In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Oh dear, what a day of mood swings. I told you not to worry so much. It's all that worrying that allows you to be influenced by other people to do what you don't want to do and feel how you don't want to feel. No, not me. I'm the guy that has to help protect you, and provide for your happiness and security. There's no such thing as "the perfect feeling." I told you this already! No matter how much drugs or booze you ingest. Instead of coming down from a high, just be patient. Patience is the next best feeling.
Yeah, I get mood swings too. But I already know what I want to do and where to make my stand. Please try to stop drinking those funny tasting beverages. Don't binge yourself into unhappiness with tons of food either. Go running instead. I heard someone say that running helps her think clearly and also releases endorphin, so she can't help but feel good later. A friend of yours?
By the way, I love you and I need you.
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
Letter to Erin 20151216
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
In the light of the current attitude towards Muslims, of course there would be people pressuring you to be treacherous to me. This is not clairvoyance, it is common sense. This is compounded by that you have become successful, and are enjoying the comforts that come with the success and wealth that your connection to Islam has helped you nurture, by the Will of Allah. Certainly they would say that you don't need me, and perhaps you don't. I can't force you to marry me. But again I remind you that the goal of our marriage is to stay put here, in this kampung in Malaysia, and raise a family, and you are my Muslim wife. Who knows what happiness is? All I know is my mission, to please Allah with music.
On the contrary, my situation hasn't changed since I proposed to you a little over 2 years ago. Now that I think about it, my situation hasn't changed since 1989. Allah granted me more piety alhamdulillah, but my situation hasn't changed. Always on the edge. Who knows what happiness is? I am an old musician. I have discovered that I am unable fall in love anymore. Love has to be calculated and negotiated. Sure I like pretty blondes, but I was very taken by your sincerity. I believe it is genuine. When the time comes inshaAllah, that sincerity will be tested with a ring. But for now, for what it's worth, I love you and I need you.
In the light of the current attitude towards Muslims, of course there would be people pressuring you to be treacherous to me. This is not clairvoyance, it is common sense. This is compounded by that you have become successful, and are enjoying the comforts that come with the success and wealth that your connection to Islam has helped you nurture, by the Will of Allah. Certainly they would say that you don't need me, and perhaps you don't. I can't force you to marry me. But again I remind you that the goal of our marriage is to stay put here, in this kampung in Malaysia, and raise a family, and you are my Muslim wife. Who knows what happiness is? All I know is my mission, to please Allah with music.
On the contrary, my situation hasn't changed since I proposed to you a little over 2 years ago. Now that I think about it, my situation hasn't changed since 1989. Allah granted me more piety alhamdulillah, but my situation hasn't changed. Always on the edge. Who knows what happiness is? I am an old musician. I have discovered that I am unable fall in love anymore. Love has to be calculated and negotiated. Sure I like pretty blondes, but I was very taken by your sincerity. I believe it is genuine. When the time comes inshaAllah, that sincerity will be tested with a ring. But for now, for what it's worth, I love you and I need you.
Monday, December 14, 2015
Letter to Erin 20151215
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi Sweetie! Hi Gorgeous! How are you feeling, my love? I pray that you are feeling great, looking great, and having a great old time. Please take good care of yourself and don't forget to pray. I love you and I need you.
Today is Monday, and it's HOT as usual. I'm grateful to have AC, but I do miss the four seasons. Strawberries and daffodils. But at least I still have pizza! Alhamdulillah. My dough is finally ready. I like to make hard dough lately, so they take some time to rise. Today's flavor is mole chicken with sweet red peppers. A sweet pizza. I've seen some sweet pizzas out there, and most of the time they overdo the sugar. Mole sauce is hot pepper puree and chocolate. Yeah today's pizza is sweet, but it doesn't overdose on sugar. Plus there's a touch of spiciness in there. Want some?
Hi Sweetie! Hi Gorgeous! How are you feeling, my love? I pray that you are feeling great, looking great, and having a great old time. Please take good care of yourself and don't forget to pray. I love you and I need you.
Today is Monday, and it's HOT as usual. I'm grateful to have AC, but I do miss the four seasons. Strawberries and daffodils. But at least I still have pizza! Alhamdulillah. My dough is finally ready. I like to make hard dough lately, so they take some time to rise. Today's flavor is mole chicken with sweet red peppers. A sweet pizza. I've seen some sweet pizzas out there, and most of the time they overdo the sugar. Mole sauce is hot pepper puree and chocolate. Yeah today's pizza is sweet, but it doesn't overdose on sugar. Plus there's a touch of spiciness in there. Want some?
