because I can feel it too. I want you to know that you are so beautiful to me, you are the most beautiful girl in the world, and I love you with all my heart. I miss you very much, and I wish I were there with you. To talk with you, to go out and eat together, to sit on a bench together and watch the clouds and the birds, to hold you and kiss you, to make love to you, because I love you very much, and you mean the world to me. My most beautiful Queen, you are my heart. Everyday I think of you all day, I pray for you, I pray that you are doing well and are happy with your life and with me, because I need you. I want the best for you my darling. Please do not feel lonely, because I am with you all the time, and we will be together, inshaAllah. You are my love.
Then we can have pizza later. It's pizza night again! Sausage and basil! Oh no, why am I eating pizza all the time lately? I have a routine for making pizza at home with cheap cheese taste better than the delivered stuff. One talent that Allah gave me is the ability to elevate the mediocre, alhamdulillah. And those are the ingredients that are available to me, so I mix them up into something tasty. But why am I eating pizza every day? Am I turning into a politician? Oh no! Please, no! I'm a musician, not a politician.
Wednesday, March 9, 2016
Letter to Erin 20160310
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi there! Hi there! Are you feeling good? It's as hot as ever here. I need another AC. It must be close to spring over there. I miss the cool weather, and spring and fall. I want to thank you for keeping your nose clean. It matters to me, because I want you to be at your best and healthiest, and not be consumed. It matters not just to me, but to many many other people who love you and need you. I love you and need you.
I was about to fried up some chicken tenders for some chicken sandwiches, but then discovered I had defrosted the sausage instead! Yeah, I just made a batch of dough, but that won't be ready until tomorrow or Friday. So I put the chicken in the sink, and it looks like I won't be able to start cooking dinner until after the night prayer. Maybe I'll roll them in my home made hot sauce, for some buffalo chicken sandwiches. If only I had blue cheese. I made my hot sauce with a little fermented anchovies, and over time there was gas buildup in the bottle and when I opened it, it popped like champagne. Yeah, all over my sink and kitchen wall. Good thing I was standing at the sink. Good thing I still have some left in the bottle. I'd better go pop it again.
Hi there! Hi there! Are you feeling good? It's as hot as ever here. I need another AC. It must be close to spring over there. I miss the cool weather, and spring and fall. I want to thank you for keeping your nose clean. It matters to me, because I want you to be at your best and healthiest, and not be consumed. It matters not just to me, but to many many other people who love you and need you. I love you and need you.
I was about to fried up some chicken tenders for some chicken sandwiches, but then discovered I had defrosted the sausage instead! Yeah, I just made a batch of dough, but that won't be ready until tomorrow or Friday. So I put the chicken in the sink, and it looks like I won't be able to start cooking dinner until after the night prayer. Maybe I'll roll them in my home made hot sauce, for some buffalo chicken sandwiches. If only I had blue cheese. I made my hot sauce with a little fermented anchovies, and over time there was gas buildup in the bottle and when I opened it, it popped like champagne. Yeah, all over my sink and kitchen wall. Good thing I was standing at the sink. Good thing I still have some left in the bottle. I'd better go pop it again.
Qur'an 20160310
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
20. So if they dispute with you, say, "I have submitted my whole self to Allah and so have those who follow me." And say to the people of the Book and to those who are unlearned, "Do you submit yourselves?" If they do, they are in right guidance. But if they turn back, your duty is to convey the message. And in Allah's sight are God's servants.
(The Family of Imran 3:20)
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20. So if they dispute with you, say, "I have submitted my whole self to Allah and so have those who follow me." And say to the people of the Book and to those who are unlearned, "Do you submit yourselves?" If they do, they are in right guidance. But if they turn back, your duty is to convey the message. And in Allah's sight are God's servants.
(The Family of Imran 3:20)
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Tuesday, March 8, 2016
Letter to Erin 20160309
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello, my beloved. How are you feeling today? It's still awfully hot around here, it has been since the New Year, and the nights are not much better. So I've been indoors in the AC as much as possible. There's nothing much going on here either, just the usual. I like it nice and slow. I did have to step outside to take care of my crops, then in the evening I had to continue breaking down all that debris left from all that chainsawing I did around your house inshaAllah. Tonight I and my computer will be busy encoding for Shadowplay TV. Just the usual stuff.
I know you're busy, so please make sure you're well rested and eat properly. Please pray. I want you to know that you are loved. I'm the one who loves you, and needs you.
Hello, my beloved. How are you feeling today? It's still awfully hot around here, it has been since the New Year, and the nights are not much better. So I've been indoors in the AC as much as possible. There's nothing much going on here either, just the usual. I like it nice and slow. I did have to step outside to take care of my crops, then in the evening I had to continue breaking down all that debris left from all that chainsawing I did around your house inshaAllah. Tonight I and my computer will be busy encoding for Shadowplay TV. Just the usual stuff.
I know you're busy, so please make sure you're well rested and eat properly. Please pray. I want you to know that you are loved. I'm the one who loves you, and needs you.
Qur'an 20160309
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
15. Say, "Shall I give you glad tidings of things far better than those? For the righteous are gardens in nearness to their Lord with rivers flowing beneath, therein is their eternal home with companions pure, and the good pleasure of Allah. For in Allah's sight is God's servants."
(The Family of Imran 3:15)
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15. Say, "Shall I give you glad tidings of things far better than those? For the righteous are gardens in nearness to their Lord with rivers flowing beneath, therein is their eternal home with companions pure, and the good pleasure of Allah. For in Allah's sight is God's servants."
(The Family of Imran 3:15)
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