In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi there, my beautiful Erin. How are you feeling today, my beloved? I'm sorry, but I couldn't do my voice training today- I had to take my Dad to the clinic. Yeah. But while I was waiting for him, I played the drum in the park. In the evening, I cut the grass over at your house inshaAllah. Someone put 3 banana hearts on a stump. A banana heart is a banana flower. At first I thought it was witchcraft and I was about to throw it into the firepit, but Floofy seemed to approve of it. But what does a cat know. Ya Allah, thank You for all the beautiful cats You have given me. Please heal and protect them.
As you know, Bat Cat is a black and white cat with a black mask and white socks, and I have 2 Bat Cats. Bat Cat I is totally independent: he doesn't need me at all, but he hangs out here anyway. The other cats don't seem to have a problem with him, and he doesn't bother them. He has bigger balls than Bob Cat, I think that's why. In cat politics, the cat with the biggest balls wins. Bat Cat III is the great observer. Like the Watcher in the old X-men comics. I saw a black cat and a white cat in my yard last morning. They were prowling together, and fled together when I approached them. What's the connection? What does it mean? It means, "Meow".
Do you remember what you were doing when you were newly born? Well, I was active in the Salt Lake City music scene. The scenesters in this video were the popular ones. The SLC music scene back in 1989 was like high school to me: not only did I not fit in, I was LOATHED. But I can't blame them. I was as corrupt and insane as you would expect a troublemaker to be, my music wasn't that great and if I seem any better today, it's because Allah has mercy on me. The goody two shoes conformists you see in this video were the popular ones, so it's no wonder me and Shadowplay are never mentioned. It's tough being a rebel. And even today, I'm more loathed than loved. I guess high school never ends.
But today I have you in my life, Erin. You don't know how much that means to me. You simply just don't know. So please don't be sad. Please be patient and pray, because I love you and I need you. I'm going to play Sims 3 now. Getting there, Erin. I need lots of money to build your house, and to give you a good married life. Please pray.
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Monday, April 20, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150421
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello, my beautiful and sensitive soulmate Erin. Please don't be blue because I love you, and I assure you my love is true, and I want to marry you. I wish we were already married and together. So please be patient, and keep your will strong and brave. And you are brave, my sweetheart. Sure our work in the Public eye can be weird and tedious at times. But that's how we met and who we are. And it is kind of cool, don't you agree? Alhamdulillah.
Dinner was a big hit, alhamdulillah. I had one more chunk of sirloin left, marinading in my teriyaki sauce. I sliced it up and mixed it back in the marinade with ginger and Thai peppers. Then I fried it up until done. Then I fried some chopped garlic in a sauce made of sweet bean paste, hot red pepper paste and sugar until simmering hot. Then I added a whole block of fresh tofu. You know how fresh tofu comes in blocks. The trick is not to disintegrate the block, and smother it with the fried mix until hot. Push it to one side of the pan and add the steak back in to mix with the sauce. Remove the block of tofu first, put it in a bowl, and pour the rest of the stuff on top. Looks and tastes great. The tofu cuts and tastes like savory cream cheese. Would you like some my dearest? As soon as dinner was about to be served, all those flying ants came back. There seems to be more than usual this year.
Erin I love you, and I need you.
Hello, my beautiful and sensitive soulmate Erin. Please don't be blue because I love you, and I assure you my love is true, and I want to marry you. I wish we were already married and together. So please be patient, and keep your will strong and brave. And you are brave, my sweetheart. Sure our work in the Public eye can be weird and tedious at times. But that's how we met and who we are. And it is kind of cool, don't you agree? Alhamdulillah.
Dinner was a big hit, alhamdulillah. I had one more chunk of sirloin left, marinading in my teriyaki sauce. I sliced it up and mixed it back in the marinade with ginger and Thai peppers. Then I fried it up until done. Then I fried some chopped garlic in a sauce made of sweet bean paste, hot red pepper paste and sugar until simmering hot. Then I added a whole block of fresh tofu. You know how fresh tofu comes in blocks. The trick is not to disintegrate the block, and smother it with the fried mix until hot. Push it to one side of the pan and add the steak back in to mix with the sauce. Remove the block of tofu first, put it in a bowl, and pour the rest of the stuff on top. Looks and tastes great. The tofu cuts and tastes like savory cream cheese. Would you like some my dearest? As soon as dinner was about to be served, all those flying ants came back. There seems to be more than usual this year.