Sunday, December 13, 2015
Letter to Erin 20151214
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi there, beautiful and Sweetheart! Are you having fun yet? If you can look past the seriousness of it all, which I know you can, you will see that the whole situation is really kind of looney. On a global scale. It's not that the situation is confusing, but that people have been confused all their existence. Allah guides whom Allah Wills. They may desire to be starlets, but you are MY girl. I love you and I need you.
I needed to make more marinara sauce for more pizza and stuff, so I had to go downtown to get the fixings. I also wanted to buy dinner while I was out. But none of the usual joints I go to were open for some reason. Except Ina, and I was there yesterday. The places that were open didn't look too appetizing to me, so that meant I had to cook my own dinner. I looked around and everywhere I looked, people were buying burgers. So I went with the flow, and decided on cheeseburgers tonight. But not just any cheeseburgers. I had some of my Mom's "sambal belacan" in my cooler. I think I described to you what "sambal belacan" was before, basically a red hot pepper condiment with a fermented shrimp and tamarind kick. It's a local food, and quite common here. I told my Mom that "sambal belacan" matches perfectly with melted cheese, and she said "Yuck!" But it really does match well with melted cheese. So for a "sambal belacan" burger, add a tablespoon of "sambal belacan" under the cheese before you melt it. Totally awesome. You must try it.
Please make a donation of a minimum of one US dollar or one Euro to a worthwhile charity.
Hi there, beautiful and Sweetheart! Are you having fun yet? If you can look past the seriousness of it all, which I know you can, you will see that the whole situation is really kind of looney. On a global scale. It's not that the situation is confusing, but that people have been confused all their existence. Allah guides whom Allah Wills. They may desire to be starlets, but you are MY girl. I love you and I need you.
I needed to make more marinara sauce for more pizza and stuff, so I had to go downtown to get the fixings. I also wanted to buy dinner while I was out. But none of the usual joints I go to were open for some reason. Except Ina, and I was there yesterday. The places that were open didn't look too appetizing to me, so that meant I had to cook my own dinner. I looked around and everywhere I looked, people were buying burgers. So I went with the flow, and decided on cheeseburgers tonight. But not just any cheeseburgers. I had some of my Mom's "sambal belacan" in my cooler. I think I described to you what "sambal belacan" was before, basically a red hot pepper condiment with a fermented shrimp and tamarind kick. It's a local food, and quite common here. I told my Mom that "sambal belacan" matches perfectly with melted cheese, and she said "Yuck!" But it really does match well with melted cheese. So for a "sambal belacan" burger, add a tablespoon of "sambal belacan" under the cheese before you melt it. Totally awesome. You must try it.
Please make a donation of a minimum of one US dollar or one Euro to a worthwhile charity.
Saturday, December 12, 2015
Letter to Erin 20151213
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Don't worry so much. I'm OK, alhamdulillah. Learn to ride the situation, and don't forget to pray. You are my wife. Together we are one. I love you, and I need you.
I finally got the chance to cut the grass. It's been a while, and it's been raining most of the time, but today I finally cleared up that overgrowth. And right after I got done, it started to rain.
There's still nothing special on the menu. I'm just trying to finish up what I already have in the cooler before it goes bad. For lunch I had chili and cheese sandwiches. I did manage to get a batch of dough done, but it won't be ready to use until Monday. I didn't cook any dinner. I bought some rice over at Ina's to save time before the sunset prayer, which they're calling right as I write. Please excuse me while I pray.
Don't worry so much. I'm OK, alhamdulillah. Learn to ride the situation, and don't forget to pray. You are my wife. Together we are one. I love you, and I need you.
I finally got the chance to cut the grass. It's been a while, and it's been raining most of the time, but today I finally cleared up that overgrowth. And right after I got done, it started to rain.
There's still nothing special on the menu. I'm just trying to finish up what I already have in the cooler before it goes bad. For lunch I had chili and cheese sandwiches. I did manage to get a batch of dough done, but it won't be ready to use until Monday. I didn't cook any dinner. I bought some rice over at Ina's to save time before the sunset prayer, which they're calling right as I write. Please excuse me while I pray.