Erin I love you, and I need you.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150420
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi Erin! Sweetheart! Mwah! How are you? There's nothing much going on here, just the same old. It's raining right now. It's a noisy storm too, with plenty of thunder and lightning. The bolts aren't hitting very close though, but it's still a very vocal storm.
I bought a big block of cream cheese yesterday when I was at the big mall in Alor Setar. There's nothing really special about the big mall, it's just a big mall, and if you've seen one mall, you've seen them all. I can't really say there's a wider variety of products, just more. I'm probably bummed out because I didn't find any blue cheese. I saw some Camembert cheese which I should have bought since my Dad was buying, but I have never had Camembert cheese and I had my heart set on blue cheese. So I got a big chunk of cream cheese. So for dinner I rolled 2 dough balls, stuffed them with cream cheese, then deep fried them. With my marinara sauce on the side. Simplicity! I wonder how this cream cheese works for lasagna: I saw some lasagna noodles the other day. It probably won't spread easily, because I had to shape today's cheese with my fingers. But it was cold, though.
After the rain stopped, I played on my little snare drum again. I'll be the first to admit that I'm not the best drummer in the world. I just play what I feel. And nowadays, I just feel like pounding out rhythms of the Qur'an.
I wish you were here with me, my beloved Erin. I want you to take good loving care of yourself, OK? I love you, and I need you.
Hi Erin! Sweetheart! Mwah! How are you? There's nothing much going on here, just the same old. It's raining right now. It's a noisy storm too, with plenty of thunder and lightning. The bolts aren't hitting very close though, but it's still a very vocal storm.
I bought a big block of cream cheese yesterday when I was at the big mall in Alor Setar. There's nothing really special about the big mall, it's just a big mall, and if you've seen one mall, you've seen them all. I can't really say there's a wider variety of products, just more. I'm probably bummed out because I didn't find any blue cheese. I saw some Camembert cheese which I should have bought since my Dad was buying, but I have never had Camembert cheese and I had my heart set on blue cheese. So I got a big chunk of cream cheese. So for dinner I rolled 2 dough balls, stuffed them with cream cheese, then deep fried them. With my marinara sauce on the side. Simplicity! I wonder how this cream cheese works for lasagna: I saw some lasagna noodles the other day. It probably won't spread easily, because I had to shape today's cheese with my fingers. But it was cold, though.
After the rain stopped, I played on my little snare drum again. I'll be the first to admit that I'm not the best drummer in the world. I just play what I feel. And nowadays, I just feel like pounding out rhythms of the Qur'an.
I wish you were here with me, my beloved Erin. I want you to take good loving care of yourself, OK? I love you, and I need you.
Saturday, April 18, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150419
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hi there, Erin my dearest. How are you feeling today? I love you very much, so I want you to feel healthy and confident. I'm sorry I couldn't do my voice training, so I hope your and your bosses weren't betting too much on today's activities. My orders are to be consistent but inshaAllah God will forgive me this lapse, because I had to visit my aunt. She has fallen seriously ill: she has lung cancer which spread to the rest of her body including her spine, which effectively paralyzed her from the waist down. The odd thing is that not only does she not smoke, but she carried herself fine until the last 10 days when she hacked up blood. They took an MRI and found the lumps. My Dad is a chain smoker and older than her, but he doesn't have the same problem. God certainly works in mysterious ways.
On the way there, we stopped for lunch. At my table, there were 2 Bat Cat clones, and they were both female. I had never met a female Bat Cat clone before! One of them was sleeping, and the other was lying on the floor and waving her paw at me. When I got home, Bat Cat didn't show up for dinner. What's the connection? What does it mean? It means "Meow". Ha! I'm not telling. I'm meowing.
I pray you are doing well, and staying healthy, and eating well, and getting enough rest. I'm, doing OK, thank you. Alhamdulillah. I love you, and I need you.