Friday, December 11, 2015
Letter to Erin 20151212
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Ack! I don't want to eat rotten fruit! Please keep your fruit pure and clean for me, and I will do the same for you inshaAllah.
The local mosque has finished remodeling, so I went there for Friday prayer this afternoon. On the way there, I saw a new house being built. The first floor was on a concrete foundation that was about a meter high. It has to be that high to guard from flooding. So I thought that the foundation of your house inshaAllah has to be that high as well. And no basement!
Nothing special on the menu today. Have to watch the budget you know, and finish off what's in the cooler. I wanted to cut the grass in the evening, but it started to rain. So after the rain stopped, I went out for some gasoline, and a loaf of sliced bread for leftover chili. A very humble day food wise. I didn't even have any dough to make my own bread. I suppose I have to make a batch of dough later.
Urgh... I am full though. I hope you are staying warm and getting plenty of rest. Please take good loving care of yourself, because I love you and I need you.
Please make a donation of a minimum of one US dollar or one Euro to a worthwhile charity.
Ack! I don't want to eat rotten fruit! Please keep your fruit pure and clean for me, and I will do the same for you inshaAllah.
The local mosque has finished remodeling, so I went there for Friday prayer this afternoon. On the way there, I saw a new house being built. The first floor was on a concrete foundation that was about a meter high. It has to be that high to guard from flooding. So I thought that the foundation of your house inshaAllah has to be that high as well. And no basement!
Nothing special on the menu today. Have to watch the budget you know, and finish off what's in the cooler. I wanted to cut the grass in the evening, but it started to rain. So after the rain stopped, I went out for some gasoline, and a loaf of sliced bread for leftover chili. A very humble day food wise. I didn't even have any dough to make my own bread. I suppose I have to make a batch of dough later.
Urgh... I am full though. I hope you are staying warm and getting plenty of rest. Please take good loving care of yourself, because I love you and I need you.
Please make a donation of a minimum of one US dollar or one Euro to a worthwhile charity.
Thursday, December 10, 2015
Letter to Erin 20151211
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi! How are you feeling today, Sweetie? Is it nice and cold over there? Dress up warm! Wear the mink jacket! It's bloody HOT over here. Aaaaah!!! I wanted to stay indoors all day, but I had so much to do in the garden. I had to put fertilizer in all those baby mangoes, I had to replant the hot peppers and the okra, etc etc. Dinner was pizza again. Knowing how to make pizza gives me the option of having pizza every day, and I know some people that would eat pizza every day if they could. Would you have pizza every day? Pizza. What a concept.
Do you remember that female papaya tree with 3 heads that I showed you the photo of? One of the heads fell off. I suspect my parents of pulling that head down. Well, the other day I picked an almost ripe fruit from the straight head and put it in the cooler. 2 days ago I tried to cut it open, but it was too hard. Aaah! I should have left it out at room temperature to fully ripen! Then another day, I picked a smaller, almost ripe fruit fruit from the head that leans left. This time I left it out at room temperature. Today it was soft, so I cut it open. Aaah! It was rotten!
Please remember to take good care of yourself, OK? Stay healthy OK? I love you, and I need you.
Hi! How are you feeling today, Sweetie? Is it nice and cold over there? Dress up warm! Wear the mink jacket! It's bloody HOT over here. Aaaaah!!! I wanted to stay indoors all day, but I had so much to do in the garden. I had to put fertilizer in all those baby mangoes, I had to replant the hot peppers and the okra, etc etc. Dinner was pizza again. Knowing how to make pizza gives me the option of having pizza every day, and I know some people that would eat pizza every day if they could. Would you have pizza every day? Pizza. What a concept.
Do you remember that female papaya tree with 3 heads that I showed you the photo of? One of the heads fell off. I suspect my parents of pulling that head down. Well, the other day I picked an almost ripe fruit from the straight head and put it in the cooler. 2 days ago I tried to cut it open, but it was too hard. Aaah! I should have left it out at room temperature to fully ripen! Then another day, I picked a smaller, almost ripe fruit fruit from the head that leans left. This time I left it out at room temperature. Today it was soft, so I cut it open. Aaah! It was rotten!
Please remember to take good care of yourself, OK? Stay healthy OK? I love you, and I need you.
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