Hi there, Erin my dearest. How are you feeling today? I love you very much, so I want you to feel healthy and confident. I'm sorry I couldn't do my voice training, so I hope your and your bosses weren't betting too much on today's activities. My orders are to be consistent but inshaAllah God will forgive me this lapse, because I had to visit my aunt. She has fallen seriously ill: she has lung cancer which spread to the rest of her body including her spine, which effectively paralyzed her from the waist down. The odd thing is that not only does she not smoke, but she carried herself fine until the last 10 days when she hacked up blood. They took an MRI and found the lumps. My Dad is a chain smoker and older than her, but he doesn't have the same problem. God certainly works in mysterious ways.
On the way there, we stopped for lunch. At my table, there were 2 Bat Cat clones, and they were both female. I had never met a female Bat Cat clone before! One of them was sleeping, and the other was lying on the floor and waving her paw at me. When I got home, Bat Cat didn't show up for dinner. What's the connection? What does it mean? It means "Meow". Ha! I'm not telling. I'm meowing.
I pray you are doing well, and staying healthy, and eating well, and getting enough rest. I'm, doing OK, thank you. Alhamdulillah. I love you, and I need you.
Friday, April 17, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150418
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Hello, Erin my darling. And how are you feeling today? Life goes on, doesn't it. Here I wait for you, for the time when we can be married. Ya Allah, please help and protect us.
It rained heavily today. The rain broke in the evening, so I was able to do a little bit of yard work. So I went to prune the bamboo in front of my house, across the road to the elementary school. I used to hack it up with a machete, but now I find it more aesthetic to just use a hand pruner. I found some perfect lengths of bamboo for use as drumsticks. I love bamboo. I love bamboo drumsticks as opposed to those machined drumsticks other drummers use. Not only are they springier with many variations of texture and weight, but also bamboo is curved. But I think the real reason I love bamboo so much is that my hands are too big and clumsy to spin drumsticks, so I use bamboo because no one else does.
Nothing special from me on the menu today. My Mom made some rice, so I had that for both lunch and dinner, the difference being that lunch was fried anchovies and dinner was sirloin. I pray you are having a great time, plus taking it easy. Erin, I love you and I need you.
Hello, Erin my darling. And how are you feeling today? Life goes on, doesn't it. Here I wait for you, for the time when we can be married. Ya Allah, please help and protect us.
It rained heavily today. The rain broke in the evening, so I was able to do a little bit of yard work. So I went to prune the bamboo in front of my house, across the road to the elementary school. I used to hack it up with a machete, but now I find it more aesthetic to just use a hand pruner. I found some perfect lengths of bamboo for use as drumsticks. I love bamboo. I love bamboo drumsticks as opposed to those machined drumsticks other drummers use. Not only are they springier with many variations of texture and weight, but also bamboo is curved. But I think the real reason I love bamboo so much is that my hands are too big and clumsy to spin drumsticks, so I use bamboo because no one else does.
Nothing special from me on the menu today. My Mom made some rice, so I had that for both lunch and dinner, the difference being that lunch was fried anchovies and dinner was sirloin. I pray you are having a great time, plus taking it easy. Erin, I love you and I need you.
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150417
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Oh hi, Erin Sweetie. How are you feeling today? I pray you are feeling healthy and confident. It's just another mundane day here for me. I fell back to sleep after the dawn prayer, woke up at 9 am, cleaned the cat room, took a shower and went to pay the bills, I had rice vermicelli soup for breakfast and stuffed won tons for lunch, changed the spark plug on my motorcycle, voice trained, went to buy a can of tomato soup, baby powder and a loaf of bread for my parents, cut the grass over at my grandparents' grave, had noodles in fish broth for dinner, now I'm writing to you.
I've played the Sims before, not Sims 3 but I remember that it was impossible to backtrack. Perhaps if I wiped out the hard drive and reinstalled the program. But I'm REALLY studying up for this game, so I don't make many errors, and get a nice house designed for you. And my goal is to build your house. I was thinking about playing as a single Sim, but as far as I remember, Sims die if they're lonely, so I'm going to have to play with a Sim of you. We will be married. Perhaps we've always been married. God, I wonder how long it will take me to build that house... Say, how about you install the same game and the same situation on your computer? I would be curious to see how your Sim couple of us would turn out. Don't worry about me: if I make a mistake, I'll just wipe out the hard drive and start again. I'll make absolutely sure my Sim couple have a happy ending. InshaAllah. Oh wait, this manual says I can save multiple games! That's nice. Hey, maybe I will play as a single Sim, but how do I fit you onto your house? Oh wait, the goal is to build the house. Duh.
Erin, please try to slow down and take good care of yourself, OK? I want you to be happy, and happy with me. I love you, and I need you.
Oh hi, Erin Sweetie. How are you feeling today? I pray you are feeling healthy and confident. It's just another mundane day here for me. I fell back to sleep after the dawn prayer, woke up at 9 am, cleaned the cat room, took a shower and went to pay the bills, I had rice vermicelli soup for breakfast and stuffed won tons for lunch, changed the spark plug on my motorcycle, voice trained, went to buy a can of tomato soup, baby powder and a loaf of bread for my parents, cut the grass over at my grandparents' grave, had noodles in fish broth for dinner, now I'm writing to you.
I've played the Sims before, not Sims 3 but I remember that it was impossible to backtrack. Perhaps if I wiped out the hard drive and reinstalled the program. But I'm REALLY studying up for this game, so I don't make many errors, and get a nice house designed for you. And my goal is to build your house. I was thinking about playing as a single Sim, but as far as I remember, Sims die if they're lonely, so I'm going to have to play with a Sim of you. We will be married. Perhaps we've always been married. God, I wonder how long it will take me to build that house... Say, how about you install the same game and the same situation on your computer? I would be curious to see how your Sim couple of us would turn out. Don't worry about me: if I make a mistake, I'll just wipe out the hard drive and start again. I'll make absolutely sure my Sim couple have a happy ending. InshaAllah. Oh wait, this manual says I can save multiple games! That's nice. Hey, maybe I will play as a single Sim, but how do I fit you onto your house? Oh wait, the goal is to build the house. Duh.
Erin, please try to slow down and take good care of yourself, OK? I want you to be happy, and happy with me. I love you, and I need you.
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Letter to Erin 20150416
In the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Merciful.
Aw Erin, you're such a sweetheart. And you're so beautiful. I really love you, and I need you.
Have you been working on your house plans? I'm not talented in drawing, not even when aided by a computer. Did I tell you I bought some computer equipment yesterday? It was an external DVD drive, something that can read the software around here. So I finally have a home design software that I can deal with: the Sims 3! Well even then, it's going to take me some time to design a house, not because I'm such an idiot at drawing, but also because I don't even have a concept yet. I would rather go by your house plans, Erin. Perhaps you can show me what you have so far?
Let's see... design a Sim... face, eyebrows, lips, nose, hair... lifetime goals, personality... You know what, Erin? It's going to take me a very LONG time to design a house on this program.
There is no escaping from God. We feel that we can drown out reality, but it only makes us confront it. Especially when the drugs and alcohol wear off. The other option is to embrace it. Plunge into the vortex. And let me tell you Erin, that Allah will grant us a speedy victory. InshaAllah.
Aw Erin, you're such a sweetheart. And you're so beautiful. I really love you, and I need you.
Have you been working on your house plans? I'm not talented in drawing, not even when aided by a computer. Did I tell you I bought some computer equipment yesterday? It was an external DVD drive, something that can read the software around here. So I finally have a home design software that I can deal with: the Sims 3! Well even then, it's going to take me some time to design a house, not because I'm such an idiot at drawing, but also because I don't even have a concept yet. I would rather go by your house plans, Erin. Perhaps you can show me what you have so far?
Let's see... design a Sim... face, eyebrows, lips, nose, hair... lifetime goals, personality... You know what, Erin? It's going to take me a very LONG time to design a house on this program.
There is no escaping from God. We feel that we can drown out reality, but it only makes us confront it. Especially when the drugs and alcohol wear off. The other option is to embrace it. Plunge into the vortex. And let me tell you Erin, that Allah will grant us a speedy victory. InshaAllah.
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